Ok, girls. I REALLY need help on this one.
April 28th, 2010, I met a boy. I'll call him James. I met James on here, Gaia, and at first the friendship was just one of those... mediocre ones. At some point we clicked and started becoming better friends. I learned of his drinking and his drug abuse issues, except I knew he wasn't a bad person. I helped him quit drugs, and not drink as much. I helped him through suicidal thoughts. I gave him advice through parent, friend, and girlfriend issues. In return, he helped me through my issues. We really don't keep much from eachother, and he's one of the most amazing guys you'd ever meet. Kind, honest, helpful, truly caring, and quite cute ;]. A few months ago I had some issues in my life, and I became depressed. I even began having suicidal thoughts (Please, no judging! I'm better now.) James noticed this, and did all he could to help. He called me when I seemed most down, texted me a lot when he wasn't able to call me-- he made me laugh all the time.
Nearing the end of my depression, though, we had a fight. Now, we'd had fights before and gotten mad at eachother, even about the most ridiculous things. One fight that is most memorable to me is one where we fought about who's phone was cooler. xD Anyways, we had this huge fight, and I'd prefer not saying why. We didn't talk to eachother for 3 weeks and 4 days. During that time, I felt like a piece of me was missing. I felt hopeless, empty, and alone. Eventually he texted me one thing, "I'm sorry." We began talking again.
Anywho, it was during that time that I knew I was in love with him. There'd been a time about a year ago when he'd said he loved me, but we decided to stop saying that to eachother in fear of our friendship. But I know I love James, and I can't NOT think about him. Thing is... He lives on the East Coast, and I on the West Coast...Aaaand he's a 2 years and 3 months older than me.
What I want to know is... What do I do? I don't know if I should tell him these feelings or not. I don't know if it's wrong to love him... or not. I just need to talk to someone about it, and I just need some advice. Please?
April 28th, 2010, I met a boy. I'll call him James. I met James on here, Gaia, and at first the friendship was just one of those... mediocre ones. At some point we clicked and started becoming better friends. I learned of his drinking and his drug abuse issues, except I knew he wasn't a bad person. I helped him quit drugs, and not drink as much. I helped him through suicidal thoughts. I gave him advice through parent, friend, and girlfriend issues. In return, he helped me through my issues. We really don't keep much from eachother, and he's one of the most amazing guys you'd ever meet. Kind, honest, helpful, truly caring, and quite cute ;]. A few months ago I had some issues in my life, and I became depressed. I even began having suicidal thoughts (Please, no judging! I'm better now.) James noticed this, and did all he could to help. He called me when I seemed most down, texted me a lot when he wasn't able to call me-- he made me laugh all the time.
Nearing the end of my depression, though, we had a fight. Now, we'd had fights before and gotten mad at eachother, even about the most ridiculous things. One fight that is most memorable to me is one where we fought about who's phone was cooler. xD Anyways, we had this huge fight, and I'd prefer not saying why. We didn't talk to eachother for 3 weeks and 4 days. During that time, I felt like a piece of me was missing. I felt hopeless, empty, and alone. Eventually he texted me one thing, "I'm sorry." We began talking again.
Anywho, it was during that time that I knew I was in love with him. There'd been a time about a year ago when he'd said he loved me, but we decided to stop saying that to eachother in fear of our friendship. But I know I love James, and I can't NOT think about him. Thing is... He lives on the East Coast, and I on the West Coast...Aaaand he's a 2 years and 3 months older than me.
What I want to know is... What do I do? I don't know if I should tell him these feelings or not. I don't know if it's wrong to love him... or not. I just need to talk to someone about it, and I just need some advice. Please?
