♥ Okay...there's this guy I am like almost in love with...I believe he feels the same...well he says he does at least...and his ex-girlfriend is pregnant, with his child, and because of all the complexities and stuff me and him are pretty much forbidden from dating...
Now yesterday his ex-girlfriend went to his house, and made him go to the fair with her...and the day before he told me that since he didn't have to work much, me and him would go to the fair together, I said well I have to take my sister, and I will be there pretty much all day, but yeah, we can hang out...I tried to call him during the day, but he never picked up his phone...then he called and told me that he was at the fair with his ex-girlfriend (I prefer not to say her name...) and he said he was leaving and would come back later to be with me...I just said oh okay, and hung up....
Now he did come to the fair when there was like 2 hours left, to hang out with me, and he said he was sorry to me, and I guess I forgave him, and everything was pretty much fine, other than me becoming sad every once in a while, but he was being nice and making me feel better by hugging me, holding my hand, kissing me on the forehead or the cheek whenever my friends weren't looking, (cause my friends don't exactly approve of me and him), and when the fair was over, he walked me to my car, and gave me a kiss goodbye, and said he'd call me...
He called me when I was almost home, and asked me what was wrong, and I told him I'd tell him when I got home, so he told me to call him once I got home...I did, and I told him why I was sad, actually I told him how he should know why I was...and he said he was sorry, and I don't remember what else, but we got off the phone, and for some reason I couldn't stop crying, I called him back once I stopped and told him that I was still sad...and we talked for a while...and I made him get off the phone, cause he said he was tired, but he kept saying no, and that he was worried about me, but eventually I got him to get off the phone and go to sleep...
now I did a lot of thinking after I got off the phone...and I was thinking how I really shouldn't get in the way of him and his ex-girlfriend, and if he's going to be involved with his child, he has to be involved with her, I know that no matter what me and him can't be together and it makes me sad...but I have to accept it...and I just think I should, when he calls me, just tell him that I am going to back off cause I think he should be with his ex-girlfriend, and she's gonna have the baby soon...and that stuff is way more important than me and him and my feelings towards him and I just think we shouldn't be as close, cause I don't want to get in the way of anything...
but the thing is pulling myself away hurts me a lot...because he is seriously one of my best friends, and the greatest guy I have ever met...but I guess if it has to be done...then it has to be done...
...does anyone have anyway to help me...I don't know how exactly...but just anything would be great...thank you...
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Now yesterday his ex-girlfriend went to his house, and made him go to the fair with her...and the day before he told me that since he didn't have to work much, me and him would go to the fair together, I said well I have to take my sister, and I will be there pretty much all day, but yeah, we can hang out...I tried to call him during the day, but he never picked up his phone...then he called and told me that he was at the fair with his ex-girlfriend (I prefer not to say her name...) and he said he was leaving and would come back later to be with me...I just said oh okay, and hung up....
Now he did come to the fair when there was like 2 hours left, to hang out with me, and he said he was sorry to me, and I guess I forgave him, and everything was pretty much fine, other than me becoming sad every once in a while, but he was being nice and making me feel better by hugging me, holding my hand, kissing me on the forehead or the cheek whenever my friends weren't looking, (cause my friends don't exactly approve of me and him), and when the fair was over, he walked me to my car, and gave me a kiss goodbye, and said he'd call me...
He called me when I was almost home, and asked me what was wrong, and I told him I'd tell him when I got home, so he told me to call him once I got home...I did, and I told him why I was sad, actually I told him how he should know why I was...and he said he was sorry, and I don't remember what else, but we got off the phone, and for some reason I couldn't stop crying, I called him back once I stopped and told him that I was still sad...and we talked for a while...and I made him get off the phone, cause he said he was tired, but he kept saying no, and that he was worried about me, but eventually I got him to get off the phone and go to sleep...
now I did a lot of thinking after I got off the phone...and I was thinking how I really shouldn't get in the way of him and his ex-girlfriend, and if he's going to be involved with his child, he has to be involved with her, I know that no matter what me and him can't be together and it makes me sad...but I have to accept it...and I just think I should, when he calls me, just tell him that I am going to back off cause I think he should be with his ex-girlfriend, and she's gonna have the baby soon...and that stuff is way more important than me and him and my feelings towards him and I just think we shouldn't be as close, cause I don't want to get in the way of anything...
but the thing is pulling myself away hurts me a lot...because he is seriously one of my best friends, and the greatest guy I have ever met...but I guess if it has to be done...then it has to be done...
...does anyone have anyway to help me...I don't know how exactly...but just anything would be great...thank you...
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