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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2007 7:51 am
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During a recent argument with my husband, I realized that thru the years, I've lost who I am and who I was in order to be what everyone else wanted me to be...
That means if I liked something on TV that no one else did, I learned to pretend I hated it, too ( especially something like the Smurfs..I used to collect the figurines).
Ditto music. I really liked the Bay City Rollers later stuff, (after Leslie McKeown left them), but no one else really does. Hubby thinks I love the early stuff only...which can be cringe worthy. I also like Rick Springfield, but hubby gets jealous...and who can blame him. Man is in his fifties and his son refers to him as the chick magnet...!
I used to like soppy romance movies...and in a guy dominated household, there is no room for soppy romance movies...(friend stays with myself and husband...which means at times, it feels like I am living in a frat house) Drama as well. Musicals as well.
I also used to like to sing..I don't sing anymore because no one can stand to hear my voice....so I am told.
I'd like to go back to college, but I have no idea what to study. My knees are such that I don't think I could stand for too long (which leaves library assistant out, and also most jobs). And I think I am a bit old to study for my masters in English Literature....I'd love to go into radio, but stopped listening to it in the nineties when they all went talk shock.....
Help?
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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2007 10:27 am
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I think this is what used to be called a "middle age crisis", but it's been my experience that it can happen at any time of life. It's when you look around and realize that things aren't what you thought they were, you aren't what you thought you would be, and you start deciding what, if anything, you plan to do about that.
I can't help with the pretending to like things or hate things because others do, because long ago I realized that lying about my preferences wasn't going to make them like me if they didn't already. They'd just find something else to dislike about me if they were going to.
If you do want to spend time on your likes, you'll need to stand up for them, and brush off the potentially hurtful comments. Or stand up to those, too, but politely: "I know you don't care for , but when you keep saying that, it hurts me a lot. Could you stop?"
Also you need to allow some time and space for those nearest and dearest to you to adjust to your new activities - it's been my experience that they're likely to be confused. Just as you need time to adjust your life, they also need time to adjust to your changes. And sometimes they say hurtful things out of fear and confusion - doesn't mean you can't call them on it, but you can do so politely and without striking back.
You're NOT too old to go for a master's in English Lit if you want. My mother in law, who turned 69 this year, just started a master's program in art history. Or to do radio (have you looked at podcasting as a way to get your feet wet with minimal cost before jumping in?). There are lots of possibilities, and sometimes it's the fear of giving up the comfort of the known, even if you're unhappy with it, that gets in the way.
You'll find yourself - I think you're not that far away!
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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2007 11:05 am
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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2007 11:35 am
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Posted: Sat Sep 15, 2007 10:32 am
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Posted: Sat Sep 15, 2007 4:48 pm
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Arguments with husbands can do that to you. I used to argue with mine all the time and me made me feel really crappy about myself...that's why I ended up divorcing him. I was fed up with feeling low and useless and hating things I used to love because of him. Been without him now for 3 years, got a new partner and a baby on the way. I've only been with my partner for around 1 year and we decided pretty fast that we wanted a baby together, originally did I want to wait for at least a year before I even wanted to think about babies, but I also had to think of my age...being 37 and having my body clock ticking, I couldn't really wait for a few years first...so far everything is fine, 1 year and not a single argument....very refreshing when I think back and remember those countless arguments I had with my ex...glad he's gone....oh damn...I turned this about a rant about myself...sorry about that. When I get started there is no stopping me...lol
Anywhoooo...don't be put of the things you really like, those are the things which keep us sane at the end of the day. If you can't bare watching your once favorite movie anymore, try to find something fresh you like.
I know all about the struggle when it comes to decide on a collage course, I've been trying to work one out for myself for several years now. First I was thinking about one to become an accountant..but then I decided against it, because I really can't see myself sitting and juggeling numbers all day, even though I'm pretty good at it. Then I was thinking about photography, something I wanted to do since high school. but since everything has gone digital it has somehow lost the ...whatshamacallit......excitement about the whole thing to me.
I really envy my 14 year old son...he already decided what he want's to become later on in life, he want's to become a chef and he's got his mind set on that..wish I would have been able at that age to decide what I wanted. Now I'm 37 and I still don't know what I want to do...lol
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Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2007 8:09 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2007 9:52 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2007 11:05 pm
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Posted: Wed Sep 19, 2007 9:14 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 21, 2007 3:43 pm
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Posted: Sat Sep 29, 2007 7:38 pm
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Speaking of the controlling one ~ how're things going Ms Nodi? Twas up to me, I'd thwack him upside the back of the head a time or two, but tisn't my marriage. But you keep working at it, good and bad, so I'ma support you whatever happens. ~ Hugs heart
Even if nobody else does, Nodi knows I'm always gonna ask her what she wants, and respect her opinion, even if I don't agree.
Mel ~ same goes for you ~ Making a marriage work is hard work, but don't lose yourself in the process. And again, if no else listens, we will here. heart
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Posted: Sun Sep 30, 2007 9:45 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 02, 2007 7:18 pm
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I should have looked at this one earlier!
As a husband myself, all I can say is: I don't really WANT to control my wife, but if she does as I say, then I'm NOT going to go out of my way to MAKE her choose something I don't want to do.
It's hard to compromise and marriage seems to be made up of compromises. I know that if I don't manage to compromise enough, my own marriage goes fuzzy around the edges.
When money's tight, it becomes even harder to compromise, because you're always worried about being able to afford the things YOU want to do (as a husband) the things that keep YOU going. You get caught up in the loss of your own dreams and you forget that your partners' are slipping away, too.
All I can say, then, is, if Umberella, my wife, were feeling I couldn't give her what she needed any more, I'd want her to find a new direction. I don't want to be a drag on anyone. I'd miss her, of course, but we KNOW we can live without eachother. We'd just rather live with eachother, for now...
...er, I think. Let me check. (*Hollers into the other room.*) HEY! HONEY! AM I TOO CONTROLLING? ...SOMETIMES!!! WHAT THE F- *sputter!* ...HOW AM I CONTROLLING?!? ...FASHION MAGAZINES! WELL OF COURSE I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN YOU PICK THOSE DAMN... WELL, YEAH, YOU DON'T SAY ANYTHING WHEN I... ... SINCE WHEN DON'T YOU LIKE... WELL, I THOUGHT YOU'D SAY SOMETHING, THAT'S ALL...
...WELL OF COURSE I FREAKIN' SULK! THAT'S WHAT... NO! WHY ACT HAPPY WHEN YOU'RE MISERABLE? OH COME ON! I JUST DON'T AGREE WITH IT... WELL, I THNK THEY SUCK MONEY OUT OF PEOPLE LIKE US! ...WHAT ABOUT MY DR. WHO OBSESSION? I THOUGHT YOU LIKE DR. WHO! YOU SHOULD'VE SAID! I CAN WATCH IT WHEN YOU AREN'T AROUND! OH THAT IS SO NOT... COUCH?!? WE DON'T HAVE A COUCH! NOT THE BATHTUB! PLEASE! I HAVE A COLD, PLEASE, NOT THE BATHTUB... FLOOR? WITH THREE CUSIONS? COMFORTER. I DEMAND... OK, I REQUEST A COMFORTER. FINE. NO. FINE! ...FLOOR IS GOOD.
See, I can compromise.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 9:58 pm
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