bad habit tough to get over...advice?

[makirra-matsukaze]

ok, so i have this really bad habit. I'm optimistic towards my friends, but when it comes to me...i'm extremely pessimistic. My thoughts wander out of control and it's really hard for me to stop. For example: i'll be talking to my bf, and he's told me a thousand times he loves me and i could never disappoint him and he would never hurt me, and we'll get off the phone after we say "i love you" to each other, and i'll be sitting there for a minute going "omg, he's so amazing!" but then my thoughts start to wander into that dark corner of my mind...i'll start thinking things like "what if he's just playing me?", "what if it doesn't work out?", "what if he's embarrassed by me?", "what if i'll never get to see him?" (btw, he lives on the other side of the country =/ ) and when i talk to my friends, say we're on the subject of food, and i haven't been eating for quite a while because i'm so friggen self-conscious, and i'll just blurt out "i don't need food because i'm fat." they tell me i'm not fat, and i say that i am, and we'll get into this big argument. it really pisses my friends off, so now i try not to say anything. Any advice on how to get over this bad habit?  

[X_Kohana Nozomi_X]

Hmm. You sound a lot like me. My bro has a gf that lives all the way in Pennsylvania and we live in New Jersey. They talk every afternoon, every night, and never get off for like 2 hours or so. And when I forget something in his room that I need for school, I sometimes see his phone right by his ear while he is sleeping. I think it is sweet how they are so close to each other. But man I hear lots of problems about his cell phone bills. x3
I guess try to think less about the negative side. It's okay to think it out. But try not to think so many negative thoughts that you become unsure of yourself. If you do think of the negatives, think some positives that can probably counter act with the negatives. xD  

[nytshad]

That internal monolgue will drive you crazy if you let it. The best way to reaffirm confidence in yourself is to find something to be confident about. Drawing, sculpting, music, studies, whatever keeps that voice quite. Once you've found something that you can be truely proud of, then you can begin integrating that pride into other aspects of your life little by little.

Also, it doesn't hurt to make a conscious effort to silence that voice. Whenever mine starts up, I start playing a battle song from Sailor Moon in my head to drown it out and it helps a lot.

Some side advice: Don't skip meals. All that does is slow down your metabolism and it won't help you lose fat, only muscle tissue. If you want to lose weight eat a diverse diet involving milk products, protein, and low fat foods and engage in regular exercise. That's the way we are built to lose fat tissue.  

[Kestix]

Thats completely natural hun!

But geeze if he says it like I think he says than godmnt LISTEN!

Whats he got to do, buy you a car??? He loves you and all this worring is just cause you arent 100% comfortable with him but you SHOULD!

This habit can help you though so don't break just dont let it mooch over your thoughts. Until it causes a serious problem you should just keep it.