I'm wishy washy, looking to be more strong willed

[Faerelle]

Apparently, I can't get things off the ground. Simply because I can't feel passionate. And I have trouble keeping them up because I'm weak willed. I'm hindered by minor setbacks that send me into a flood of uncontrollable tears.
I really hate days when I feel like a sinking ship, since out feels permanent. Not to mention, I suffer from social anxiety disorder, and just tell myself I hate people because I an afraid they'll hate me.
/rant
I envy others' confidence and resilience and their "it's my life" mentality that they're respected for, and want some of my own.  

[Miss_XxAriaxX]

Manta-bee

You said that you suffer from social anxiety disorder.
I think you should start by decreasing your disorder until you get rid of it completely.

Have you sought for professional help like counselor, psychologist?  

[Faerelle]

XxAriaxX

Manta-bee

You said that you suffer from social anxiety disorder.
I think you should start by decreasing your disorder until you get rid of it completely.

Have you sought for professional help like counselor, psychologist?

I've been doing research online and in books, was I can't afford one at the moment. The problem could be impatience, as I am upset things aren't happening fast enough.  

[Miss_XxAriaxX]

Manta-bee

XxAriaxX

Manta-bee

You said that you suffer from social anxiety disorder.
I think you should start by decreasing your disorder until you get rid of it completely.

Have you sought for professional help like counselor, psychologist?

I've been doing research online and in books, was I can't afford one at the moment. The problem could be impatience, as I am upset things aren't happening fast enough.

It is something I experienced too : impatience. I never had a professional diagnostic, but in moment in my life there was times I hit depression and suffered from slight social anxiety disorder.

It turn out that I watched a video on social anxiety disorder and it helped me out. I don't have the link of the video anymore and... it's in french so I don't think it can be helpful.

I did like you did. Search online... read many stuff... but I also had friends.. I talked with the ones that were willing to help me. I also talked with my mom...
I also posted my issues on Gaia. The combination of advices I received, helped me out.

You know it takes time and effort to improve any situation. So, be patient, continue to work on it and one day , you'll really get rid of it.  

[Lady Vendetta Iceflame]

Um.. hoo boy.. Okay, I know this feeling, I stupidly turned to drugs. Don't.

I'm lucky, I have free counselling where I live, and.. I use it to death. I gained my attitude through my art. I did it under a pseudonym. It helps to put yourself out in a way where it's not directly you.

I have a second thing, for relationships, but it's out there.. not sure if you're in one, so I'll hold mine judgement.  

[Tarrien]

For me, most of my confidence in what I'm doing is a charade. As long as I pretend like I know what I'm doing things tend to work for me.

Strength came through a severe depression due to issues with others. Then realizing that I was still in control after I got away from them and watching someone else have things a bit harder than myself. I would hope you don't have to go through the same.

The main thing is realizing your position. Knowing that you're in control of where your life is headed because it is. Your choices completely influence your life.  

[yuintakie_yuki]

my problem is kind of the same
i always lack confidence
but sometimes i force myself to do it
i mean go for it immediately before i stop and think about it

furthermore
this helps me abit, kind of, or at least im making myself believe this helps but
i make a chant/mantra to myself
like for instance
i want to do something properly
i say to myself i can do it, i am great, i am awzum
something positive to boost myself up^^