|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2018 11:52 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Fri Sep 07, 2018 12:04 am
|
|
|
|
He felt his chest deflate as she seemed to be ready to go. Was that it, then? Did she not care? Not even hesitate? Had it all been in his head? Prelude stared firmly at the ground now, again. She was ready to go and he was the idiot hoping she didn't want to. She had kids, a home, somewhere else to go, he knew she had come along to help him and now that was over.
His nails dug into the ground, teeth digging into his cheek as he bit back the urge to say something. Say what? What more was there to say? Had he been hoping for something else? For what? How many times had he reached out to someone and said the first words? Every time, and nothing changed. He always reached out and asked someone to stay. She'd stay, if he asked. He knew it, but how would he know if it was because she wanted to? She had saved had. Had taken him to Yasashii. Had escorted him here. Everything was on his terms and his needs — he didn't want to say it this time.
He didn't want to put his needs on her.
He wanted her to stay. He wanted her to say 'I don't want to go'. He wanted to hear someone to say it first — to know this time they weren't staying because he said it first. Because he trapped them. She had proven to be kind; kinder than he deserved. She had a life to get to, and Prelude had no right to take her from it.
But deities did the thought of this being the last time together hurt. It sucked his breath from his chest. The 'phim found his nails digging into the dirt, teeth breaking through skin. She had never promised him anything further. It was time she did something she wanted.
"Thank you," His voice was hushed, emerald eyes growing damp as he bitterly fought himself to stay calm. "I'm sorry for taking months of your time, but thank you. I was glad to have you by my side. I-" He cut off abruptly as he felt a tear slip, teeth digging into his tongue. s**t.
"I'm really grateful, Sayre."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Fri Sep 07, 2018 12:31 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Fri Sep 07, 2018 10:16 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 5:43 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 9:36 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 9:50 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 9:59 pm
|
|
|
|
Relief punctured through the panic like a hard blow. His wings drooped as the tension left them, ears slowly rising. He knew it. He couldn't like, though; he was scared, too. Of course he was. He didn't look up at her, instead carefully choosing his words.
"I'm scared, too," He admitted, glancing back up at her for just a moment. "But... I'd... like it if you stayed. I — err... I'd regret letting you go if I didn't at least say something. Didn't at least tell you how I felt," Panic rose again, drenched in a reasonable amount of doubt. What if this made her up and leave?
Well, he had to be honest. He'd never forgive himself if he wasn't.
"I haven't had much to live for lately; you know that. You met me and I couldn't care less if I died then and there. But, over the course of our companionship, being alive mattered. I didn't want to leave behind Tallulah, or Harvest, or, especially, you. It was easier each day to get up and try again, and while it's still hard sometimes... it gets easier whenever you're around."
He paused, inhaling sharply as he put it all on one final sentence. "You don't have to return these feelings, Sayre, but I would be happy to be by your side for as long as you'd have me."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 10:20 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 10:34 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Sep 11, 2018 10:47 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|