Without Control ((FULL))

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Erin Joyce Lee

Erin fought to stay in control, whimpering for a few moments as she and the puppet struggled, then retreated, hissing mentally in frustration. He was still too strong for her. Only when he laid her on his bed and started touching her did she realize what he wanted, and she retreated into her alternate reality, wanting no part of it. She was happy to let his pawn handle this. Even the puppet remembered Kaino hurting her, though, and wasn't eager to go through that pain again. She arched her chest into his hands, moaning softly, and squirmed. "Nnn... J-Jayce... Please... I... I am scared..." she whispered, blushing and trembling partly in desire and partly in fear. "I... I was raped once by a man, and it hurt a lot... Is it... Is it going to hurt?"

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Erin Joyce Lee

Erin gingerly sat on her bed, wincing and shuddering with disgust. It was nothing like how she'd hurt after Kaino. In fact, she'd been more sore than this after particularly passionate nights with Ash. But she felt dirty, disgusting. The puppet was beyond happy, but Erin herself wanted to die. She felt as if she'd never get the ghost of his touch off of her, even after two showers. Trembling, hesitant, Erin reached under the floorboard and pulled out her laptop, listening intently in case Jayce approached. Ash?

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Erin Joyce Lee

Erin bit her lower lip and sniffed, trying not to cry, but it was no use. She felt so dirty and violated... She hadn't been able to protest, or even give a single sign of displeasure. He'd controlled her body and mind completely, and it felt like even more of a violation than what Kaino had done. At least Kaino had been honest about what he was, whereas Jayce veiled it behind kindness and gentleness. Define okay... she typed slowly, not sure how much she should tell Ash, if anything. But of course she couldn't lie to her wife. She couldn't hide even this from her. Ash... He... He made me... I didn't want it, I swear to god... Don't worry, he didn't hurt me as bad as Kaino, but... I feel gross... I'm so sorry, baby, I couldn't even fight back... I ******** hate this...

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Erin Joyce Lee

Erin struggled to keep her crying quiet, shaking her head at Ash's message. Don't you dare blame yourself, Ashika Lee. This was NOT your fault. I don't know what's going to happen... I'm kind of scared, but he's not all bad... He wants me to love him, but I don't think he realizes that's never going to ******** happen. I don't know why he had to pick the most lesbian, most taken woman on the planet... Just a ******** idiot, I guess. Baby, please don't tear yourself up over this... It's not your fault, and I'll be fine. Erin wasn't sure if that last line was the truth, but she knew that Ash was probably dying inside, and already regretted sharing the latest event. Why should she make her lover suffer with her?

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Dr. Sirrah Rawlings

Sirrah rushed to Ash when she heard the girl crying, smoothing back her hair gently. "Ash? Ash, what is it? What's wrong? What happened? Are you okay?" The doctor was worried. Ash had been slightly better since she'd started talking to Erin, but not up to the level that Sirrah had hoped. Whatever had happened, Sirrah was afraid it would set Ash even further back.

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Dr. Sirrah Rawlings

Sirrah hissed in rage and a cracking noise filled the room for a moment as she accidentally ripped a large chunk out of the wooden nightstand. "We'll get her back, Ash... I swear, if it's the last thing we do, we'll make her safe again," she said in an enraged whisper.

 

[Dreaming_Drifter]

Erin Joyce Lee

"Just a second, I'm indecent." Erin closed her laptop and hid it quickly, also throwing on a long shirt and shorts. She took a deep breath, preparing herself for what she had to do. "Okay. You can come in, Jayce," she said, not letting the puppet have control. She wanted to talk to Jayce, even though he made her want to smash his face in.