Hey guys.
The last time I've said something on this guild, let alone Gaia, was probably around November of 2012. I hate to come back so rudely, but hence the title, I feel so lost and confused, and I just want to know what to do.
I am warning you guys, this will be very, very long, and I will be the most grateful if you can spare a few minutes to help me out.
The reason I stopped going on Gaia for so long was because of issues outside, irl. Throughout the 3-4 years I've had a Gaia account, I've been on hiatus multiple times because of school. I am a heavy procrastinator, and you just can't get me to do anything. I know I'm a hard worker and I put my effort into all I do, but it's just that there are times where I feel so lazy and tired that I will lay on my bed and do nothing for a couple of hours before getting up and actually doing something. I am falling behind in school and it is stressing me out terribly. I am managing to pass my tests in school, but it has given me many dark circles under my eyes and everything and blahblahblah.
At home, I feel completely alone. My older siblings (all 4 of them) have gone to either university/college or are in another state raising a family, leaving me home alone with my parents and my toddler brother. (I do not care to reveal the anyone's age in this) It hasn't been working out the best. My parents are very strict, and they only want the best from me (but of course, all parents do). And they are so greatly disappointed when I get barely get an 80 on a test. I feel so terrible, but I don't know what to do. I know I am upsetting them and making them unhappy, but there are times when they put me down with their comments, though they are oblivious of the things it is doing to me. I have told them before that it hurts my feelings, but I don't know if that helps because my mother is emotionally unstable and my father is always very stressed from work, so he is often grumpy.
And the thing that has gotten me the most, is a recent break-up. A month ago, I broke up with the only boyfriend I have ever had, and it has affected me significantly. I broke up with him mainly because he has just been an ignorant jerk to me, and doesn't listen to me when I tell him about how I feel. I am trying to move on, but I see him at school and it only makes me feel worse. I miss him terribly, and I can't just let go all of the wonderful memories we had. I thought about giving him another chance, but we have actually been in an on-again-off-again relationship for so long, I know that there is no point in trying to try again.
So all in all, my life has been so confusing and stressful, how can I manage it?
The last time I've said something on this guild, let alone Gaia, was probably around November of 2012. I hate to come back so rudely, but hence the title, I feel so lost and confused, and I just want to know what to do.
I am warning you guys, this will be very, very long, and I will be the most grateful if you can spare a few minutes to help me out.
The reason I stopped going on Gaia for so long was because of issues outside, irl. Throughout the 3-4 years I've had a Gaia account, I've been on hiatus multiple times because of school. I am a heavy procrastinator, and you just can't get me to do anything. I know I'm a hard worker and I put my effort into all I do, but it's just that there are times where I feel so lazy and tired that I will lay on my bed and do nothing for a couple of hours before getting up and actually doing something. I am falling behind in school and it is stressing me out terribly. I am managing to pass my tests in school, but it has given me many dark circles under my eyes and everything and blahblahblah.
At home, I feel completely alone. My older siblings (all 4 of them) have gone to either university/college or are in another state raising a family, leaving me home alone with my parents and my toddler brother. (I do not care to reveal the anyone's age in this) It hasn't been working out the best. My parents are very strict, and they only want the best from me (but of course, all parents do). And they are so greatly disappointed when I get barely get an 80 on a test. I feel so terrible, but I don't know what to do. I know I am upsetting them and making them unhappy, but there are times when they put me down with their comments, though they are oblivious of the things it is doing to me. I have told them before that it hurts my feelings, but I don't know if that helps because my mother is emotionally unstable and my father is always very stressed from work, so he is often grumpy.
And the thing that has gotten me the most, is a recent break-up. A month ago, I broke up with the only boyfriend I have ever had, and it has affected me significantly. I broke up with him mainly because he has just been an ignorant jerk to me, and doesn't listen to me when I tell him about how I feel. I am trying to move on, but I see him at school and it only makes me feel worse. I miss him terribly, and I can't just let go all of the wonderful memories we had. I thought about giving him another chance, but we have actually been in an on-again-off-again relationship for so long, I know that there is no point in trying to try again.
So all in all, my life has been so confusing and stressful, how can I manage it?
