X_Innocent_Uke_Heart_X
Genkawolf
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John Doe glanced to Sato and blinked when he spoke. The other was twiddling his thumbs. He wondered if the guy was okay. Was that odd? The guy who woke in the intensive care units coma ward worrying about some guy who may not even know him at all? His gaze moved back to Jason and he blushed feeling his hands in Jason's. His fingers curled around the tips of the other mans fingers. His heart was racing and he felt the warmth from the dreams. The happiness and love and sense of belonging. He teared up a bit as he listened to the other and blinked the tears away.
"I'm sorry....I remember that tone...how strange to say when most things I remember are uncertainty. I remember loving you and that tone...but I can't remember who I am...I sound like some kind of idiot right now."
He stopped talking and listened to the next set of comments as the other man went and explained the awkwardness and tension in the room. He looked down worriedly. Maybe he should have died then....they would have been better off. His thoughts went unspoken but what he was understanding was he should have died because they were already grieving and trying to move on. Wait. No. That isn't what was being said. The other was saying they were reeling just like him. The tears fell down his cheeks. Listening to the man's words was causing him pain and happiness. He felt relief but was also feeling guilt that he caused such pain. Such pain and upset both being missing and not being missing.
"I'm sorry Sato. I'm sorry Jason. For the pain I've caused without trying to. I am really happy you both want me to stay with you. I am sorry you both were hurting and I will work hard to help out and not inconvenience you both. As well as to never cause either of you that kind of uncertainty, loss or worry again."
he said sincerely but looked between the two of them. He was seeing the shock not the anger or sadness they came. He looked at Jason and nodded his head a bit. Biting his lower lip and looked right at Jason. Clutching the others fingers tighter. He understood now. He understood what Jason was meaning and the feelings that were laying heavily in the room.
"I understand. I will. I promise I understand and won't say anymore like that. I'm glad you guys had each other and that I have both of you. I love you Jason. My heart knows it. I know it. I can feel it. I am sorry if I'm wrong...and Sato I'm sorry if your his boyfriend. I don't want things to be different between you two."
He pulled his fingers and hands from Jason's. Looking at Sato with a smile.
"Thank you for being there for him and for coming and helping him. If you two are a couple...I will stay out of the way even more. I can't change the weird way my heart feels....but I don't want you two to break up if your dating. From what I hear I have been in a coma for numerous months."
He smiled brightly and warmly. Looking back at Jason and blushed. Hands moving into his lap. He wasn't sure their relationship. Or even if he and Jason had one like in the dreams and his mind was blank but his hearts love for the man named Jason....that was real. It was a certainty he knew. He was madly in love with the man who had helped him understand. Was it returned? This he didn't know.