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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 11:42 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 11:59 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:01 pm
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Vitamin Crack Cuivie Also, the level of psychopathry Xip is reffering to. I can absolutely relate.
I've also often been reported to just seem like I "play" emotions and generally lack them. Not sure if there is any name for that? I just have extremes, mostly, the inbetween is a monochromous blur.
I have this too, I'm either feeling extremes or absolutely nothing at all. I'm constantly flitting between apathy and either extreme depression or extreme happiness. I've been told by people I'm heartless or emotionless because of it. It especially affects how I feel towards other people. Either I am utterly and devastatingly devoted to someone (very very very few people in my life) or I genuinely feel nothing towards them (pretty much everyone). The vast majority of people, people I call friends, I don't think I genuinely care about any of them and that frightens me. And then I overcompensate and go out of my way to be super nice and friendly and generous so they never suspect that actually, I wouldn't miss them. I kinda assumed it was just something that came under the umbrella of my vaguely diagnosed mental illness. I always thought this was apathy/not giving a ********?
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:06 pm
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Felin Greenleaf Vitamin Crack Cuivie Also, the level of psychopathry Xip is reffering to. I can absolutely relate.
I've also often been reported to just seem like I "play" emotions and generally lack them. Not sure if there is any name for that? I just have extremes, mostly, the inbetween is a monochromous blur.
I have this too, I'm either feeling extremes or absolutely nothing at all. I'm constantly flitting between apathy and either extreme depression or extreme happiness. I've been told by people I'm heartless or emotionless because of it. It especially affects how I feel towards other people. Either I am utterly and devastatingly devoted to someone (very very very few people in my life) or I genuinely feel nothing towards them (pretty much everyone). The vast majority of people, people I call friends, I don't think I genuinely care about any of them and that frightens me. And then I overcompensate and go out of my way to be super nice and friendly and generous so they never suspect that actually, I wouldn't miss them. I kinda assumed it was just something that came under the umbrella of my vaguely diagnosed mental illness. I always thought this was apathy/not giving a ******** class="clear">
Yeah it is apathy most of the time but there are also such extreme exceptions to my apathy and there's nothing in between.
You know how people have relationships where it's like, they have a few close friends, a few people a bit further, maybe family, and then they have acquaintances, and then they have even lesser known acquaintances etc.?
I don't seem to have that, right now I can think of one person who is in the epicentre with me and then everyone else is miles away. It's like a dead man's zone.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:09 pm
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Vitamin Crack Felin Greenleaf Vitamin Crack Cuivie Also, the level of psychopathry Xip is reffering to. I can absolutely relate.
I've also often been reported to just seem like I "play" emotions and generally lack them. Not sure if there is any name for that? I just have extremes, mostly, the inbetween is a monochromous blur.
I have this too, I'm either feeling extremes or absolutely nothing at all. I'm constantly flitting between apathy and either extreme depression or extreme happiness. I've been told by people I'm heartless or emotionless because of it. It especially affects how I feel towards other people. Either I am utterly and devastatingly devoted to someone (very very very few people in my life) or I genuinely feel nothing towards them (pretty much everyone). The vast majority of people, people I call friends, I don't think I genuinely care about any of them and that frightens me. And then I overcompensate and go out of my way to be super nice and friendly and generous so they never suspect that actually, I wouldn't miss them. I kinda assumed it was just something that came under the umbrella of my vaguely diagnosed mental illness. I always thought this was apathy/not giving a ******** class="clear"> Yeah it is apathy most of the time but there are also such extreme exceptions to my apathy and there's nothing in between. You know how people have relationships where it's like, they have a few close friends, a few people a bit further, maybe family, and then they have acquaintances, and then they have even lesser known acquaintances etc.? I don't seem to have that, right now I can think of one person who is in the epicentre with me and then everyone else is miles away. It's like a dead man's zone. This thread slightly worries me.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:11 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:17 pm
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Vitamin Crack Cuivie Also, the level of psychopathry Xip is reffering to. I can absolutely relate.
I've also often been reported to just seem like I "play" emotions and generally lack them. Not sure if there is any name for that? I just have extremes, mostly, the inbetween is a monochromous blur.
I have this too, I'm either feeling extremes or absolutely nothing at all. I'm constantly flitting between apathy and either extreme depression or extreme happiness. I've been told by people I'm heartless or emotionless because of it. It especially affects how I feel towards other people. Either I am utterly and devastatingly devoted to someone (very very very few people in my life) or I genuinely feel nothing towards them (pretty much everyone). The vast majority of people, people I call friends, I don't think I genuinely care about any of them and that frightens me. And then I overcompensate and go out of my way to be super nice and friendly and generous so they never suspect that actually, I wouldn't miss them.I kinda assumed it was just something that came under the umbrella of my vaguely diagnosed mental illness. THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS
However I'll still have random episodes of odd compassion for people I don't even know. Like I'll tear up if I'm watcvhing a family worry in an emergancy room or something, while I had to try not to laugh when my own step father pased out and fell in the kitchen a few years ago. I have no clue why.
EDITEDITEDITEDIT
Well, not entirely I do care about a lot of the people here.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:19 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:20 pm
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Felin Greenleaf Oh hey! I got one! Irrational attachment to inanimate objects. Mainly my computers.
Oh this.
My computer and my sketchbooks/drawings.
I don't even like when other people touch them.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:21 pm
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Mea Has Sharpie Felin Greenleaf Oh hey! I got one! Irrational attachment to inanimate objects. Mainly my computers.
Oh this.
My computer and my sketchbooks/drawings.
I don't even like when other people touch them.
>.> No like when my old one burnt out I nearly cried. I didn't even flinch when my cousin and aunt died.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:27 pm
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Xiporah Vitamin Crack Cuivie Also, the level of psychopathry Xip is reffering to. I can absolutely relate.
I've also often been reported to just seem like I "play" emotions and generally lack them. Not sure if there is any name for that? I just have extremes, mostly, the inbetween is a monochromous blur.
I have this too, I'm either feeling extremes or absolutely nothing at all. I'm constantly flitting between apathy and either extreme depression or extreme happiness. I've been told by people I'm heartless or emotionless because of it. It especially affects how I feel towards other people. Either I am utterly and devastatingly devoted to someone (very very very few people in my life) or I genuinely feel nothing towards them (pretty much everyone). The vast majority of people, people I call friends, I don't think I genuinely care about any of them and that frightens me. And then I overcompensate and go out of my way to be super nice and friendly and generous so they never suspect that actually, I wouldn't miss them.I kinda assumed it was just something that came under the umbrella of my vaguely diagnosed mental illness. THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS
However I'll still have random episodes of odd compassion for people I don't even know. Like I'll tear up if I'm watcvhing a family worry in an emergancy room or something, while I had to try not to laugh when my own step father pased out and fell in the kitchen a few years ago. I have no clue why.
I "feel" terrible for people like that, and when I start fixating on all the horrible suffering in the world, it's hard to pull out of that depressive spiral. But I don't know if I'm genuinely feeling emotion for them or whether it's more that I think about it rationally and I'm just morally opposed to it. I think my morality is one of the strongest factors in my life but I don't really do it out of emotion. Like I do a lot of volunteer work, but I don't think I feel genuine compassion for those I help, I'm doing it out of this logical reasoning in my mind that this is the right thing to do, and it's not something I feel but something I think.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:30 pm
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Felin Greenleaf Mea Has Sharpie Felin Greenleaf Oh hey! I got one! Irrational attachment to inanimate objects. Mainly my computers.
Oh this.
My computer and my sketchbooks/drawings.
I don't even like when other people touch them.
>.> No like when my old one burnt out I nearly cried. I didn't even flinch when my cousin and aunt died.
I cried when someone stole my sketch book and the only things I'd ever cried about dying were my dogs. My family memebers I just stayed as far away from the dead body as possible. And drew.
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:31 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 12:59 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 1:16 pm
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