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Helaku sighed softly as he lay in the darkness of his teepee, the only light was that which peeked through the door flap. So...it hadn't been what he'd thought it might. What he couldn't figure out was why it dispirited him so much. It was only a female, right? Plenty of those, right? Yet even as he thought this he knew it wasn't true. Perhaps if he hadn't been startled into running that night...perhaps he would have averted that bay stallion's influence? Or perhaps not. Who knew? Either way, they were a pair, and he was not. Now he had an inkling of why some Soquili sought out human company...

Helaku's ears had pinned back at first, as his first reaction had been rage that she dared intrude upon his private retreat from the world. He'd even managed to close the door flap himself, but that hadn't seemed to work. After a few moments though, he managed to get control of himself. "And? What do you want?" he asked, tone slightly rough, though it was hard to tell what caused it.

Helaku snorted a laugh. "After having much fun with His Majesty, I'm sure. Tell me, did you just change your mind? Or were you planning on him all along?" A faint rustling was heard from within as he shifted to a more comfortable position. "And yeah, I know. Word gets around fast."

"Hmph." Helaku sounded unimpressed, though he was just a youngster trying to hide hurt although it'd been his own fault for jumping to conclusions. He'd only recently become full grown...he had little experience in the ways of the world. Finally, he gave up trying to sound tough, and lowered his head with a broken sigh. "I mean...you seemed...like...you liked me. And then I hear..." He trailed off, unable to continue without rekindling the anger and hurt.

Helaku stiffened in shock, then slumped in self-recrimination. If only he'd acted sooner... "I never even got a chance to say anything about it...I was being patient, letting things take their course. I knew mum and dad wouldn't want me to rush." He shook himself, dragging his mind away from that path. "Yeah...I should try, at least. Though...I don't think I can be around that bay. Not yet. I'd...I'd probably end up doing something...regrettable."

Helaku's ears flicked back and forth, perplexed. "But you've known him only as long or less...what makes that not rushing?" He got to his feet a little unsteadily, stepping out of the teepee. "I mean...you've barely known him either, right? Why do anything official yet?"

Helaku sighed. "You don't understand...so many out there, true...but most of them are so much older than me." He shuddered. "I don't wanna hear stories about when my mum and dad were foals, you know? And...just something about you. I don't know what it is, I can barely come to terms with its prescence yet. But...no matter."

Helaku's ears pricked with a twinge of hope. "Okay," he said slowly, thinking it over. His head lowered slightly. "I'm sorry...I shouldn't be ranting at you like this. It's my own fault for not doing something about it. So...friends." He nodded to himself.