After what seemed an eternity, Terry wandered into the Random Bar. It reeked of ash and soot as it had once seen the destruction of a blaze so great that it nearly was unrepairable.
The smell did not bother him in the least, though as he thought that it was time for the bar to begin anew.
Seeing some tables that could use a good cleaning, Terry took out the spare rag that he had on him, the one not used on his precious guitar back home, and he found some cleaner nearby as well.
If this bar was going to be seeing any activity, it better look a lot cleaner than it is.
He scrubbed and scrubbed until an entire section of tables and booths had shone with a glory that was thought to be lost for good.
Next, he saw an old stage that really could use some repair. It was intended as a kareoke bar, but thanks to the fire, it was in shambles. Now, he did not keep nails and boards handy on him, but he did see someone that might be able to assist him in the repairs. He wandered over to Epsiloth hoping that he was in a helpful mood, if not, then perhaps Terry could help him becoming a bit more helpful.
Terry also saw the Knight of Dragonlance and maybe with the Knight's assistance, perhaps there could be some security detail a happening with this place.
Then Terry noticed "something invisible" and wondered if maybe it was that who started the fire. From his experience with the spirit realm, some spirits are good and some are bad. He only hoped that this Something Invisible was one of the good spirits.
Wandering over to Epsiloth, Terry said, "Pardon me, my good sir, would you mind assisting me in the repairs to the Kareoke bar stage? As you can see its a mess and I was hoping that with everyone's help, we might be able to get this place a great hangout once again."
~Thedeepestdefinitionofyouth...
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oh my!!! *turns over to see Terrance and smiles widely* oh my good Terrance, its a pleasure for me to see you here!! welcome back! this cathastrophe can be repaired and its a honor that you, brave warrior wants to lend us your strenght. but oh! my! where are my manners, can i offer you something to drink? i've pretty much repaired the bar and the kitchen~
I am glad that I have a roof and food (although sometimes I don't eat). I'm not hating that part of life. I hate lots of other parts of life. I.. I think I am about to go tmi.
-sigh-
I just want to have a good time again, even if it's only pretend while I'm online. I miss chatting with people online like I used to when I was in high school.
I DONT KNOW HOW TO END THIS
~Thedeepestdefinitionofyouth...
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hey loner heart well, in fact.. i am also unemployed.. Xp i think most of us are DX jobs are pretty hard to get this days it seems.. =/ anyway, don't give up yeh? life never gives us more than what we can handle, just test after test. so if you feel like the most strangled person, don't you worry my friend, its a sign that you are indeed a hell of a strong person and you can make it to the end.
btw. i think about moving out with your friends is an awesome idea. change of airs and gaining independence. is the best way to start anew.
Purified Ace
xd hahah Ace!! my friend!!!! heart its awesome to see ya again heart what took you so long tho! we've been waiting for you~ biggrin wanna drink something? ^w^
Knight of Dragonlance
lol yeah.. what can i say.. we all are it seems... Xp unemployment sucks bad...
The funniest part though, not actually funny haha, is that I want to move to a different town, three hours away, without even having a job there either. My friend is looking for an apartment. I would like a change of place though. WHO KNOWS THO. Wish life could be a little easier. I'm also scared as SCARED. Because I never lived in an apartment. I never had to worry about rent or amenities. I've always lived in a dorm, one time payment at the start of the semester. And I might only stay two months at this said place. I CANT BREATHE EHEHEHEUUUHAU x / rentfoodresponsiblitiesjobsearchwhatisthis??thisismysummerofwhat I wouldn't call myself strong though. No never. I don't know what I am. Existing, barely, I guess. Test after test, I'm thinking about that one. But I do believe that you can have too much sometimes. What kind of life would I have if I had mercy? I don't think I have someone to give me mercy.
Posted: Tue Jun 03, 2014 10:19 pm
Loner, dear friend, allow me to expound on my thoughts, for I fear I've not done them justice. Also, it was rather remiss of me to not give context.
I moved out of my parents' place years ago. And moved to Australia. Talk about a rough start. I knew no one other than my new wife (I grew up in TN, she in Australia). Fast forward three years, and we're now broke, unemployed, and homeless. We're mooching off friends in order to survive. Literally. Can't afford to eat. And yet, my wife stands next to me, and we manage to be happy, despite the situation.
So, basically that was my point behind, at least you have a roof and food. Whatever deity you may believe in, or at least your parents, someone seems to have mercy on you. Or perhaps it would be called grace. Either way, you're breathing, and you've got a chance to do things. A day above ground is a good day, and all that.
To this symphony of sorrows I will now add my own. The phrase "Starving Collage Student" used to be funny to me till I got to University and realized that it was no joke. If I were not living at home currently I would be screwed. Thanks to my dad being mad at me, and since I wanted to try and save on my books, I now have a huge credit card bill, which I have never had before, and cannot pay off as I would like because I have no job. I have a bill to pay for my cell, managable and also pill costs but I dont have to worry about those for the next three months. I also live with a father who is still bitter over a divorce that happened 7 years ago and he projects all of that bitterness onto me and makes my life hell. I am alive barely and stress never goes away for long. I am terrified of what my state of affairs will be like in my third year even with OSAP aid. One thing is for sure I will swallow hard and just pay for my books at the school store, eventhough they are WAY over priced.
Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2014 5:09 am
Well at least you are happy, that is something I rarely am anymore. Yes, I could be very thankful for having my parents and any other little thing I have, but it's not easy for me. I have to sit down and really think about what I have, like now, to remember where I am. Yes, I do have food, a bed, little books on the shelves, clothes, and what not. But what I don't have is what I want the most. I miss happiness. I can't easily become happy like I used to. I lost it, but from time to time I can smile and laugh at something. But I'm not happy like I would like to be. I'm glad you are happy though, I'm not. It's something that's just hard to accept. Friends will tell me it will pass, but it's not passing for me. I can't just see the bright side of life, or that it's just norma,l or whatever. I wake up sad most days, waking up to the reality of my loss, sometimes crying. It's just my time of sadness. (I don't want to be a too much of a downer to this page. I'm sorry). And yes, this is my first heartbreak, I know I'm not dealing with it with the best of thought. Maybe most of you have dealt with it before, but I have never good with losing someone.
I do want to move very badly, I bet my parents would help me pay for the first month of rent. I have always been scared to move into an apartment, especially during the semester, because how would I hold a job and do well in classes. One of my biggest fears in life are not having enough money to pay for the necessary, or going into a big debt. I don't like debt, but I do understand that at times it's necessary and may even help you build credit. Book debt, I try to stay away from that. So far, I do not owe a cent for either book rentals or tuition. I ask around and try very hard to find the cheapest books for my family. I'm not the only one in college at the moment, so it's very important for me to keep the debt low. I'll admit, our family does have a good sum of money saved up in case we needed it, but I don't want to drain all of their savings. I care about them so much. I am thankful they pay for my tuition and that my parents were there to answer the phone when I wanted to call. I am.
Before I started to become active again on Gaia, I was really starting to believe that the Random Bar would remain abandoned. I remember coming online, once every two months or so, and would see hardly any activity, posts would be added after hours or days from one another. And I became sad because I was wanting to return to a more lively place.
I'll admit though, I was hardly ever part of the crew, or the regulars. I stood by and usually watched. I have noticed that the regulars are not quite on here as much, and I didn't really get to know them personally. I'm curious, but that's about it..
On a different note, I could make it kind of funny perhaps. But does anyone else still have acne? I do, and I'm 21. I've had it for years, ever since late middle school. It's embarrassing because I wish like I looked like an adult. I am aware that adults can still get acne, but I wish it would stop for me. I thought I was free from acne about a year ago, but now I'm sad and stressed again and I bet it has something to do with it. Yeah. It's stupid. Stupid acne.
Before I started to become active again on Gaia, I was really starting to believe that the Random Bar would remain abandoned. I remember coming online, once every two months or so, and would see hardly any activity, posts would be added after hours or days from one another. And I became sad because I was wanting to return to a more lively place.
I'll admit though, I was hardly ever part of the crew, or the regulars. I stood by and usually watched. I have noticed that the regulars are not quite on here as much, and I didn't really get to know them personally. I'm curious, but that's about it..
On a different note, I could make it kind of funny perhaps. But does anyone else still have acne? I do, and I'm 21. I've had it for years, ever since late middle school. It's embarrassing because I wish like I looked like an adult. I am aware that adults can still get acne, but I wish it would stop for me. I thought I was free from acne about a year ago, but now I'm sad and stressed again and I bet it has something to do with it. Yeah. It's stupid. Stupid acne.
~Thedeepestdefinitionofyouth...
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hey loner baby smile you know? im glad you realize all what you have, and you indeed are a really nice person because you do care.
you feeling pain is normal, heartbreaks are part of our lifes too.. you know what it is needed to get over it? to keep pushing yourself to go out and do things even if you don't feel them, that way little by little they'll come to get a new meaning for you. when i was first heartbroken, i was in sorrow over 6 years.. sadly, there was noone there in my time of need, no friends, family didn't care.. that person and me dated around 3 years, i didn't have any sexual xperience back then so i didn't want to. by the time we first did it, next morning he dissapeared without a word... over a week i tried to call, and get in touch so i could know what happened.. nothing. i even got really really scared cuz i thought i was preg (didn't happen tho.) well, after a couple of weeks more, i suddenly see him.. making supper with some kiddo.. next thing i knew was he was moving out, to another CITY, with another GIRL, whom i never heard of before and they were ENGAGED and seemed like they already had a kid or something.. so yeh.. it was pretty traumatic. so i asked why 3 years. why keeping the play and the farse so damn long if he just really wanted to get into my panties, and he just said : "it was fun". -shrugs- i think that broke me. took me quite long to recover from that, even tho i am ok now, hell i do remember, but now it doesn't hurt that much, i grew from that, and learned.. baby, things take their time to heal. don't try to rush, just step by step, one day at time. you have health, you have loving parents and well, you do have friends, if not there, here. so, take it easy <3
and.. with the though of you moving out? yeah it is scary as hell, and it doesn't get any better, but hey, you learn to organize, to manage, so it becomes part of your life. that's called growing up, and it sucks pretty badly XD
Knight of Dragonlance
yeah Xp i have pretty bad debts and no job either... but im praying to get one soon enough as to be able to pay XD i have faith :3 don't worry, everything will be ok
yeah Xp i have pretty bad debts and no job either... but im praying to get one soon enough as to be able to pay XD i have faith :3 don't worry, everything will be ok
One can only hope. Finding a job right now is ridiculous. I know people that have criminal records and have jobs sometimes two while I, who have never done an illegal thing in my life, cannot find ONE.
Thank you for your words. The best way I am taking this situation is day by day now. I'm mostly at home. I wish I could move to see my friends, or maybe I need to ask another friend if I may stay at their apartment for a few days. I really miss my friends that I made at my first college. I just miss a lot of people, and being happy.
Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2014 9:27 am
Realloner
Epsiloth
Thank you for your words. The best way I am taking this situation is day by day now. I'm mostly at home. I wish I could move to see my friends, or maybe I need to ask another friend if I may stay at their apartment for a few days. I really miss my friends that I made at my first college. I just miss a lot of people, and being happy.
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well, try that. a few days doesn't hurt anyone, and you could get to see your friends <3 :3
Everyone else has basically covered the healing portion of the advice column, but I can tell you this.
Yes, I still have acne. I'm 25, and the main reason I grow out my beard is because of acne. And don't even get me started on my back and shoulders.
It's just my face, it's just my face though! -sigh- I'm going to finish college with acne. Just hope that if I have to do another public speech or presentation that I have minimal acne. I just find it ridiculous that I have had it since I was a wee lass. If I still have it by 30, I'm going to flip so many tables.
