I need help?!?!

[Bad Bigby]

Well I ALWAYS hated being a girl.. And people, and I thought it was puberty (I'm in middle school) so I ignored it. But then it got WAY out of hand. I was already depressed for a year (suicidal and cutting) and then me hating to be a girl made my depression even WORSE. I won't get into too much detail but now whenever I see a boy in a video or something I either get really sad and depressed or start crying.. And if I think about me not being a boy too much I go into a FURIOUS anger attack. Now I get super jealous whenever I see a boy. I thought I was bisexual/bicurious (or pans) but obviously it's just a phase. But now I'm curious about being a transgender...? I'm seriously starting to hate my life more and more everyday. Because of this issue, and other issues. PLEASE HELP.

(Again, I'm in middle school.. I'm around 12-14 years of age.)

P.S Please don't judge me.. I just need help.

P.P.S Oh and I haven't and will NEVER tell anyone about my depression or orientation curiosity.  

[FauxZombie]

Honestly, you should seek a therapist/counselor/psychiatrist (I'm not saying anything is wrong with you to go seek this) you could even try a school counselor and say what is going on.

To me, you seem to be going through an issue with your gender. Some people go through that.

I am a transgender (FtM) and I had suppressed my thoughts of being the opposite gender in attempts to fit into my biological one. Eventually it got to a point I couldn't even handle it. I looked up information online, sought other transgenders, stories, and eventually began to live my life identifying as a man. If you want to talk more about it - you can PM me, I'm always open to talk.

But as I suggested before, you should look into seeking help from a professional - that way they can provide you the right tools.  

[Bad Bigby]

FauxZombie

Honestly, you should seek a therapist/counselor/psychiatrist (I'm not saying anything is wrong with you to go seek this) you could even try a school counselor and say what is going on.

To me, you seem to be going through an issue with your gender. Some people go through that.

I am a transgender (FtM) and I had suppressed my thoughts of being the opposite gender in attempts to fit into my biological one. Eventually it got to a point I couldn't even handle it. I looked up information online, sought other transgenders, stories, and eventually began to live my life identifying as a man. If you want to talk more about it - you can PM me, I'm always open to talk.

But as I suggested before, you should look into seeking help from a professional - that way they can provide you the right tools.

I hate talking to people because I'm not a people person ad my friends are too 'imature' (i guess) to get this kind of stuff. I always thought about getting a gender change when I'm older but I'm HORRYFIED of being judged and stuff. I feel like I'm in the wrong body. Like a boy trapped in a female body. I can't tale it.  

[FauxZombie]

Taylor Shine

FauxZombie

Honestly, you should seek a therapist/counselor/psychiatrist (I'm not saying anything is wrong with you to go seek this) you could even try a school counselor and say what is going on.

To me, you seem to be going through an issue with your gender. Some people go through that.

I am a transgender (FtM) and I had suppressed my thoughts of being the opposite gender in attempts to fit into my biological one. Eventually it got to a point I couldn't even handle it. I looked up information online, sought other transgenders, stories, and eventually began to live my life identifying as a man. If you want to talk more about it - you can PM me, I'm always open to talk.

But as I suggested before, you should look into seeking help from a professional - that way they can provide you the right tools.

I hate talking to people because I'm not a people person ad my friends are too 'imature' (i guess) to get this kind of stuff. I always thought about getting a gender change when I'm older but I'm HORRYFIED of being judged and stuff. I feel like I'm in the wrong body. Like a boy trapped in a female body. I can't tale it.

Even if you hate talking to people - it's still the best choice to seek a professional (someone with a degree) to help guide you and such. Really, going to one is more about getting the tools needed.
When it comes down to it - you are your own judge - you need only to please yourself really.
So again, you're going to need to talk to a professional - and talking to your parents might help. Which it is scary as hell to tell them (or any one in particular, I found my parents to be the hardest).
What has been suggested to do at a group I've attended is the best way to tell them is to write them a letter that way they can read it all, take it in, without interrupting then address you on it.