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[PSM Guild Mule]

Because I went on a hiatus and my old one died...
So I decided to start it over.

Yay.
Fair warning though, I use foul language, I can make a sailor blush.
I'm screwed up in the head, as in voices that I hold conversations with, anorexia ridden, OCD, paranoid mess.
And all kinds of fun stuff.
Just read it, my weird sense of humor and hatred twords dealing with everyday things might make you laugh. C:

Comments are welcome, just know that I suck at talking with people.
I'm not social at all actually...
But I like comments ;A;
And yeah...

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

FIRST POST scream Hahaha... I should be sleeping and thinking about being a productive member of society, or at least counting lamb chops or some s**t...
But I'm not...
Uhg I get to call Wallyworld in the morning, i submitted a job app thingy...
They called me Friday and so I figured well better call them back...
i just suck at talking to people...
I'm dreading that call...
DREADING IT.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

Well s**t...

I have came to the conclusion that well if I ever managed to get back boobs I would never eat again...
And I just ate some waffles...
Been in recovery for six months I'm at a healthy weight but I'm overweight by a little bit...
It's driving me mad....
I think I'm going to start restricting just a little bit again and chug water...
That and I finally got a good boyfriend one that isn't stupid and mean like my exes...
i wanna look perfect for him. =/
kk I think I have it water and fresh veggies and fruit...
And then I'll start tanning again....
I'll be twenty this October I wanna be a size three by then.
Uhg...

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

I'm still wigging out about my weight. =/
Someone said something really mean and it triggered Anna.
Not that I'm going to fall into it but I'm going to never eat junk food again ever.
I still think that I need to tan, I'm all pale looking... =/
Oh I also weighed myself today I'm 157.8 Pounds.
=,="
Boo.

So since I'm upset abut my weight I'm just gonna chug lemon water and tan...

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

And I tanned :]
I feel better, I'm still pale but I think I'll just tan an hour everyday. ;p
Oh and i found some NV diet pills.
Loose a jeans size in two weeks?
Challenge Accepted.
Oh and my friend Beth called, she helping me get a job at Wallyworld.
Apparently she works Wednesday so she told me to go up there and talk to some dude or whatever.
Yay.
Oh and I'm proud of myself, I only had coffee and water today so far, I cant wait until dinner...
I'm thinking steamed broccoli and corn with some butter. :p
I think I'm also going to make a quest thread int his guild...
Currently questing an Oisins Blessing.
Whoot.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

I must say...
It's 1:47 in the afternoon and my boyfriend is still crashed out.
Hes adorable. o,o
And how he is managing to take up the whole entire bed is beyond me.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

Whoot
So I was talking to a friend and she was telling me about how she lost weight the healthy way.
So I'm switching to lots of veggies and fruits, whole grains and no junk.
Oh and only water.
Should be easy I have amazing will power.
I'm also going to walk in the heat and sweat out bad stuff and tan. <3
I will tan every day oh and my vitamins and diet pills.
^u^
Cant wait until i look thin again.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

So today I went to check on an app and I might have a job at walmart.
Whoot.
Also I'm half way done with my Oisin's blessing quest. <3

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

I finally have a job interview this Tuesday.
Whoot :]

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

I was called fat the other day, it was a joke...
But if you are with or was with Ana you know how bad that it ******** with your head.

Is now looking at BMI calculators and lists of negative calorie foods, Time to get down to 130 pounds.

Currently 160 Pounds.

Boo.

I feel horrid.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

I'm not going to starve, nope.
I refuse.
However, I will be trying to stick to a raw diet.
I need to get healthy anyway.

Foods that are negative calorie...
Asparagus
Beet Root
Broccoli
Cabbage
Carrot
Cauliflower
Celery
Chicory
Hot Chili
Cucumber
Garden cress
Garlic
Green Beans
Lettuce
Onion
Radish
Spinach
Turnip
Zucchini
Apple
Blueberries
Cantaloupe
Cranberry
Grapefruit
Honeydew
Lemon/Lime
Mango
Orange
Papaya
Peach
Pineapple
Raspberry
Strawberry
Tomato
Tangerine
Turnip
Watermelon

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

If I hear one more fat joke I think I just might kill someone.

Anyway i got a job and i think I might quit smoking tomorrow.
The boyfriend and I want a baby and I want to protect my fertility.
And I'm bored, waiting for him to get off work for lunch...
So bored. D:

 

[Digital Fiend]

Congratulations on the job!

And I'm glad that you're doing well to make yourself happy, and hopefully healthy.

And now you're going to try and quit smoking. Whoa, big plate you have there. It's awesome that you have some will-power.

I'm sure you might already know this, and I might just be putting my foot in my mouth {and I'm not trying to butt in or anything}, but make sure that you're ready to face the body changes that come with being pregnant. I don't know when you two were planning on trying, but I've never had an image problem and I feel so awkward.

So, congrats on all the good news! I hope everything works out for you!  

[PSM Guild Mule]

Digital Fiend

Congratulations on the job!

And I'm glad that you're doing well to make yourself happy, and hopefully healthy.

And now you're going to try and quit smoking. Whoa, big plate you have there. It's awesome that you have some will-power.

I'm sure you might already know this, and I might just be putting my foot in my mouth {and I'm not trying to butt in or anything}, but make sure that you're ready to face the body changes that come with being pregnant. I don't know when you two were planning on trying, but I've never had an image problem and I feel so awkward.

So, congrats on all the good news! I hope everything works out for you!

Walmart is fun :]
I'm really liking it.
I'm doing much better with my image issues, usually I can keep ana in a box in the back of my mind.
It only gets triggered when I hear a fat joke or if people around me start mentioning weight.
But even then I don't starve anymore.
So far its been two days without smoke, it's pretty easy to quit cold for me.

 

[PSM Guild Mule]

<******** my insomnia I have to be up for work in three hours. >=/
Uhg.
Gonna be a long sucky day.

So far i haven't had a cigarette in two days and I'm taking vitamins.
I hope I get healthy soon.
I'm at a good weight and i have a job now everything is going right for once. XD