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 Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 8:01 am
Ashika Rose Dresden Ash had been dreaming when she heard a faint sound outside of her dream. She slowly opened her eyes and watched as Erin shook and trembled, talking to someone in her sleep. She's remembering.... Oh, Erin..... I had hoped you would never have to dream like this.. She thought and lightly touched Erin's arm, making sure only to touch where it already was in contact with her. She listened as she begged for someone to stop, and her heart broke. When Erin woke up, and Tank had left, she softly kissed her lips, whispering. "It's okay baby. It was just a dream, he's not here. It's just us and the rest of the rainbow gang. It's okay."{Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 8:07 am
 Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." Erin smiled a bit and nodded. "I know. Just a stupid dream. I'm okay, Ash. Really." She drew the smaller girl into her arms and kissed her again lightly. "Come on. Let's go get some of those pancakes Tank was talking about." "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 8:12 am
Ashika Rose DresdenAsh took a firm grim of Erin's hand and looked into her eyes sternly. "Erin, it is not a stupid dream. I have those all the time, remember? You've seen me trapped in them. We need to talk about it or you will be just as bad as me. We don't have to do it now, or even today, but we need to. I don't want you to have to keep dreaming it, not if I'm still breathing. One person walking around like a ticking time bomb is enough Erin."Ash kissed her again and held her close. "I just don't want you to have to deal with things I do. I'm used to it, and I never want you to get used to it."{Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 8:16 am
Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." Erin looked at Ash in surprise. She hadn't been expecting her girlfriend to scold her. She looked away when Ash mentioned talking about it. "Talking about it will just upset you, Ash. You've suffered enough without me adding to it. Plus, it's stupid of me to have nightmares about what happened, when he's as good as dead. Come on, I'm hungry." Erin stood and stretched, putting on a shirt and holding her arms out for Ash. "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 12:41 pm
Ashika Rose DresdenAsh looked at Erin in hurt shock, her body began to tremble. She wanted to cry, but her mind was already jumping into anger. "Erin Joyce Lee, you think that not talking about it is gonna help anyone? You have no idea how much it can ******** you over, I do. I know exactly what will happen if you don't talk about it. You will become a prisoner of your own dreams. You will be trapped inside of them and you can't get away from them even if you wake up." She felt her hurt anger get the better of her and she began to yell, suddenly hating herself as every word came out of her lips. "You don't know how I've suffered Erin! You have no idea how old I feel and I'm not even ******** twenty! I've lived enough for six people and I'm not even half ******** done! You not telling me is worse than you telling me! You know why? Because I DON'T know what happened and NOT knowing is too painful for anyone to live with! You don't know how much I wanted to cry when I saw Raffy, and I was ******** nine Erin. NINE! Do you know how it hurt me to watch my father cry after he died, then after my mother left us? Do you? Did you know that I didn't know why she left for years? Did you know that when Kai was killed, she didn't come to the funeral? She couldn't even be ******** bothered to send me a letter, a flower, a simple ******** off? I've lived in hell for years Erin and you are my ******** world! You not letting me help you is making me helpless, and that alone is more painful that Tsubatsu's torture!"She felt the tears try to form, but she still couldn't cry, her mind a mad whirlwind of anger and self loathing. Why am I yelling at her? Why am I acting like this? I love her, so why am I screaming at her like I hate her? She wondered as she pushed Erin away and limped heavily out of the room, pulling on her shirt and feeling her leg trying to give out on her. Ash wanted to hit something, to punch something until it broke or her hand shattered. She kept limping to the front door, her limp getting worse with every step. {Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 12:51 pm
Tank Kirikvich Tank heard the yelling and watched as a very angry, hurt, and some other emotion he had never seen before Ash came limping out of the room. He watched as her leg almost buckled several times and she kept going, heading for the front door. Tank quickly walked up and pushed the door closed once more, holding his hand against it as she tried to keep opening it. "I am doing the sorry Dagger, but I cannot allow you to leave. You are in no condition to go anywhere. You are even doing the straining of the leg by trying to walk. Sit and tell me what has happened." He told her firmly, not really asking but demanding.
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 12:56 pm
Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." Erin's eyes grew wide and her arms fell limply to her sides as she listened to Ash's tirade. Tears pricked her eyes and guilt flooded inside of her. 'She's in so much pain, and I had no idea... Stupid of me, to think I could heal her so quickly... She's nowhere near healed, and... Even though I was trying to make it better, I made it worse...'
Erin stood there, still in shock, as Ash shoved past her and left the room. When she heard the front door open, though, her body sprang into action, running to stop her just as Tank got to her. She put a hand gently on Ash's shoulder, the tears still threatening to spill over. "Ash... My love, I'm sorry... Please, don't go. We'll talk about this. We'll do whatever you want." "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 1:15 pm
Ashika Rose DresdenAsh was already at her breaking point when her leg almost gave out, but when the door was kept shut, she lost control of her own emotions. Every emotion she could feel suddenly sprang to life at the same time, confusing her and warping everything around her as her eyes went blank. Tears cascaded from her eyes, a smile was on her lips, and a deadly rage twisted her face into a frightening mask. She felt a hand touch her shoulder and she spun quickly, her fist raised and drawn as far back as it could, then it shot forward as her fist unclenched, and her palm went flying for Erin's sternum. Ash was not even aware of her own actions, not aware of where she was, who she was, or who the strongest palm strike she had ever thrown was aimed at. She was running on base instincts and incredibly powerful emotions as she laughed in a tone that sounded closer to a growl, her palm closing in quickly at her lover's chest with enough force to easily shatter the bones and do massive damage. {Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 1:29 pm
Tank KirikvichTank saw her face as she spun and pulled her fist back, seeing that her eyes were completely blank. She is going to hit Erin, and she will not know it is her! He thought in a panic and reacted that way he used to when her mind was still fractured and Ash would get violent. He grabbed Ash quickly from behind, putting her in a full nelson and slamming her into the wall to pin her. As much as he hated the idea of hurting her, he couldn't let her hit Erin. She would kill herself from the guilt even if she didn't do any damage, which would be impossible from the force she had put into that strike. Tank held her to the wall, his chest pressed into her back and her cheek pressed to the wall as she flailed and half laughed, half growled at him, fighting to get free. He turned his head at Erin and caught a strong blow to his ribs from the writhing girl, wincing slightly but tightening his hold on her. "Erin! Get back! She does not know what is happening! She could kill you and will not do the knowing of it until it was too late!" He told her firmly before another blow landed on his stomach and he grunted.
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 1:34 pm
Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." Erin could see the strike coming, but wasn't able to fully comprehend it. It didn't make sense. Ash, hitting her? It was almost comical, like an oxymoron. Impossible. It had to be a joke. A trick. Ash would never hit her.
Only when she saw Tank struggling to keep Ash pinned did she realize that yes, Ash would have hit her. She was good enough in physics to know that the strike would have stopped her heart, very possibly killing her. Fear, hurt, and anger were chief among the emotions she felt at that moment. Fear won out. She stepped back several feet, well out of Ash's reach, and just stared at her girlfriend in helpless bewilderment. She felt stupid, and useless, but how was she to know what would help the girl? Obviously, she still had a lot of learning to do about Ash. "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 2:01 pm
Tank KirikvichTank saw the horror in Erin's eyes, but he couldn't let Ash go to comfort her. If he let Ash go now, she would try to kill anyone that tried to get in her way and he doubted that he would be able to grab her again if he let go. It was already sheer luck that he grabbed her in time, and he didn't care to press it. He felt Ash thrash wildly, a bit of a maddening, animalistic gleam in her eyes and he pulled her back and slammed her back into the wall, a howl escaping her lips. I am truly sorry Ashika, but I cannot let you hurt Erin. Please do the forgiving of this. He thought before he pushed her as hard as he could into the wall, causing her to make small choking sounds and gasp roughly for air. He knew that this would be very painful for her, as she wouldn't be able to breathe properly and it applied tons of pressure to her chest to impair her lungs further. He had to make her know that he was not playing around and would not be pushed around. Tank let the pressure ease off and she gasped for air, then thrashed wildly again, still fighting him. He reared back and slammed her into the wall again, hearing her head hit the wall and leaving her stunned. "Ashika Rose Dresden, I am not going to do the asking of this. You will stop fighting me and you will calm down. I will do anything I need to do to keep you from fighting me." He said in a dangerous growl, feeling her fighting lessen slightly. He knew that he had gotten through to her with aggression, now was the tricky part. He had to try and appeal to her mind and reason her back from her emotional chaos. "Ashika, you were about to hit Erin. You would have killed her, and I could not let that happen. You would not have been able to do the living with yourself if you had hit her, let alone killed her. You lost your brother and you lost Kai. Ashika, you CANNOT lose Erin. It would destroy you and we both know that."He felt her stop struggling and simply shake, her body going limp in his arms as he heard her sobbing. "Oh god... Oh god...... Oh god... Oh god...." He could hear her whisper over and over again in her pain and he released the hold on her, and let her go. Tank watched as she slid down the wall and cried, completely lost in her own self hate and sorrow.
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 2:13 pm
Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." In spite of her fear, in spite of all the hurt and anger she felt toward Ash for trying to hit her, Erin's heart did not want to tolerate Tank hurting her girlfriend. She clenched her teeth and fists, trembling with rage as she tried to keep herself from lunging at him. She could see from his expression that what he was doing was necessary, but still... It went deeply against the grain to just stand there and watch someone hurt Ash.
As soon as he let go of Ash, Erin was by Ash's side, her arms around her gently. "Shh, it's okay, love, it's okay," she whispered in the girl's ear as she lifted Ash into her arms, cradling her to her chest gently. Seeing her girlfriend being hurt, and now crying, was more than enough to stave off whatever petty anger she'd been feeling. Even if Ash had landed that hit, Erin knew she would have forgiven Ash.
Erin stood and nodded slightly to Tank, her expression serious. "Thank you for your help, Tank. I... I think it'll be okay now." She went back to the guest room and set Ash on the bed, sitting down beside her and still holding the girl in her lap. "Shh, don't cry, Ash, it's okay now...." Erin kissed Ash on the lips, very softly, twice. "I love you, Ashika. I'm sorry I denied you a chance to help me. I'll tell you whatever you want to know. I'll do whatever you want. You're my world, too, Ash, and I only want you to be happy..." "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 2:29 pm
Ashika Rose DresdenAsh felt Erin lift her and cradle her, whispering softly to her as she just cried. She felt disgusted with herself for even attempting to hit Erin, and the thought that she would have easily killed her was almost too painful to think about. When she was placed on the bed and felt Erin hold her once more, she clung to her. "I'm so sorry Erin... I'm so sorry... I'm sorry..." She said over and over again. Ash could feel her left cheek throbbing painfully and her chest was one huge hurt. Even her lungs hurt to use and the sobs caused her more pain. "I didn't know it was you Erin.... I'm so so sorry...." She whispered softly to her as she clung to her, half hoping that she would be horribly bruised from Tank just so that she could be reminded of what she almost did. {Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 2:34 pm
Erin Joyce Lee "They tell me that love is wonderful..." Erin kissed Ash's uninjured cheek softly, still cradling her close and even rocking her to try and soothe her somewhat. "Shh. It's okay. You didn't hurt me, Ash. You didn't mean it. It's okay, now. I love you." She kept kissing her lightly, cradling her, and whispering soft little phrases of comfort, waiting for her girlfriend to calm down. "...but how can something so painful be wonderful?"
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Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 2:47 pm
Ashika Rose DresdenAsh felt her emotions settle back into control as Erin rocked her and kissed her, calming her down quickly. She smiled at Erin slightly as she regained her composure, then kissed her gently on her lips. "I love you too Erin. I love you too much and that's why I got upset. I don't want you to be hurt like me." She told her softly as she tried to stand, and found herself gasping from the effort. {Within the darkness, two halves become the whole once more.}
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