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For as long as I can remember, I've been quieter than the rest. Recently I've been noticing that bouts of anger have been popping up. I don't usually say how I feel so that could contribute to my anger. Sometimes I just feel so randomly anger that I could do anything to anyone to release my anger. A while ago I felt so angry that I felt like I had lost myself. I can slowly feel my mental state declining from all of this. I do have a pretty good relationship with my mother, but it isn't perfect. She happens to be anti-gay and racist, but I happen to be bi-sexual and non-racist. I've known my best friend for going on 3 years now and I've always took notice to her, liked her. We got along so well, but she has been experiencing unrequited love for this guy that I do indeed know. You couldn't say we were friends, but we knew each other. One day I felt gutsy and we happened to be alone, knowing that they were still together, I asked her out. I also did know at the time that they weren't talking and she didn't know whether to break it off or keep it although she did still like him. She has liked him for 3 years. I asked her for 4-5 days trying to find out whether she would break it to him or not, but on the 5th day, she put me in my place which depressed me greatly for a few days. To be honest, I also can get depressed easily from almost nothing. It merely comes on randomly and from the slightest things like if I happened to disappoint someone or something.

I don't feel hopelessly depressed though.