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Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 3:10 pm
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Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 3:18 pm
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Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 8:06 pm
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Posted: Thu Aug 19, 2010 10:27 pm
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First, I noticed I was bi-curious when I realized that all of the men I felt attracted to were rather effeminate.
I flirted with the idea of being attracted to females more than men, but I felt that the idea left something to be desired.
Skip a lot of the confusion I felt from being exposed to yaoi, shounen-ai, (what, am I a gay man stuck in a female body?), etc...
When I found out about T, ladyboys, transgenders, all the in-betweens, I figured that 'bi-sexual' wasn't going to cut if. Pansexual found it's way into my vocabulary and I felt it fit, didn't like the sound of it, but it's a nice blanket term. Don't want any gender-variant left out.
The more I thought about all the in-betweens, though, the more I felt like picking male or female was too limiting. What's it called when you're only attracted to the in-betweens? I'd really like to know. I might be that.
Ideally, I'd want to meet someone who's gender-fluid, comfortable with their biological gender without being rigid in their sexual identity.
Note: I have no actual dating experience, so I've no way of knowing if it'll feel much different than I've imagined. For Clarification: I am a biological female; though, I consider my identity to be gender-fluid.
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Posted: Sun Aug 22, 2010 10:19 am
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I actually have trouble remembering before 5th grade so I'm not sure what happened back then, but I do remember going to family/behavior counseling because I wasn't "Behaving properly" or something.
Most of Jr. High and all of Highschool I felt...weird, off, out of place, you name it. Standard feelings some may say, for most kids they are, true. I don't know, I felt like it went deeper than that. I felt like a robot just doing what I was programmed to do.
I felt like I had twin personalities as well, I'd go back and forth between quiet and robotic, and sometimes extremely giddy/hyper around friends. It's weird when you hear your own thoughts in a different voice. For a while, most of the time, I heard a female voice in my head. I thought I was crazy ._.
When I started hanging out in IRC channels, one day somehow the subject came up, and someone explained that it sounded like I was trans. I refused to accept it for a few months. Literally refused, no matter what it felt like, I couldn't accept it.
My sweetie helped me with that, and now I feel a lot better. No more voice in my head either.
....I'm WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIRD!
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Posted: Sun Aug 22, 2010 11:56 am
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Scarecrow Diablerie I actually have trouble remembering before 5th grade so I'm not sure what happened back then, but I do remember going to family/behavior counseling because I wasn't "Behaving properly" or something. Most of Jr. High and all of Highschool I felt...weird, off, out of place, you name it. Standard feelings some may say, for most kids they are, true. I don't know, I felt like it went deeper than that. I felt like a robot just doing what I was programmed to do. I felt like I had twin personalities as well, I'd go back and forth between quiet and robotic, and sometimes extremely giddy/hyper around friends. It's weird when you hear your own thoughts in a different voice. For a while, most of the time, I heard a female voice in my head. I thought I was crazy ._. When I started hanging out in IRC channels, one day somehow the subject came up, and someone explained that it sounded like I was trans. I refused to accept it for a few months. Literally refused, no matter what it felt like, I couldn't accept it. My sweetie helped me with that, and now I feel a lot better. No more voice in my head either. ....I'm WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIRD! same goes with the two inner selves of different genders. my dreams were also a lot about me being a man, though i didn't want to believe that. well, i surrendered. >w<
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Posted: Sun Aug 22, 2010 4:01 pm
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Posted: Thu Sep 02, 2010 11:41 am
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Posted: Sat Oct 09, 2010 3:38 am
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Posted: Mon Oct 18, 2010 4:24 pm
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Posted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 9:13 pm
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Posted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 11:31 pm
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Posted: Sat Oct 30, 2010 7:58 pm
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Posted: Sun Oct 31, 2010 7:28 am
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Posted: Sun Oct 31, 2010 12:02 pm
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