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decided to finally talk to a florists for wedding stuff and called the one down the road from me. she told me to come in july 4th at 2:30. now we all thought it was a bit odd that she wanted me to come in on monday but whatever so we went with it

well yesterday we went to the florist for the appointment and big suprised, they were closed for july 4th needless to say i wont be going with that florist. im just happy she flaked out before i gave her my money. what if she had flaked out on my wedding day?


also less than 2 years ago i put my dad in charge of finding a place to have the wedding ceremony, he still hastn and is always coming up with excuses on why he hasnt yet. well the other day he called me up and had the nerve to ask me is i had found a place yet. why on earth would i find a place when its the one job i gave him and he has had almost 2 years to get it done?!

on the bright side less than 2 months before the wedding the fiance finally decided to write down his guest list after years of me begging. sadly he still hasnt found a photographer yet even though its one of the few things i told him to do for the wedding. and yes, he also had nearly 2 years to do this

im crying every couple days becasue of all this stress and my best friend is the only one helping me. my dad and sister keep asking me why i didnt get a wedding planner, but before when i asked if i could get one my dad said no and that i didnt need one, now he is getting on my back for not having one scream

drawing is how i get rid of most of my stress but the past few weeks everything i make is crap and that just makes me feel even worse. i tried to meditate and take a warm bubble bath but whenever im left alone with my thoughts all i do is think about what still needs to be done for this dang wedding.

also if im seeming like a b***h on the forums between now and august 20th this is why