The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
Right now, I am depressed. I have no motivation, no drive, nothing that makes me feel useful, loved, or the want to do something.
On top of that, I have FASD (Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder) I'm not very high on the spectrum, but high enough that I have problems. Keep in mind that my mother did not know she was pregnant with me, so it wasn't that she was knowingly drinking while pregnant and she has never forgiven herself for it.
One of the problems with it is the lack of motivation which is also affected by the fact that the first 5 years of my life, I had no stable home. We were always moving, 11 times before I was 5, to be exact.
I'm just not capable of being motivated to do something. I've been to doctors and psychiatrists, but it doesn't help.
I'm just not able to pull some motivation out of my a** long enough to accomplish anything.
He doesn't believe me and is threatening to give up on me over this.
I've shown him the papers saying I have it and the problems I've got because of it but he's telling me that it's all in my head and that I can do these things.
And I know that once I get that little bit of a push, I'm unstoppable and can do anything, but those times are few and far between.
I feel lost, useless and pushed around because of this. He's just not understanding that I am different, as much I don't want to believe it, I am.
I've never given up on myself and I've forced myself to get up and go everyday, forcing myself to go to school, forcing myself to go to work, but he still doesn't see how much I have to fight with myself to do it.
He's trying to use reverse psychology on me, and he doesn't understand that it's just not working. I'm never going to be able to pull motivation out of my a**. He doesn't believe me that some people are just incapable of it and is now threatening to give up on me because I can't give him a better answer.
I don't know what to tell him anymore.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand.
Right now, I am depressed. I have no motivation, no drive, nothing that makes me feel useful, loved, or the want to do something.
On top of that, I have FASD (Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder) I'm not very high on the spectrum, but high enough that I have problems. Keep in mind that my mother did not know she was pregnant with me, so it wasn't that she was knowingly drinking while pregnant and she has never forgiven herself for it.
One of the problems with it is the lack of motivation which is also affected by the fact that the first 5 years of my life, I had no stable home. We were always moving, 11 times before I was 5, to be exact.
I'm just not capable of being motivated to do something. I've been to doctors and psychiatrists, but it doesn't help.
I'm just not able to pull some motivation out of my a** long enough to accomplish anything.
He doesn't believe me and is threatening to give up on me over this.
I've shown him the papers saying I have it and the problems I've got because of it but he's telling me that it's all in my head and that I can do these things.
And I know that once I get that little bit of a push, I'm unstoppable and can do anything, but those times are few and far between.
I feel lost, useless and pushed around because of this. He's just not understanding that I am different, as much I don't want to believe it, I am.
I've never given up on myself and I've forced myself to get up and go everyday, forcing myself to go to school, forcing myself to go to work, but he still doesn't see how much I have to fight with myself to do it.
He's trying to use reverse psychology on me, and he doesn't understand that it's just not working. I'm never going to be able to pull motivation out of my a**. He doesn't believe me that some people are just incapable of it and is now threatening to give up on me because I can't give him a better answer.
I don't know what to tell him anymore.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand.
