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My husband and I have been married 4 years, and have done things we were not very proud of.

However, when I do something wrong, I get treated like a child. What do I mean about that? I feel like I'm under constant surveillance because my husband does not appear to trust me. He always ask me what I do online and will often ask to read what I e-mail and/or post. I have nothing to hide, but why he does this constantly I do not know. Even if I just want to go out by myself or even with my mother, he has to be there with me.

For a while, my husband had made me feel bad about myself and this guy who works at a gas station down my street gave me a reason to smile again. I'd go there just to see him and his smile. He'd joke with me and made me feel like myself again. However, I knew this was wrong, but I didn't know what to do and it had been a while since I could laugh and be happy.

This past weekend, I revealed that to my husband and told him why. He asked me why I never told him, I gave a reason for that too. I would explain how I felt about things and his response was "You have no excuse for an attitude" or "What does it matter?" When I told him the conflicting feelings I had between him and this man, he started to pour his heart out to me and cry. Then I talked it over with my mom and I got "The grass is not always greener on the other side" talk and it gave me a bit more to think about.

So I chose to stay with my husband, but now the surveillance on me just intensified and I'm in tears because I feel like I'm being treated like a child more than a wife. cry