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 Posted: Thu Jun 06, 2013 9:00 am
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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Samuru smiled at Sae's appearance and greeting, stepping in and slipping his shoes off. He saw her gaze go past his shoulder and felt a twinge. No...Jae was not with him. She was with Noctis, a thought that left a foul taste in his mouth. Walking in and following Sae towards the kitchen, he leaned forward on the balls of his socked feet and rested his forearms on the bar to watch her "Uhm...we got in a little trouble. I got in a lot a few minutes ago." he brought his head lower as she mentioned Jae and he usually being together, looking like a puppy that's been whipped "She....is with Noctis. And she's angry at me." he confided, slipping back into the comfortable short talk that he always used with Sae. He didn't always have to say what he was feeling or thinking, didn't have to explain everything to the tenth degree with her. She could listen and then knock him into shape again. Hearing her 'tch', Samuru remembered his hasty patch job on the cut on his face and flushed a bit, going into the bathroom. He found the kit easily and tucked it under his arm as he came back out, setting it on the kitchen counter "Its not that bad...just cuts." Oops. Cuts. Plural. He flinched but knew that hiding it would do no good and so he tapped his side, near his ribs "Just two." he mumbled.
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands. |
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Posted: Thu Jun 06, 2013 9:32 pm
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Letting out a small huff, she figured that was the case. Neither of them were inclined to behaving themselves. It didn't make her life any easier, that was for sure. In the year that Samuru had practically lived in this apartment, Sae had come to think of him as part of her family. It was practical to say he was like a son to her. Shutting off the water, she wiped her hands on the hem of her shirt and jeans. As he mentioned there being more than one cut on his body she scowled, placing her hands on her hips. It was a gesture that was genetic and had been passed onto Jae as well. "Samuru Sanmiitai! Sit." Lord knew he didn't properly get looked at. His aversion to hospitals was legendary. Grabbing a seat from the bar and pulling it to the side of the kitchen counter, Sae rummaged through her concoctions.
It didn't take her long to find what she was looking for and she pointed upward, wanting Samuru to point his face upward while she got a good angle. Opening the lid on the jar she scooped up a decent amount of the balm and began to rub it into the abrasion. "So she is with Noctis huh..." That was interesting. Sae remembered the man from her time in Yukigakure. He had come and insisted he was Jae's boyfriend at the time in order to get whatever information he could out of Sae. The woman was no fool and had seen past his charade early on. "My daughter doesn't have the smoothest of temperaments. You know that more than anyone else." Sae commented, finishing up on his face. Screwing the top back on the jar she motioned for him to lift up his shirt so she could see the extent of damage on his side. She wanted to check and make sure nothing had been internal. Looking up at Samuru she paused, taking note in the difference in his expression. He seemed...disgruntled almost. There is something he's not saying... |
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Posted: Thu Jun 06, 2013 9:50 pm
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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Knowing better then to disobey, Samuru sat and turned his head to her, lifting his chin whens he pointed. He looked at the ceiling as she worked on his cut, not flinching from the touch. Sae was...well, he loved Sae. It wasn't like what he felt for Jae, an emotion he knew was different, but he loved Sae all the same. She made him feel comfortable and at times he could almost think that she was his mom...but it was more then that. Sae was patient with him, understanding. He didn't fear her like he did other maternal figures "Yes. Noctis fainted." Samuru's words were blunt and...unhappy. Very unhappy. He lifted his shirt to reveal a six inch gash just under his ribs. It wasn't deep but it had the swollen redness of an infection setting in, confirming that he hadn't treated it properly "He collapsed at the gates. Jae went with him to the hospital." he kept his shirt up, his elbow almost parallel to his cheek as he kept his gaze on the wall. Debating how to speak was the biggest block for Samuru. He was a relatively open person about himself, not hiding his emotions anymore but he didn't understand them which made it hard to express his words. He often got frustrated and simply cried to get rid of what was bothering him "I...I hugged her." he admitted, his gaze still firmly on the ceiling "But I didn't think she'd be mad at me for it. But now....now I don't know. She..." he stopped, unsure of how to speak now. He wanted to talk about the incident on the roads but.....telling Sae that Jae had hurt herself would get them both in trouble with Sae "Jae got hurt...on the way back. And I yelled at her because she tried to be....I don't know. But I got so mad and I was scared, Sae...I was really scared. And then she told me to go away. So....so I did. But now she's mad at me again or still and I don't know what to do." his words were jumbled and confused, not making any sense to him but he hoped that maybe Sae would figure out what was wrong.
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands.
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Posted: Thu Jun 06, 2013 10:35 pm
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It was hard for Sae not to laugh aloud at the information that Noctis had fainted and had to be taken to the hospital by her daughter. The same daughter who would come bursting through the door threatening to smash Noctis's face in the next time she encountered the man. At least Sae knew her daughter was well. As Sae leaned in closer to inspect the wound that adorned Samuru's side she bit down on the bottom of her lip. It was enflamed. Infection had caused the edges to swell and the skin was hot, pusy and red. It was not yet on the verge of purple, which was a good sign. "What did you do...or not do... She muttered aloud to herself. Holding up both of her hands, palms close and facing the wound she began to pour her chakra into her healing jutsu. Slowly, she would remove the infection. She was just getting to the source of the infection when she was surprised by Samuru's admittance to having hugged Jae. Her chakra flickered and then stopped short. Sae listened, blinking rapidly to keep herself from being too distracted to stop her healing. She allowed Samuru to vent his frustrations, even leading to a disclosure that her daughter had been injured enough that Samuru had gotten scared.
She quietly finished up what she was doing and then tugged his shirt a bit to let him know she was finished. The wound would leave a scar but she wanted to let his immune system do its job properly. She had addressed his face properly because she didn't want it to mar is flawless features but she was not too concerned about his side. Turning to arrange her jars of ointments she closed the box and leaned one arm on the counter while she turned to look at Samuru."Have you talked to Jae and asked her if she is angry at you?" Poor lad... It didn't seem like he was getting very far in his advances if her daughter had exploded twice on him since their departure. "I cant presume to know what is going on in my daughters head. She is more puzzling than her father ever was...My advise to you is to ask her if and why she is upset at you." Sae patted him on the shoulder lightly. "When it comes to situations like these...it's best that you do what you do best. Cut straight to the chase and let her know what you are thinking." Grabbing the kit Sae left Samuru for a moment to return it to its regular location.
Coming back she fiddled with the edge of her shirt. "Is she...alright?" It was in her nature to worry. Jae was the only thing she had left. It was a million times harder to watch her leave every single day and hearing and seeing Samuru's explanation and admittance to the gravity of the situation she couldn't help but worry. The wrinkles above her forehead showed, her age starting to show now. "You two can be so reckless, it worries me sick." She admitted, re-entering the kitchen to pull out some lemon water. "Would you like some...?" She asked, busying her hands to keep herself from storming out of the apartment and searching her daughter out. |
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Posted: Fri Jun 07, 2013 11:51 pm
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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As Sae tended his wound, Samuru watched the ceiling, his mind drifting to what he might have done wrong. Yes, he'd argued with Jae, ignored her demands and yelled at her for getting hurt. But....she was important to him. She got mad at him when he hurt himself or got hurt....was he not allowed to be equally worried and upset? A tug on his shirt clued Samuru in that Sae had finished and he tugged his shirt down, leaning forward to put his head on the counter. Listening to Sae speak, his gaze directed up at her as he now was almost bent double over the counter, he didn't say anything for a while, tipping his head forward so his hair fell past his eyes "Jae...She was feisty enough to snap at me at the gates and quick to move so the hospital did a good job healing her wound." he said, his eyes half mast. Samuru shook his head at the offer of lemon water, still mulling over his words "I know why she's mad...at least, I think so. She was mad at me for ignoring what she said and having Peilli manhandle her to the hospital for treatment. That was the first time she got angry at me....and told me to go away. So I did...But......I left the village with my sister to train her and get a mission done of my own." he said softly, knowing he was no longer going to be in any serious trouble. At least, not from Noctis. That Hokage.....he scowled, thinking about Jae being with him and then he tipped his head forward, his hair falling all around now. His nose was pressed into the counter but his eyes were ope "I didn't have permission to leave and I didn't tell her. Then, at the gates, I ignored her again, staying when she told me to leave." he tipped his head to look at Sae from under his hair, the displeasure and misery clear in his slowly changing eyes. He knew why she was upset....but Jae didn't seem to be listening to what upset him! It was frustrating because "I tell her. I told her......I..." he closed his eyes "I told her that I didn't want her to go where I couldn't reach her. I told her I wanted to stay with her. But she tells me to go away, to leave and she leaves too. She gets angry at me and...and I don't know what to think or say anymore, Sae." he sighed heavily and turned his head a bit, letting his hair go back to covering his face "She's the only reason I stay here, Sae...I have no ties to this village anymore...even my own siblings want to leave. But......I don't want to be away from Jae. I love Jae..." whether it was a friendly love or the other kind, Samuru wouldn't be able to figure out if he had a knife to his throat. All he knew was that Jae was more important to him then anything and he didn't want to be away from her. She was his world and had helped him in more ways then she probably knew.
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands.
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 7:42 pm
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Sipping from her glass, Sae listened intently to Samuru as he unloaded his thoughts and feeling to Sae. He was putting himself on the chopping board very openly and it was a little surprising. It was not strange that he would speak to her so frankly but this was another matter entirely. This was in regards to Jae herself. A quib or to made in jest about Jae was all she had ever really had time for. This matter was very, very personal. Man handle? Sae was slightly confused. It took her the remainder of the context of that sentence to understand what he was getting at and once she had Sae almost choked on the water she was drinking. Coughing a few time to rid herself of the liquids that had entered the wrong pipe, she covered her mouth with the back of her arm. Her shoulders shook with her withheld laughter. Oh. That I would have loved to see. Jae was not one to let things go. Samuru must have been very adamant about bringing her back using Peilli or Samuru's Peilli was a strong person, thing? Sae didn't know who or what Peilli was. Settling down she heard him out. Her expression fell somewhat as she listened to Samuru explain in detail about his dismissal from her side. Jae is being such a brat. That girl...so stubborn. It was obvious to Sae. Her daughter was probably thinking about Samuru in those regards and nursing her own pride.
Setting her glass down on the counter the retired nurse was once again shocked. Samuru is speaking to his family now? That was wonderful news. Jae had let her know his family situation was rocky but this was a step forward for the boy. He was a love sick boy, pinning for her daughter. She almost felt sorry for Samuru. Jae was not exactly the easiest person to read and if Sae hadn't raised her since infancy she wouldnt have been able to control her daughter at all. "It seems you have a lot on your plate..." She mused, making a 'hmmm' noise as she considered what to say next. She couldn't flat out tell him what to do or say. That was not how it worked. He had to make the choice on his own and he had to consider his future actions carefully. "It seems you left a big gap between events. Aside from that perhaps Jae had you in mind at the hospital. It's no secret you are not keen on entering one. More than likely she was emberassed by being take care of by you as well. She has done everything on her own since she defected to Konohagakure when she was thirteen." A nostalgic sadness touched at the corner of her eyes. Yes. A time when Sae should have been teaching her more about growing up Jae was fending for herself in a foreign place. But Sae no longer resented that. Had Jae stayed in Yukigakure she would have fought to the death alongside her husband to save it and Sae would be alone in this world. "You don't realize this it seems...but your affections for my daughter are more than friendship extends, Samuru. Wanting possessiveness, craving her company, the headache from not knowing what she is thinking....You do not simply love Jae. You are in love with her."
Sae laughed lightly to herself. She was in no way mocking the lad but knew he was going to get himself neck deep in some sticky situations. "Don't doubt yourself so much Samuru. You are no longer a boy anymore." Sae could see that. He wasn't just cowering in his own mental corner anymore. He was awake and he was maturing. "If you want to make your stance clear then you must attack head on." She emphasized her point by punctuating it with her hands. This was like one of those dramas she had grown accustomed to watching during her free time. |
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 8:10 pm
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 8:57 pm
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Resisting the urge to slap her palm to her forehead Sae nodded her approval of him staying here to sleep for awhile on her couch. "I'm going to the market for awhile to shop. Don't touch my pottery. Jae wont be the only one upset with you if you do." She warned him. Grabbing her bag she headed out. Before getting to the door, she looked back at him. Hope he figures this out...otherwise it will only get worse. "I'll be back later. Don't fight too much." Opening the door she headed out, leaving Samuru to his own devices for now.
Walking down the hallway she saw the pink hair before she actually saw her face. Jae was walking back, nochalantly. It almost made Sae upset to see her daughter look so carefree while Samuru was stressing out over nothing, apparently. Placing her hands on her hips she squared off against her daughter as she approached her. Jae suddenly looked wary, approaching cautiously. "What did you do to that poor boy!" Sae said, keeping her voice low so as not to alert the neighbors of her presence. The confusion was apparent on Jae's face, the pink haired kunoichi stopping in her tracks. "Hi to you too mom. Erm. Who are we talking about now?" Reaching out Sae grabbed a piece of her daughters long hair and gave it a sharp tugg. Jae had closed her eyes and winced at this. "Go in there and apologize. He's done nothing but keep you in mind and you make his life a million times harder for it instead of saying thank you." Jae's confusion seemed to dissipate, her mouth mashing into a straight line. There were only a few times when she had seen her daughter make that face. She was holding back. Letting out a sigh, Sae shook her head. "Stop punishing him and yourself. You are going to end up alone..." It was a warning for her daughter. If she continued to push but never give she was going to drive everyone away from her. That Sae would not allow. This life was short no reason to spend it alone. "I'm going to the market for awhile. Might visit my friend the florist. Do not touch my pottery." Patting her daughter on the head, Sae kissed her cheek and held her hand. She was glad to see Jae in good health, despite all of the drama unfolding around the two friends.
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Jae walked to the apartment door slowly, standing beside the door for a bit to cool down. She hadn't thought he would come here first. That was for sure. Nope. She needed to wait or else she would just snap at him once more. It was hard to approach this logically. She lost her temper every time she tried and ended up making things worse. Some adult... Samuru made her constantly ride an emotional rollercoaster and while it was fun and dandy at times it was sometimes terrifying. |
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 9:10 pm
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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Samuru smiled and nodded, hopping off the chair and going to the couch. His legs hung a few feet off the arm as he lay on his back, turning his head into the back of the couch. Closing his eyes, he quickly dozed off, thinking over what Sae had told him. He knew Jae was volatile. But she was also the most natural and real person he'd ever met. She never lied to him, never hurt him (on purpose, anyways) and was always happy....well, usually happy to see him. What was he going to say or do the next time he got to see her? Did she even want to see him? Samuru bit his lip as he tried to tell himself he had only come here to see Sae. That he hadn't come here in hopes of being able to talk to Jae. He opened his eyes, blearily, then closed them again, trying to fall asleep "...damn it." he twisted, a bit then just gave up. He wasn't going to force himself to try and think about all this. If he did, he'd just end up over thinking it before he even had a chance to talk to Jae. And, as soon as he stopped trying to think, he dozed off again, this time on his side with one arm under his head as a cushion.
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands.
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 9:57 pm
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│█║██ IT❛S TIMES LIKE THESE《 THAT I FEEL YOUNGxx💙
xxxxxxxxxxx•xxxx•xxxx•xxxx•xxx To the people in love please tell me how you started to love 」
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(x jae ⇣ ketsueki x)x(x konoha ⇣ gakure x)x(x chakra ⇣ 760 x)x(x rank ⇣ jounin x)
Having had enough time to simmer, Jae opened the door and entered her apartment. Taking off her shoes she paused to listen. He was in here, that was for sure. It took her a moment to register where he was, the couch. Opening her mouth to say something to him she stopped. His breathing was even, eyes closed and one arm providing a pillow for himself. He's asleep? Silently she approached, hands behind her back. Leaning over him a bit she tried to get a better look at his face. Yep. Passed out. Her expression fell a little bit. As she stood there she watched him, the anger slipping away from her. Why am I upset again? Being told to shut up hadn't made her the easiest person to be around but it wasn't to root of her anger. Nor was having chased him away from the hospital. Even seeing him and Maylee walking back into the village hadn't made her rage as much as Samuru still having not explained his change in demenor towards her at the start of the cursed mission. His hair is growing out... She thought to herself, reaching over and trying to gently brush it out of his face. It was as soft as always. Not having the heart to wake him she backed off. Eventually he would wake up, then they would have their talk. She wasn't going to back off from this. His expression when they were waiting for Atteharu at the Chuunin exam location had been...unsettling. It felt as if she was losing him and that thought alone made her scared. It didn't explain the irrational behavior she was displaying but she couldn't help it. She snapped at people when she was feeling cornered and the like. She sighed aloud, looking up. I'm supposed to be the older one... |
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 10:11 pm
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 11:09 pm
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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Samuru moved his legs as Jae sat, feeling her words bite him "I didn't harass you with Peilli." he said stubbornly, turning his head so that he was glaring at the couch back again "You were hurt and I was scared." he pulled his arms up and crossed them over his chest, both angrily and as self protection "And you told me to go away. So I went." he closed his eyes, letting out a sigh. He knew that was a weak defense but...he'd had to get away from the village. Sort his mind out "..." Tell her? Don't tell her? Be honest and trust that she'll not hurt him? Hurt his siblings? How much did he trust Jae... He sat up, crossing his legs and sitting incredibly close to Jae, facing her on the couch. He just looked at her, stared at her as if he was trying to remember every inch of her face, her expression "...You know my father died. He was murdered by shinobi of this village, his village, after he stopped them from hurting my sister and myself. It was my fault." Samuru had kept this secret for years, from everyone. This was what ate him up and had made him into the sad shell that Jae had found "They brutalized my mom in her own home and broke her body, making her into that thing she is now. In front of us." he didn't look away from Jae, wanting her to see what had happened, see it as he had "After that, when we came home, we discovered that the shinobi had been promoted. Promoted, Jae. And what happened to our parents was ignored, swept under the rug and hidden. It never even reached the Hokage. They lied and made us to be liars and frauds. The entire village believed that...that it was a home robbery by bandits. Our house was on the outer edge of the village, bandits attacked all the time..." he looked at his hands finally. It appeared that he was easily talking about it but his hands were shaking with anger "Those shinobi lied, the village lied and the Hokage never heard a word. I hate them...I hate this whole village for that...and we swore, all three of us, that we would kill every person in Konoha." Samuru looked at her again and he finally seemed to reach that breaking point, the one that caused his emotions to explode uncontrollably "And when...we all reach Jounin, when we're strong enough, we were going to do it. We were going to destroy everything. Raze it to the ground, soil the earth and leave it so nothing would ever grow." he ducked his head again, hiding tears again as they started to fall into his lap "But you, Jae. You. You don't....you saved me, you...you stupid person! You saved my life and now I don't know what to do. I want to stay with you! But....they're all I have left...and I can't...I don't know who to go with anymore." he lifted one hand to cover an eye, trying to crush the tears back into his eyes but they only fell harder. He hated crying in front of Jae. He was always crying in front of her it seemed and now it was worse because Sae was right. He was IN love with Jae...not just loved her "I'm trying...trying to figure out what is going on and I don't know what to do. Raki...he's...he's set. Everything he's done has been to destroy Konoha. And May....I know you don't like her and she hates you but....but she's not right. Not anymore...I can't just leave them....they're family." Samuru raised his head, not knowing what Jae would say. He'd basically just admitted that his entire family planned treason and intended mass murder of the village. But he didn't want that anymore "Jae...I...I don't want it anymore...I don't want to be angry and miserable. I want to stay with you..." again. This was the third time he'd said it. Would she get mad at him again? Like she had at the gates...if she did...he might not have anything left to stand on. His world, the world he'd built, would crumble back into what it had been.
((Damn...sorry for the wait -_-))
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands.
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Posted: Sat Jun 08, 2013 11:51 pm
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│█║██ IT❛S TIMES LIKE THESE《 THAT I FEEL YOUNGxx💙
xxxxxxxxxxx•xxxx•xxxx•xxxx•xxx To the people in love please tell me how you started to love 」
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx(x jae ⇣ ketsueki x)x(x konoha ⇣ gakure x)x(x chakra ⇣ 760 x)x(x rank ⇣ jounin x)
His retaliation was weak and only seemed to make her snub him even more. She 'hmphed', crossed her arms and looked to the right. Her mind screamed not to be so childish but she couldnt help it. This part of her had no off switch. Hearing him sigh, she turned to look at him. His sitting up suddenly caused her to blink in rapid concession. Wha? He was extremely close to her then, scrutinizing her face. Her cheeks flamed from the sudden attention and she leaned back a little bit. "You m-mentioned that before..." She responded meekly to his first inquiry. His explanation got her full attention then, Jae looking to him slowly, her blue eyes widening more and more the further he got. Her mouth dropped open a bit, her hand moving automatically to cover it as she listened. Samuru's mother, she had always assumed it had been an accident that had occured when his father has passed away but it was something else entirely. Something worse than death for a woman. Her expression shifted into one of shock as he explained his siblings vendetta. Her poorly wrapped shoulder began to ache at the mention of Rakuin, Jae placing a hand over it automatically. Rakuin had seemed very dark...too intense. His death threat made perfect sense now. He would kill her, not because he was worried about his brothers happiness but because he would be losing an accomplice to the revenge they had sworn against the people of this village...her included. Everyone she had grown to know in this village as well. It was like a slap to the face and she looked away, silent as she soaked in everything he was saying. The severity of it all was puncuated more by his tears.
Placing a hand over her heart she tried to take a deep breath but seemed to fail every time. Her breathing was shallow and quick, her face pale now. "You weren't struggling with your feelings toward me...you were struggling with debating whether or not you want to kill me or not." That look when they had made their way over to the Chuunin exams explained everything. "Rakuin threatened me because he knows you can't do it..." Jae wasn't looking at him. She stared straight ahead, her hands falling into her lap as she stayed in her world of shock. This was a nightmare. A real, living breathing nightmare. Why couldnt it ever be easy for her? To just be normal. To care about people who didnt leave her. Didn't try and kill her. Didnt give her ultimatums. The energy was sapped from her, her expression still set into a very zoned out look. "This village took me in....when I had nowhere else to go. I made my life here, helped my mom start over here..." Looking to Samuru the hurt in her eyes said more than her words would ever describe. "You were planning to destroy our home, kill the people in it .... kill the shinobi we work with...kill me....since the start." The breath was knocked out of her lungs in an audiable fashion. 'haaa'.
Staring at a spot in front of her, her mind took her to dark places. The duty she was bound to was at war with her emotions and attatchment to Samuru. Duty proclaimed she kill him. Kill all three of them immediately and raise the alarm. Her feelings however snuffed out such logic deeming it impossible. He wants to stay with me... Because it made him happy and without misery. "And if the day came where I didn't make you happy? Where being with me was no longer an escape from your misery? Would you kill me then..." She had seen the suffering he had gone through. Noticed it on his body. The physical scars that he had were just as deep as the mental ones he harbored. She knew him well enough to know he was not a mindless murderer. Samuru had the capability to care about things outside of himself. Hence the reason he blamed himself for so much of the shortcomings that had happened throughout his life to his family. The same family that was destroying his potential to live the way he should and could. Clenching her fists she looked down, her hair spilling over her shoulders and allowing her to hide behind the wall of pink locks. Closing her eyes tightly she kept herself from crying alongside Samuru.
Tears meant exposing herself too much, allowing herself to be vulnerable. She couldn't do it. She shook for a few seconds, her anger, frustration and hurt boiling underneath her skin. All at once she looked up, something inside of her snapping. Turning to him she grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, pulling him close to her and allowing no escape from him. He had to look her in the eyes now. "I will stop you at every turn, do you understand me! I wont let you kill innocent people!" She shook him hard, once. "I dont want to lose you...I dont want to watch you destroy yourself..." Releasing her grip on him she looked down, trying hard not to cry. She struck out at him, punching him in the right arm, once, twice, thrice. They were halfhearted punches. What was she supposed to do!? Nothing she trained for prepared her for this bombshell. |
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Posted: Sun Jun 09, 2013 12:17 am
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|Samuru Sanmiitai
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| Chuunin | Konohagakure | Doton : Raiton | AC 7350 |
| Bukijutsu : Weapon Specialist | Puppeteer : Marionette |
Chakra 395 | Stamina 180
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Retribution...this is not my goal. No, I care not for soaking the world in violence.
There has been enough of that.
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He listened, waiting, only able to guess at what Jae was thinking and going through right now. When she started to speak, he shook his head, unable to speak "No..." but she kept going, speaking about how the village had helped her, taken her in. About what his family planned, the murder that would take place and how "...no..." he said softer this time, his hands starting to shake again. But he knew it was true. If he hadn't met Jae, if he hadn't know her or Sae...if they hadn't met by random chance on that day..."Jae..." she grabbed him and he winced, his eyes closing part way but he kept her gaze, his chin lifted just slighly. She wasn't going to let him....she didn't get it. He took the punches but grabbed her arm on the last one, gripping her wrist "No." he said, his voice hard as steel now. He reached out with his other hand and touched her cheek, cupping it so she could look at him "Raki and May...they're so much stronger then I am. I'm the broken one, Jae. Please..." he lifted his hand slightly from her cheek and touched a strand of hair "I would be dead. If not for you...if I hadn't met you, I would have taken my own life. I planned it, had it set up a week before I met you. I wanted to help my siblings escape this village...but I wasn't going to." he wanted her to understand...to see that, from the start...the only life he'd planned to take was his own. He'd seen his father murdered in front of him...taking a life...he couldn't do it. Samuru was unable to. Not after seeing his father's lifeless body on the floor, cold and bloodied "You think....do you think I could take someones life after seeing what happened to my father? After watching my mother live the way she is?" he let go of her now, not wanting to risk her fighting him or hitting him again. She probably would anyways...but at least she'd know everything "Angry, happy, sad, sarcastic, violent, unreasonable, affectionate...everything about you makes me happy. Makes me calm and safe...the only way I could be unhappy is without you." he clasped his hands in his lap, hunched over, trying to stop the shaking. Did she hate him now? That was all right...he could spend the rest of his life making it up to her if that's what it took "Sae told me....she said I was in love with you. I don't understand what love is, Jae. I don't get it and I don't know if I ever will...but whatever I feel for you is stronger then my family, stronger then the revenge and anger...I don't want to kill anyone. I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm sorry I hurt you, Jae. I'm sorry..."
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I seek only that which was taken from me...not for myself but to prevent it from being taken from others.
No more broken families. I will keep the peace for the childhood that never was and the child that did not survive.
I will not weep for the world that will not see. I will change it even if blood stains my hands.
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