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Posted: Fri Oct 27, 2006 5:36 pm
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Posted: Sat Oct 28, 2006 11:52 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 09, 2006 7:00 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 09, 2006 11:44 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 4:35 pm
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I used to cut myself <_< at first it was just because it was the "in thing." Never cut deep enough for scars or anything. I quit though because I thought it was rather stupid thing to do -.o couple years later I cut myself again this time for emotional release. I hold things in, I never used to tell people how I felt, and I never cried. Well, anyways I ended up carving the word PERFECT into my right ankle, not for attention, I wasn't really thinking while I was doing it, I was just releasing my feelings letting all the bad thoughts and feelings out O_o Couple days later I wrote FAULT underneath. That was a full year ago and I still have visible scars. I don't mind them though, I like the reminder, I know people care about me and I don't have to bring it out on myself. <3
I don't self inflict pain on myself anymore I talk to people, people who love me. And I think talking to people and bawling my eyes out is way better than hurting oneself.
And to everyone who inflicts pain on themselves just think that there are other ways to let anger and sadness, and other mixes of emotions out.
Sorry if I didn't make much sense ^^;
Ok I'm now fading of post ninja
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Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 9:23 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 25, 2006 2:48 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 26, 2006 7:19 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 3:21 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 7:29 pm
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WindAndFire strange_dreams_512 ...I've never cut myself and never intend to, although I do have 2 friends who have before. To get out my stress I normally listen to music, draw, pray, and write stories. Remember even if what I do doesn't work for you, there's always more than one way out of a problem. I've tried using writing as an outlet, but it never really seems to work. Because I want to hurt myself. I feel like it's what I deserve if I must live the life I've been given. I feel like I should hurt myself to somehow make up for everything that goes wrong. sweatdrop that need u mentioned...i think it's bcs cutting becomes an addiction. some ppl might not think so, or might consider that though [the cutting being an addiction] wrong, but i really think it does. and in a way, it became ur addiction. something like a friend i have. she smokes when under stress. u cut when under stress. at least that's what i think. as for why, i think ppl do it to cover the emotional pain under the physical one. that's why i used to do it. don't anymore, though
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Posted: Fri Dec 22, 2006 9:53 pm
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Sotur WindAndFire strange_dreams_512 ...I've never cut myself and never intend to, although I do have 2 friends who have before. To get out my stress I normally listen to music, draw, pray, and write stories. Remember even if what I do doesn't work for you, there's always more than one way out of a problem. I've tried using writing as an outlet, but it never really seems to work. Because I want to hurt myself. I feel like it's what I deserve if I must live the life I've been given. I feel like I should hurt myself to somehow make up for everything that goes wrong. sweatdrop that need u mentioned...i think it's bcs cutting becomes an addiction. some ppl might not think so, or might consider that though [the cutting being an addiction] wrong, but i really think it does. and in a way, it became ur addiction. something like a friend i have. she smokes when under stress. u cut when under stress. at least that's what i think. as for why, i think ppl do it to cover the emotional pain under the physical one. that's why i used to do it. don't anymore, though
I know it's an addiction. But no matter how many times I stop, I always start again. Always. It never ends, but I don't know what to do.
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Posted: Wed Dec 27, 2006 12:04 am
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Posted: Thu Dec 28, 2006 12:44 am
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I first started about three years ago--I can't remember WHY, but I know I had stopped shortly after I started. ((Maybe two months? No, I didn't get caught.))
Due to recent events, i've started again. >.>;
It's not always because of bad things happening in my life; sometimes it's just boredom. Boredom isn't the case anymore, though.
For the hell of it, i'll give my (main) reasons.
- I hate myself. I hate lots of people, really. Whenever I say "But I hate people", the common response is "But you don't hate yourself".
I hate myself more than I hate anyone else alive. For what I did, I deserve worse than gashes on my arms and legs.
- I'm miserable, again.
I had gotten over my depressive state, for a time. Of course..that was when pills were being shoved down my throat. An artificial happiness, if you will. I'd rather be miserable than live falsely.
Why am I miserable, now?
Everything that could go wrong went wrong.
For once, I won't elaborate--it's too private a matter to discuss openly.
Bah.
And finally...
- Simply because I can.
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