A pondering.

[Jessi Dani]

I normally post in a pretty colorful fashion..
But I think this time I'll stick to black and white.

Anyone out there ever had second thoughts?
Ever...wondered what it would be like if they had made a different decision?

Anyone ever cried because they love someone so much..?
Anyone ever worry about what the future will bring?

I feel like that right now, I'm just full of ponderings...
I want them to go away...I'm having a hard time with this..And I can't find the answers to any of my questions..
I'm in love with a great guy..but our schedules are so messed up...and sometimes I feel like "wow, it's going to be a hell of a lot worse next year..am I going to feel ten times worse than I already do?"

Its things like that that worry me.
I don't know, I guess this was what the title states.

A pondering.  

[Faerie Dreams]

♥ I don't know how to help...
but I do know how you feel

I am in love with a guy
and he is in love with me too
but it is impossible for us to date
because of too many reasons...
and we both hate it so much...
and it makes us both so sad too
but we can't do anything about it
sometimes life can be evil like that

but you gotta hold you head up high and be happy
cause there's no use wasting time being depressed...

I always try to find the good in the bad, instead of the bad in the bad
like with me and that guy I mentioned, even though me and him can't date, we can still be friends, and most of the time friendships last longer than relationships

you just gotta try to find the good 3nodding instead of concentrating on the bad


...hope I helped somewhat... ♥

 

[CrimsonxXxSolace]

I think you should take things one step at a time, even though you probably have a lot of think about right now. I'm sure all of use have gone through what you have or are going through it right now. We'll always wonder what it's going to be like in the future, but if we think too much on it, we won't be able to enjoy what's in front of us. So just try to take it easy. Answers to questions are that easy to find either, they take time.

I hope I helped. ^_^
 

[Jessi Dani]

Thank you.

It's just bothersome because of the fact that I can't tell him things either..
I feel like I can't open up to him...
He hates it when I don't tell him things, and I can't stand it either..

I don't know whats keeping me from opening up to him completely..
I'm either really self-concious or really shielded...probably both.

But it's been almost two years we've been dating..and I still can't
open myself completely to him.  

[CrimsonxXxSolace]

He must really like you, if he gets upset that you won't open to him. If you've got alot on your mind, it's okay to tell him, even if you are uncomfortable. I believe that when you're in a relationship, everything is done best if both the partners knows and carry the weight together. They can help support and comfort each other. Even if you're uncomfortable, just tell him little by little, bits and pieces of the things that bothers you. He really likes you and so he wants to share the weight and help you carry the weight. If not all, just tell him a little at a time.  

[f0rsakenl0veaga1n]

Yes. I understand what you're feeling. Just a lot of "what ifs." and just wondering and doubting everything. I know it's hard but I think that you should just go with the flow. If something's supposed to be, or supposed to work out it will. If it's not...then it won't. It might be hard to accept it but that's how it is. I wish I could do something more to help you.