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The title is from a long, long time ago. Me and my friend were at the local park, and they had these mushroom things, and I was ********! LOOK AT ME! I'M MARIO!" And I'm jumping from one to the other and when I get to the smallest one, about five inches off the ground, I fell and twisted my ankle. It should be noted I did fine on the ones that were three feet in the air. I felt like a dumbass. But in a good, funny way.

Anyways....I'm really bored these days. So many people are always saying, "You're so lucky your homeschooled!" And I don't feel lucky. It's boring and gets lonesome. But I don't have the option of attending school because the school in my town is so over run by the gangs. And yes, I mean serious gangs. Like, the Blood and the Krypts and all that s**t. So....attending public school isn't really and option for me and the private school is too expensive. Plus, they are major ********. I tried going there last year and I got deathly ill and had to miss a lot of school, and they gave me so much lip about not turning in my school work on time and all this bullshit. I mean, I understand being upset, but they wouldn't even condense it, they wouldn't photocopy the notes for me (and forbade me to get them from other students), they didn't file my doctors notes so they could call me truant, they attempted to malign my mother's character, and they put me on 'diciplinary probation' for the 'truancy'. Bullshit.
Stupid bastards.

I am really hoping to go eat Chinese again tonight. We went last night, but I am still craving it. I need some ******** wantons. I think I'll die if I don't get any. Really. I'll just croak...or something. When we went last night, the owner complimented me on my shirt. (: She's super nice.
We live in a small-ish town, so we're regulars there and she is always really nice to us. <3 She sits us away from crowds, and always makes sure we are happy with what is out. Once, my mom forgot she hadn't activated her new dabit card yet, and tried to have the lady use it. And when it was declined, the lady was like, "You can get it next time. :D" We paid it with the old debit card, of course, but she was totally going to let us walk out of there without paying. I thought that was really sweet.

My friend is going to stop by after school today, which makes me happy, because I'm so bored it hurts. Plus, I can tell her about my weird dream last night which involved another friend. Both of the dreams, actually.
In one, me and my friend were run aways, and the one thing I remember is she kept telling me I had to steal my own tampons. She refused to let me have any of the owns she stole, even thought she had plenty. In the secound dream, my friend was there again but we were like...detectives. And we were staying in this hotel for business with the teacher's Union, who I volunteer for and go on trips with all the time in real life, and there was this creepy lady who was like, a pyschic, and she knew my name and kept trying to get rid of me. Because she had seen my in a vision trying to stop their dasteredly plans and...yeah. But she didn't know my friend. Which confused me.

Somedays, I am just so ashamed to call myself...well....myself. Like, every day I'm ashamed to call myself a Repbulican because the vast majority of Republicans are all so ******** stupid. All these anit-gay assholes need to shut the ******** up, seriously. I'm fed up with everytime I go on Facebook and check out my feeds and see something from LGBTQ Nation I see something about some a** backwards Republican then see fifteen hate comments directed at Republicans. Not all of us are like that! Not all of us want gay kids to get bullied, or scream about gay sex being taught in public schools or some similar bullshit.
Or when i go looking through guilds and see an Atheist one then look inside and see how they all bash Christianity. I'm not religious, but I see no reason to hate on Christianity. Yeah, a lot of people who follow Christianity aren't the best people, but I know a lot of bad people from religions other than Christianity. It pisses me off that people blanatly attack a religion, then whine about how 'Christians/Jews/Muslims/Pagans/Satanist/Followers of the great Pumpkin God' pick on them. You are picking on them too, stupid a**.
Like I said, I'm not a Christian, but Jesus was a damn cool person and he said a lot of stuff people need to listen too, like "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone". That doesn't just apply to sinful living, it applies to hypocrisy. Don't ******** whine about being hated on while you hate on other people.
Jesus, you're pathetic.

I know these posts are from over a month ago but I figured I would still weigh in incase you ever check back here:

I was homeschooled all of my highschool years for the exact same reasons you were, and I know what you mean about it being lonely. I also had a female 'friend' who I tolerated because she was all that remained of my few friends from junior high. She never remembered my birthday, never invited me to her many parties, never responded to my calls and only called me when it was obvious all her other friends were busy. I haven't seen her since the summer after we graduated because she never returned my calls or instant messages. You get the idea.

I'm 20 and haven't attended college at all due to expenses but maybe you'll have more luck. The only thing I'm looking forward to is when this economy picks up and I find a job. confused