I feel trapped. /despair

[La Bijou]

Backstory. My mom owes me $1200, she can only pay back half of that. That money was gonna be used to visit someone in the Netherlands over the summer BUT now I won't be able to afford to do this. I've been saving/planning since last year, but now it looks like I'll have to push it back till next year.

AND to top it off we're getting kicked out of our house (so I heard) so I'll probably lose my job in the move.

I just feel trapped, EVERY time I try to do something just for me it just fails.  

[RowenthaDark]

*hug* im sorry bijou. it sounds like its time to start cracking down on your life.
deal with your most immediate problem first.

penny-pinch like crazy and accept what your mom can give you.

find out FOR CERTAIN if you'll be losing your house. if you are, then set up a place to go and go ahead and look for jobs in that area with a decent pay, or see if you can find a place close enough that you can keep the job you have.

yeah, you might have to postpone your trip.....but trust me, you have more dire and immediate things to concern yourself with.  

[delasislas]

to start off i'm sorry.
ok i'm just gonna sound mean here but, that is why you never lend people money, they end up taking forever to pay it back.