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Dear "Chevy",

You are so stupid! I loved you and supported you for so long! I was your friend and stood by you, but you are a jerk. You ditch me and your other friends when we planed to hangout! AND IGNORED US WHEN WE ASKED WHERE YOU WERE! You leave confusing messages. You think everyone is out to get you, and you are a big pervert. You have a car don't learn how to drive. You got all butt hurt because a girl at work wouldn't hang out with you. She doesn't hafta hangout with you if she doesn't want to. You still hold on to the past and cant forget about these girls you haven't dated and treated you like s**t. I LOVED YOU! I was loyal, and I did my best even though I didn't know much about dating or being in a relationship. Maybe it was for the better we broke up. I always felt like I was in second place. Maybe it was my fault that I was scared. The world felt against me being with you. Maybe I don't know what love is. I am stupid. Oh well it doesn't matter, things are changing, and I am scared. I want things to better than what it was before. Thank you for being nice to me but you are casting after a girl who may not be real. You keep clinging on to people who have hurt you! You ignore your friends, and you are running away from real life. You want to kill yourself or go to jail. It makes me sad to see you like this because I am your friend and even if I get mad at you and yell, I will always care for you. But I am tired of chasing you and giving you all my love.I tried to make it work. You are so busy with you s**t your cant see me. The only person who can help you change is you. I did everything I can. I might have been the girl that loved you the way you wanted, but I am not the girl you are in love with. That is the cold hard truth.

Dear ******** you for playing with my emotions and leading me on thanks for basically telling me you don't even want commitment and your just using me to get what you want and don't consider my feelings on ANYTHING. I am so glad I figured this out.

Goodbye and good riddance.

To my brother,

Just, ******** you. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry that you're jealous of me. Perhaps if you even tried your hand at life instead of talking down to me, telling me that I'm stupid, calling me a b***h because I get better grades and prove that I have potential in life. I'm sorry that I actually go out and make friends. I'm sorry that I'm not a racist b*****d who thinks it's funny to make fun of the Asian cultures. You make fun of me for getting on Gaia, but really, I'm talking to real, live human beings. I'm sorry that I've learned to cringe every time you come to hug me. I have a right to refuse your hugs. However, when I refuse, you always make me seem like the bad guy. You can never recognize when I'm in a bad mood, and on the rare occasions that you do, you come and annoy the ******** s**t out of me. Every fight we get into is entirely my fault. You always have to be the first, and you always have to get the best treatment. I give up a lot to satisfy your needs, and you treat me like dirt. The one time I ask for comfort or to do something on my own, it's a crime. I ******** hate it! You try to get me into trouble with mom and dad at every possible opportunity. You eavesdrop on all of my conversations. You have to know everything that goes on in my life at every waking moment, and you look at me as if I have three heads when I ask about you. You think the world revolves around you, you think you're always right, you think that if you're unhappy, nobody else can be happy. When someone else is happy, you honestly don't give a s**t.

Just because you have a personality disorder doesn't mean you can go around acting like your life is so much better than mine. I swear, when you ******** get out of the house and go live your own life, I never want to see your ******** a** ever again! You're my ******** older brother, and you're the one who's doing the most emotional damage to me. No one I've ever met treats me as badly as you do. Does it honestly make you feel good to know that I sometimes cry myself to sleep because of the things you say and do to me? You hit me in the head extremely hard, you punch me, you even ******** spit in my face the one time! The next day, you think you can come running back to me and apologize for what you did, and everything will be alright! You're lucky I even forgave you for some of the things you did. I see nothing wrong with apologizing. However, the next day, you just do the same crime again!

When I finally feel like talking to you or telling you about something, you look at me like I'm a spoiled b***h and say "I don't care", yet whenever you want to tell me something, and I refuse, suddenly I'm the bad guy. You're way too overprotective to the point where I feel like a dog on a two-inch leash. You're always telling me what I can and cannot do. "You can't listen to that music." or "That movie is too inappropriate for you." You know what? ******** you! I can never trust you. You lie all the time to mom and I, and you don't even care. You also believe that every time I do something nice, I'm asking you for something. I can never do something just to be nice. Apparently, I always have a motive. Then, you demand something in return when you do a nice deed. You can never do something nice without payment in return. It ******** sickens me! You embarrass me and make me cry in front of my friends. You've ruined my last two birthdays, and I'm so sick of you thinking you can go around and tell me what to do. Whenever I need help, it's no big deal. However, when you need something, everyone around you needs to drop all their s**t and run to your side. You look at me as if I'm the devil whenever I hesitate to forgive you. I KNOW you'll do it again. Every time you've done something mean to me, you come and apologize, and do it again!

You can never read the signs! You absolutely bore me to death with your boring conversations. Whenever I try to talk to you, you ignore me. I'm lucky that you never see me flip you off. I'm sure if you did, you'd run straight up and punch me in the ******** face like the abusive little child you are. You're an immature brat. You tell me that you're superior because you're older. I feel like I'm the one who's more mature. Whenever I tell you the truth, you get angry and think you have the right to tell me to shut up. I'm sick of your ******** childish s**t. Go get a ******** life, one away from me!

Sorry that this was terribly long, and I repeated myself multiple times. I really needed to get that out of my system.

To my step parent:
I know you love me and all but stop always yelling at me and mom whenever you have a bad day. It upsets mom and just plain pisses me off. Secondly stop making things I do sound so bad. I criticize myself enough, I don't need somebody else to damn right kick me down more than I already have in the past. I already have issues thanks to that and I don't need anymore to build on to it! Finally stop telling me to constantly act like a ******** adult! Who cares if I still use Gaia? I'm 21 years old damn it! I can make my own decisions on what I can and can't do; so quit saying s**t about it.
To my coworker:
You seemed nice at first but now things are all going straight down the crapper! You left me and another girl to work on the rest of the damn rooms while you did nothing but wait for your ride! To top it all off you didn't clean properly and your thinking about having a day off tomorrow despite the fact that your damn trip to Water Safari was canceled! It's going to be a ******** full house! There's only gonna be me and two other girls to clean rooms so that's bull s**t!
So to both of ******** you!

F you Hope I tried to be nice to you, but you had to try and convert me. I'm an Atheist I don't plan on changing. Screw your love and tolerance crap. I mean like who needs that? Don't pray for me. I hope you have a really shitty life and I hope your bf problems get so out of hand you go to the nut house for it. That's where you belong!