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a poll what else :) |
thx for this forum killafrog |
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where is my purple monkey? |
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Posted: Sat Oct 04, 2008 11:22 am
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Posted: Sat Oct 04, 2008 2:02 pm
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Posted: Sun Oct 05, 2008 10:55 pm
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Posted: Mon Oct 06, 2008 5:08 pm
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lunaci VENTING TIME! ^_^ I was answering another post when I realized that I started to vent about myself. I was about to make a thread about it, but I figured this place would be better (I find this thread somewhat therapeutic). I remember being in Junior High, wondering to myself 'why am I so different?', not liking any bit of myself from how I interact with other children, and constantly wishing I was dead just to end a miserable life of loneliness because I felt like nobody really knew or understood me. Fast-froward to age 19, I was finally force into therapy for depression. I didn't think the meds helped (I still had outburst and I developed a stronger anxiety to dog droppings), but talking to a professional really did help put some things into perspective. A lot of the problems I had (and still have, sadly sweatdrop ) were caused by other people (my folks could have did a better job rearing me and being sexually harassed by perverts did not help), but it is ultimately my fault if these problems ruin my life because I am the one who has to make the decisions. Only I chose to live my life and be happy (or at least try to) or to live in misery. It is my fault if I let someone hold me back from what I want (not encouraging being heartless). All in all, my life depends on me.
Good for you Lunaci...sometimes the hardest part in life is taking full responsibility for your own life.
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Posted: Tue Oct 07, 2008 1:22 pm
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to all those who are wise and can help moi lol:
I got a problem, I recently made up with my fiancee/gf because things were really bad between us, we had a history of us getting in fights physical and verbally we've been together for 4 years, and although I dont like to admit it, It's been mostly my fault because I've been away for long periods of time, we've gone as far as cheating on each other but for some reason we have not been able to call it off even now. we're we are happier than ever, however I've been having these very uncomfortable thoughts, I dont make a lot of money from my job and yet I've been very responsible helping her out in every way, to the point Im almost peniless, I've neglected my family somewhat and I've gone to the point where, I've even said I wanted to break things up with her but in the very end she got me back together with her and I'm afraid things will go sour, I've invested so much time on her and sacrificed so many things in order to help her out. I just want a second opinion to see if I am doing the right thing I know anyone should get a second chance but I've put up with a lot of things on my behalf as well as her, however the only thing that she has really had trouble over me is being alone ( although no one likes to be alone I know that much...) and her being insecure of me ( her thinking that I might be cheating which of course I'm not) I just want someone to tell me or all of you out there to advice me and tell me If I am doing the right thing. I dont want to go back to the way things were before, and I want to know if this girl is really worth this whole effort.
thanks all.
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Posted: Tue Oct 07, 2008 3:59 pm
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Chimaria lunaci VENTING TIME! ^_^ I was answering another post when I realized that I started to vent about myself. I was about to make a thread about it, but I figured this place would be better (I find this thread somewhat therapeutic). I remember being in Junior High, wondering to myself 'why am I so different?', not liking any bit of myself from how I interact with other children, and constantly wishing I was dead just to end a miserable life of loneliness because I felt like nobody really knew or understood me. Fast-froward to age 19, I was finally force into therapy for depression. I didn't think the meds helped (I still had outburst and I developed a stronger anxiety to dog droppings), but talking to a professional really did help put some things into perspective. A lot of the problems I had (and still have, sadly sweatdrop ) were caused by other people (my folks could have did a better job rearing me and being sexually harassed by perverts did not help), but it is ultimately my fault if these problems ruin my life because I am the one who has to make the decisions. Only I chose to live my life and be happy (or at least try to) or to live in misery. It is my fault if I let someone hold me back from what I want (not encouraging being heartless). All in all, my life depends on me. Good for you Lunaci...sometimes the hardest part in life is taking full responsibility for your own life. Thank you for your words.
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Posted: Tue Oct 07, 2008 4:43 pm
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Chris de Medich to all those who are wise and can help moi lol: I got a problem, I recently made up with my fiancee/gf because things were really bad between us, we had a history of us getting in fights physical and verbally we've been together for 4 years, and although I dont like to admit it, It's been mostly my fault because I've been away for long periods of time, we've gone as far as cheating on each other but for some reason we have not been able to call it off even now. we're we are happier than ever, however I've been having these very uncomfortable thoughts, I dont make a lot of money from my job and yet I've been very responsible helping her out in every way, to the point Im almost peniless, I've neglected my family somewhat and I've gone to the point where, I've even said I wanted to break things up with her but in the very end she got me back together with her and I'm afraid things will go sour, I've invested so much time on her and sacrificed so many things in order to help her out. I just want a second opinion to see if I am doing the right thing I know anyone should get a second chance but I've put up with a lot of things on my behalf as well as her, however the only thing that she has really had trouble over me is being alone ( although no one likes to be alone I know that much...) and her being insecure of me ( her thinking that I might be cheating which of course I'm not) I just want someone to tell me or all of you out there to advice me and tell me If I am doing the right thing. I dont want to go back to the way things were before, and I want to know if this girl is really worth this whole effort. thanks all. I won't lie: I had a small venture in the on-off relationship thing. One of the main things I learned was that we would not have broken up if it was meant to be.
I will not say that is the case with you, but I do wonder:
1. When you blamed yourself for the cheating, you said that you were away for long periods of time. Were you away for personal reasons or for professional reasons?
2. How often do you communicate? By this I mean the both of you make your points and listen to each other. Have the both of you agreed to disagree on certain things? Do the both of you make compromises with each other?
3. Around what age are you and her? Sometimes young people need to get some things out of there system before settling down or you could already know what you want.
4. You also stated that you neglected your family for her and put a lot of money towards her. Has she done the same for you... or something similar?
I apologize for asking so many questions, but there were some gray areas in what you posted. If I left it at that, I would say that you should leave the girl alone on the strength that the relationship was not healthy. Cheating is bad enough, but physical altercations as well(btw, which one of you were dealing the blows, if it was not the both of you)? The both of you need space to grow and being together will not help. If one or both of you are insecure, a relationship will not help you figure out why you're insecure. If one or both of you do not trust each other, then there is a great chance that it may not be a good idea to come back together.
In any case, if you really want to work things out with the girl, I would suggest counseling, both individually and for a group. However, take time to think things over.
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Posted: Thu Oct 09, 2008 12:19 pm
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Posted: Thu Oct 09, 2008 3:25 pm
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Posted: Thu Oct 09, 2008 7:10 pm
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Posted: Thu Oct 09, 2008 7:34 pm
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Posted: Fri Oct 10, 2008 3:18 am
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Posted: Fri Oct 10, 2008 8:03 am
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Posted: Fri Oct 10, 2008 10:26 am
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Posted: Fri Oct 10, 2008 10:34 am
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Angelicphrase *Sigh* Ok everyone seams to be comfortable with this ranting area so I'm going to let some things out becuse I may scream otherwise.I'm not trying to outsob anyone or demand pity but I'm so miserable I just don't know what to do anymore. My mother has MS, she has since I was very little. Because of this I've taken care of her most of my life. When I was 12 I started doing the household choirs and all the legwork (she can not walk). Now it's to the point of total homecare. I feel like a nurse sometimes but however we can't afford one she's on disability and I work 2 jobs. (Again not saying this for pity) My friends all suggest I get homecare or put her in a home. SHE'S ONLY ^*%$ing 47! I WILL NOT DO THAT. I've thought of requesting assistance for a homecare but the professionals in my area are having funding and staffing issues. I wanted to go to school but I would not be able to leave her alone. Because of all this I have a LOT of resentment built up against my mother. I feel guilty as all sin for it because she's the one suffering and this certainly wasn't her idea. But I'm either soo angry or I shut off and feel nothing. (It's mildly frightening) The cherry on top is that she's in denial about her condition and so we never talk about "it". She doesn't take her meds, doesn't eat, doesn't try to help herself at all. I have to fight with her every step to try to just save her. Every day something new is wrong with her and I hate watching her waste away. I'm sorry if this was too weepy but I never tell these things to anybody here so I need to scream....lots. I understand that you love your mom and I respect that you do take care of her. I'm not too sure how I could cope in your shoes, so I really do think you are a strong person.
As for your mom's denial, I don't know what to say to help. I actually had a different response to your rant, but I thought about it and how I would feel if I were your mom. Maybe she is in denial because deep down she really does not want to become over-reliant on other people. Maybe she wants to keep her independence or she does not want to be a burden. I don't know what her thought may be, but the denial could stem from and unwillingness to face something. I can only suggest having her attend a support group or seeing a counselor. If there are any activities that she feels she can do herself, then let her do it (a brief stint studying the whatnots of being a CNA taught me that a lot of patients prefer to be as independent as they can be. It's a good idea to not force your help, but to offer it). In the earlier post, another user suggested an adult day care. You could consider looking into it (if there is one in your state). Whatever you do, I wish you the best.
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