Welcome to Gaia! ::

I've been in your position before. I don't like talking about it, but it happened months ago with someone who I trusted a bit too much.

I had intimacy problems for a while and it took many therapeutic sessions for me to return to my old way of life, which , in my case, is normal for me, but it's also a.. really bad thing which I won't get into.

I suggest that you undergo exposure therapy to cope with this traumatic situation.

I used to work with a few psychiatrists who treated sexually abused/ rape victims and this coping mechanism is proven to be quite effective over the long term.

It'll take patience and it'll be difficult to recount the event, but It's well worth it for the long term and the future.

To give you a heads up on what to expect..

It'll be really rocky and you might even have to sort of "relive" the incident and be asked to elaborate on the specific details on what happened, what the attacker/aggressor looked like, a description of the person you were assaulted by..

And you might even have to take a bit of medication along with the exposure therapy. It takes a few weeks, maybe more, maybe less.

You'll probably be asked to revisit the scene of the incident and familiarize yourself with a person who resembles your aggressor.

I'm sure if you really put forth all your effort and will into this, you'll pull through.

I wish you the best of luck with this. heart