Okay.... Here's the jest of it all;
~I'm falling for my ex-girlfriend...
~She has always been in love with me (since we were going out).
~Thing is... I don't want what happened to us before/What caused the break up to happen again.
~That thing was Distance.
~Little bit of background;
*Normally I'm a very physical person in a relationship. Meaning I like to be able to hold the person I'm with/person I love when ever I want/can.
*Then a mutual best friend of Myself and Ex, Introduced us online.
*The more we talked online, the more we liked each other. And eventually fell in love with each other.
*After approximately 1.5 months into our relationship, she came to visit. She was able to stay 10 days. And well we were close/physical during that time.
*My love for her grew during the time I could physically be with her.
*She left/when home. And after a month, A time in which usually my feeling for someone I'm with would grow, My feelings stayed the same and slowly started to crumble.
*Someone in my own town began to show interest in me. I could easily see this person when ever i wanted. And they held me when we hung out together. I was slowly falling for this person, while still having feelings for my girlfriend at the time.
*Feeling this was breaking my heart.
*I ended up choosing to be with the person closer to me;Which ended up breaking her heart.
*Time when on while I was with this new person. We had our ups and downs. Even started living together. Then they decided to be a douche about the relationship and we ended it.
*Near the end of that relationship I kept thinking about my ex-girlfriend.
*A short while after my ex and I began talking steadily again. She told me that she was still in love with me. And with in the last month or so, I have been starting to fall for her again.
~Distance between us: I'm in Ontario Canada, And She is in Alberta Canada
~I'm also planning on applying to jobs in Alberta, when it gets closer to the end of my college course.
Now you are all caught up...
I don't want to hurt her like I did before. But I can't stop how my heart feels.
I don't know what to do...... Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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