Cutting

[TaimaTami13]

I used to do it and carved XIIIs all over. I've stopped for years but the thoughts still come back pretty strong at times...anyone got anyways to stop completely? I want to keep from causing my bf pain because I've seen him cry over one of my bad scars before  

[Kitalpha Hart]

Why that particular number?

So to stop...find a non-destructive thing to do when you get the urge? Or have a block of wood to cut instead  

[TaimaTami13]

It's my birthday, favorite and lucky number, and my favorite Roman numeral. But it all kinda started with an ex of mine who quite literally hurt me in more than one way and next thing I knew, I carved it into my arm with a dulled dagger.

That sounds good...I used to sow and work with my hands when I was younger but I haven't been able to do that lately...maybe I should start making bracelets again  

[Kitalpha Hart]

Ah
And to think that most consider 13 to be unlucky

Ooh, what kind of bracelets?  

[TaimaTami13]

13's my lucky number oddly enough =w=

But uhm, you know those little thread bracelets that you can do in different styles and patterns? I can do those and lanyards as well  

[Kitalpha Hart]

Ooh, pretty ou o  

[TaimaTami13]

It's been awhile but I used to do them all the time! I miss them now  

[Kitalpha Hart]

So start again ou o  

[TaimaTami13]

I think I will~ OwO  

[Tholia]

everytime you get the urge, remember and think how your boyfriend is crying and how he feels and how sad he is cos of that,could you still do it then?  

[TaimaTami13]

Tholia

everytime you get the urge, remember and think how your boyfriend is crying and how he feels and how sad he is cos of that,could you still do it then?

No..but it's hard to fight the urge sometimes, but the thought of him upset makes me stop  

[Tholia]

Lovely Little Neko14

Tholia

everytime you get the urge, remember and think how your boyfriend is crying and how he feels and how sad he is cos of that,could you still do it then?

No..but it's hard to fight the urge sometimes, but the thought of him upset makes me stop

try to think about that then when the feeling comes 3nodding
Have you talked about this with your boyfriend?
maybe he would agree that anytime you get that feeling you
could call him? Being able to call and talk to him when feeling bad
would help right? <3  

[THE_FAIRY_EMPRESS]

eek I have scares from roman numerals.

It's odd how things you do seem crazy but then it turns out loads of people do it sweatdrop

Personally I've self harmed for over a decade. I don't consider my self "cured" I don't think i'll ever be in a position to say I'll never do it again. All you can do is strive for hope and happiness.

I get weird urges, all i can equate it to is people who really want a tattoo. I think of a pattern on my skin and really want it. And i think thats what your describing here, the happier you are the stronger the urge.

Theres nothing that can be typed over the internet which will quench that urge. You want to stop it completely? Well thats years of trying out different drugs and therapists. I don't want to sound rude but it's true.

Truth is i'm a hypocrite, i tried one drug and one doctor and gave up. And as a I result drink and cut.

Doing something with your hands/mind sounds good. It won't fix everything but its a good place to start 3nodding  

[TaimaTami13]

Tholia

Lovely Little Neko14

Tholia

everytime you get the urge, remember and think how your boyfriend is crying and how he feels and how sad he is cos of that,could you still do it then?

No..but it's hard to fight the urge sometimes, but the thought of him upset makes me stop

try to think about that then when the feeling comes 3nodding
Have you talked about this with your boyfriend?
maybe he would agree that anytime you get that feeling you
could call him? Being able to call and talk to him when feeling bad
would help right? <3

I have, and he's been very helpful and very supportive through this all. He's agreed to help and talk to me when and if the urge hits me  

[Tholia]

Lovely Little Neko14

that's good <3
happy to hear that ^^