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12/7/2012
2:27pm EST
listening to; self esteem by the offspring
i feel weird. it's like my head isn't on quite right; it wants to tilt to the side, but then it hurts. my stomach hates me. i think i might be tired, too. my teeth feel gross, and now i can feel my eyebrows. becoming aware of one's eyebrows isn't fun. it prompts me to constantly touch them and "smooth them out" when there's nothing to smooth. aaaaaaaaah
back to my teeth: i can't brush them 'cause i'm not home. i hate not having clean teeth. my head hurts just thinking about it.
also i found the toilet clogged (idk who did it) and i really hate that. of course i fixed it, it'd be rude not to but while i did so water splashed up on me. gag. there was no soap though in the bathroom. :'C not even liquid or bar-form soap so i had to use this 'body wash' crap to smear on my arms. it felt gritty... like sand. the texture was cool and it smelt interesting. then i found two bottles of this body spray stuff and squirted myself a few times with one of them. i think while sampling the other it misted onto me too.
the smells made my head hurt worse.
i wish i could fall asleep. maybe i will when i go home, after brushing my teeth. but i also want to finish reading the book i got from the library. i owe them a lot of money from when i was a kid. somehow my name and data is still in their database even if i haven't been to the library in forever, but my boyfriend has a library card so ******** 'em. then i must re-read the hobbit and finish it before the 14th.
sometimes i wonder how people make friends on gaia. is that sad? i found a picture that sums me up:
![User Image](https://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mdrg5pwOJc1qlzo6io1_500.gif)
i wish i had money, cause i'd like to purchase some body spray, a gingerbread house kit, this cute mug with a fox design that comes with some mint hot cocoa, and the walking dead game. all the money my bf and i have earned so far though goes towards food so we and my cat can eat, though.
that reminds me how i miss living with my mom and her husband. also i miss my cat. i can't wait to go home and see him.
i still don't feel good.
![User Image](https://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me5s0heLZZ1qdn9hvo1_500.png)