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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 6:39 am
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October 11- October 18, 2008.
Two feelings at the moment ? Enduring and frustration.
A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now ? "Kautta erämaajärven / matkaa kulkija yksinäinen / näkee lammella joutsenparven vapautaan itkevän. / Kaipuu menneisyyden / kiirii ilmassa huutona kotkien / ikijärveltä turvatulta käy matka vuorten taa. - Erämaajärvi by Nightwish
Any unforgettable childhood memory ? Smell of the dry grass and sunshine, being on the fields with our parents and rest of the family making dry hay for cows. (In old traditional way, look some old Finnish black and white movie)
A not-so-good childhood memory ? The moment when I realized what kind of power play happened in expense of me and my twin. The same moment when we both realized crystal clear that grandma was trying to make us come to her side and against our mother at the age of four. stressed
Your plans for tomorrow ? Office Hell. I need to fill in some papers and take care of some mess.
Your two plans for today ? Get something to eat, dress (I forgot), watch a movie, let cat inside from balcony.
Fill in the blank: -"I am ..questioning the career choice I made years back. And hate to admit it."
-"When i feel lost.. I keep walking."
What do you like about nighttime ? Stars. And sleep. I want to sleep goddamn it! (Night and waking up in every one hour, fullmoon.)
What do you like when it rains ? No, but I love the atmosphere right after the rain.
If you were in a farm, what do you want to see ? Kittens, then its the water yet heated, wash milking machines, carry those from milkroom to cows, then carry two buckets with warm water and large tissues there, wash first cows udder, stuck milking machine there, move to next, repeat, wait for udder to empty, brush sh*t away meanwhile, sleep on my feet, wake when milking machine's suction cup starts to make noise, take machine away, go to see next cow... And so on. biggrin
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? I have.
Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it? Maybe yes. I can't remember now. I hope so..
Are you aware of what's happening around you? I am, but I rather sit here at last row and see how things go and make my moves then.
Do you need to know everything about someone's past? No, but I highly appreciate if someone is willing to share what has happened to them.
Do you know why you are alive? My mother didn't use condom. Her mother took us away from field at summer before we got heatstroke. I have good reflexes.
Does death scare you? Yes and no. I'm more scared of death of my twin.
When you REALLY love someone do you hold on or let go? Hold on. As tightly as I can.
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 11:36 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 11:49 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 1:10 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 2:11 pm
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October 11- October 18, 2008.
Two feelings at the moment ? desperation and a little anger A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now ? hanging by a moment here with you Any unforgettable childhood memory ? I think they all fit in the 'not-so-good' category A not-so-good childhood memory ? I have a lot, and I'd prefer not to think of them Your plans for tomorrow ? work some more, try sell some more, grow more lonely Your two plans for today ? finish this application and buy Indiana Jones Fill in the blank: -"I am .. lost, tired, confused, pissed off and lonely
-"When i feel lost.. I try to contact Jeff
What do you like about nighttime ? everyone else is asleep and I'm all alone What do you like when it rains? The smell afterwards If you were in a farm, what do you want to see ? I am- horsies! Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? yeppers Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it? a horse when I was 10 Are you aware of what's happening around you? I try not to be Do you need to know everything about someone's past? not all of it, but it helps Do you know why you are alive? yep, and it sucks Does death scare you? nope, already been there When you REALLY love someone do you hold on or let go?
Hold on, unfortunatly. Can't manage to achieve the other one.
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 10:11 pm
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Posted: Wed Oct 15, 2008 8:51 am
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Posted: Fri Oct 17, 2008 9:55 am
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Posted: Sat Oct 18, 2008 7:07 am
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October 11- October 18, 2008.
Two feelings at the moment ? Ignored and bummed.
A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now ? Well the song I'm listening to. Boyz by M.I.A. xD
Any unforgettable childhood memory ? Just having fun in the summer, playing with stuffed animals and playing outside.
A not-so-good childhood memory ? Probably whenever my parents would fight in front of us. Never was good.
Your plans for tomorrow ? Tomorrow I plan on going running, but after that, it's up in the air!
Your two plans for today ? Work and more work. :[
Fill in the blank: -"I am .. not feeling so good. :/
-"When i feel lost.. It's hard to find my way back.
What do you like about nighttime ? Everything seems to calm down and I'm able to relax.
What do you like when it rains? Well for a short second, it does get cooler and it smells a lot nicer.
If you were in a farm, what do you want to see ? The cows! xD
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Yes.
Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it? I want to say yes, but I'm not all too sure. I can't think of anything right now.
Are you aware of what's happening around you? Sometimes.
Do you need to know everything about someone's past? If they're going to be friends with me, then yeah I think it's interesting to know some aspects of their past. Now for a boyfriend, then yes, I should know more than the average person about their past because obviously it had a part in shaping them. I also believe in privacy so they don't have to tell me EVERYTHING.
Do you know why you are alive? Do you?
Does death scare you? I think everyone to a point is.
When you REALLY love someone do you hold on or let go? I'm struggling right now with that answer. I think it's best to let go and see what happens. Holding on is okay, but if you're holding on for all the wrong reasons, it's time to let go.
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Posted: Sat Oct 18, 2008 6:24 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 12:15 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 1:00 am
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1. What do you think the most when you are alone? - the good times.
2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time? -I sleep -.-
3. What do you do when you see a full moon? -My family and i were at the beach last weekend for a swim. we got to even spend the night there and basked under the full moon. it would have been great to just enjoy the scene without too much crowd xD
4. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean? -Neither -.- lakes might have crocodiles and the ocean is the sharks' domain. sad
5. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee? -friends.
6. If certain things in your life will fall apart, what will you do? -stand up and try again.
7. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far? -I dont remember having to make a real hard decision...
8. When your friends forget you, what will you do? -It depends, sometimes i call them, txt , or send them emails, at other times, i dont really do anything about it cause there's just a lot of things that i should do like arts, quote collection, etc. maybe these are just excuses but more or less i've learned not to rely too much on others, and found ways to enjoy life just by being with myself.
9. I’ve come to realize that… -People go through the same road only at different times.
10. I am listening to… -Nothing.
11. Maybe I should… -Apply for a new job.
12. I love… -the life i have.
13. The best days of my life are -the ones i miss the most.
14. I don’t understand… -why i still feel alone sometimes.
15. I’ve lost… -30 minutes thinking what to say.
16. People say… -a lot of things without really meaning anything.
17. The meaning of my screen name is… -myself.
18. Love… -is one subject i usually fail.
19. Somewhere, someone is… -thinking of me and loving me tonight... somewhere out there... beneath the pale moonlight.
-what movie was this from again? o.O
20. I will always… -be trying to be happy while searching for what truly makes me happy.
21. Forever seems… -ephemeral these days.
22. I never want to… -give up on something without seeing myself wanting to do it again. (exception see question#4)
23. I will treasure.. -the life i have and the people that have linked their fate with mine.
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Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 5:57 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 7:12 am
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1. What do you think the most when you are alone? - I think about random stuff. Depends what mood I'm in.
2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time? - Walk around. I'm usually at work so I have to walk around in it.
3. What do you do when you see a full moon? - Try to get a picture of it. Full moons are a beautiful sight.
4. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean? - Dive in the ocean. Even though I can't swim.
5. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee? - A nice pack of hob-nob biscuits.
6. If certain things in your life will fall apart, what will you do? - Rebuild. Things fall apart, you got no other choice but to put them back together.
7. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far? - Giving up a job I loved for one that would pay the bills.
8. When your friends forget you, what will you do? - Move on and make new friends.
9. I’ve come to realize that… - Life's a b***h. But, you just got to get on with it.
10. I am listening to… - Kerrang radio.
11. Maybe I should… - Do another course. It always helps to have a wide skill set
12. I love… - being able to sit around the house and do nothing but play video games.
13. The best days of my life was… - when I first started working. I had money, I had no worries. Time to play games and go out.
14. I don’t understand… - Why no one wants to hire me.
15. I’ve lost… - A lot of things. Most importantly, I guess, would be my family.
16. People say… - I'm a boring person.
17. The meaning of my screen name is… - well, it's actually because people misread it. It was cheesy nibbles after a snack I was eating. But people read it as cheesy nipples. SO I changed it cause it's funny.
18. Love… - Is something you'll never know until you find it.
19. Somewhere, someone is… - Looking for their keys.
20. I will always… - have this annoying kink in my hair at the front, I can't style it at all.
21. Forever seems…. - too far away.
22. I never want to… - end up in hospital again.
23. I will treasure.. - my friends.
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Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 9:59 am
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