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Posted: Fri Apr 25, 2014 5:31 pm
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The Malignant and the Benign pt 1 Mood: Casual Now Playing: Woke Up This Morning - Alabama 3 (I think)
I wrote this a couple of nights ago when my internet went down. I want to start writing again, so I decided to start chronicling the misadventures of two of my friends who have been in an off-on abusive relationship for years. The names have been changed, of course. It's meant to be an objective point of view from what I've personally experienced and things I've been told. I may write more when the mood strikes. This is my account of an unfortunate drunken night two years ago.
It’s around three in the morning. The alcohol has run out but we still have a good half hour of partying left to go, and a few bowls to smoke before we depart.
We respect Jay’s wishes to keep the house free of nicotine, so myself and the only other smoker in the house have taken to stepping out every 45 minutes to have our cigarettes. The weather isn't warm but we’re both too drunk to look for our jackets. Sometimes we’re accompanied by someone else who just wants some fresh air.
Danielle and I, followed by Bob, step out for the last time that night. We light our smokes while Bob rambles. He is shamelessly hanging on to Danielle even though she has a boyfriend. He usually finds his way to Allan Street on weekends but he’s absent. Later we would all applaud the breakup.
The house has become suspiciously quiet. No one has put on another song. Perhaps the night was coming to a close. That wasn't unheard of. Shirley and Tiffany were notorious for wanting to crash early. The boys (and me) would have no choice but to start calling cabs. Our group was too small to call a party after someone fell asleep.
Inside, we hear Andrew raise his voice. We exchange looks but it’s nothing we haven’t heard before. I didn't know an angry pot head could exist before I met Andrew. We continue to smoke, but quietly, listening for signs of escalation in his voice.
It doesn't take long. We hear every word. He is screaming at Tiffany, accusing her of flirting with his best friend right in front of him. He calls her every name in the book while she tries to defend herself. At first her voice is loud and defiant but quickly softens under his bellows.
The three of us outside are drunk, stoned and cowardly. None of us are up to the scene we would have to walk into, so we bail. We take a walk to the end of the dead-end street, harshly whispering about what we just heard. Even in our inebriated states we know that our presence would have made the situation worse, whether we had simply walked in or taken a side.
We don’t see him, but we hear him leaving. How the door didn't come off its hinges we’ll never know. We wait until he’s completely out of sight to make our way back up to the house.
The sight is what we expect. Jay, the best friend, has disappeared upstairs. Shirley is getting a blanket for a crying Tiffany. Peter is standing on the sidelines, looking pensive.
The cabs are called shortly after.
-mSlMD
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2014 9:32 pm
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Quick Thought - Recurring Nightmare Mood: Restless Now Playing: Love Like Blood - Killing Joke / Nobody Thinks About Me - Michale Graves
I napped from 4:30 to 9:30 this evening. I guess the cats were sleeping in the living room since nothing woke me up. Now I'm wide awake, it's after 1 in the morning and I have work tomorrow. Not too early, thankfully. Before I woke up, I had a nightmare. Yes, I'm one of those tits that likes to talk about their dreams. I use to have them all the time when I lived in the apartment years ago but I haven't had one since we moved. I'm lying in bed, semi-conscious, unable to move. I can't even control my eyeballs so I can't directly look at anything. I can see that I'm in my bedroom lying in my own bed. That's the scariest thing about these dreams; usually in dreams places and people are different, but it's like I wake up just long enough to take a screenshot in my head of my surroundings. There's something happening, either the walls are morphing, something's coming out of my closet, or something is attacking me in my bed. I scream and try my hardest to move, hoping to wake up. Sometimes I don't know that I'm dreaming and it's horrifying. Keeping a dream diary for a few years I'm pretty good at picking up why I have certain reoccurring themes in dreams but these have no meaning, they come so randomly and they're all different (with the exception that I'm still in my bed). I have uncontrollable eyeballs in other dreams but it's usually not scary, just annoying. It's like my brain just says "I'm going to scare the piss out of you now."
-mSlMD
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Posted: Fri Sep 05, 2014 10:03 am
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Posted: Fri Nov 07, 2014 8:30 pm
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