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 Posted: Fri Aug 31, 2007 8:51 am
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Posted: Fri Aug 31, 2007 8:56 am
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Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2007 12:00 pm
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beauty is a curse Laylile Ugh I'm feeling so stressed right now.
My bf... he is going somewhere with another girl....
(now I wouldn't care if it was anyother day)
on my birthday... MY BIRTHDAY
What the ******** is wrong with him...
And my Dad hasn't spoken to me scince January late december...
It's getting me mad...
what did I do to him?
It's like he jkust wants to earse me from his life...
My step sister is getting in the way...
of my little bonding time I have with my half sisters...
she get's to see htem every weekend...
I get to see them 2 times a month...
that's if I'm lucky...
and she won't let me spend time with them...
cuz she wants ALL...
of my attention...
My step mom once removed...
lectured me the other night...
about how much she hates my low self confidence...
for like a hour...
Made me want to go hide in a corner and cry...
I can't really help it...
I try very VERY hard to be happy 24/7...
But knowing I'm a mistake just...
makes it hard to be happy...
emo
Yeah that's all. Just I want to talk to someone...
You peeps prob don't care bout' everything I just wrote my dad hasnt talked to since december of last year literally no words coem out of his mouth directed to me i have no self asteem becasue i totally beleive that im ugly but peeps tell meim pretty when they do it makes me smile xD ive been abused since i was 2 .. brokens ribs split lips ect. so my mom isnt on my good side my life is a long hard sob story and basicallyy i hate it iv enever tried to kill myself i cut myself for awile but i sstopped ... i know that im a mistake so i totally understand wut ur sayin and i do care about wut u wrote
Wow
now we just need to find
A healthy way to deal
Agree?? |
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Posted: Sat Sep 08, 2007 11:46 am
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Laylile beauty is a curse Laylile Ugh I'm feeling so stressed right now.
My bf... he is going somewhere with another girl....
(now I wouldn't care if it was anyother day)
on my birthday... MY BIRTHDAY
What the ******** is wrong with him...
And my Dad hasn't spoken to me scince January late december...
It's getting me mad...
what did I do to him?
It's like he jkust wants to earse me from his life...
My step sister is getting in the way...
of my little bonding time I have with my half sisters...
she get's to see htem every weekend...
I get to see them 2 times a month...
that's if I'm lucky...
and she won't let me spend time with them...
cuz she wants ALL...
of my attention...
My step mom once removed...
lectured me the other night...
about how much she hates my low self confidence...
for like a hour...
Made me want to go hide in a corner and cry...
I can't really help it...
I try very VERY hard to be happy 24/7...
But knowing I'm a mistake just...
makes it hard to be happy...
emo
Yeah that's all. Just I want to talk to someone...
You peeps prob don't care bout' everything I just wrote my dad hasnt talked to since december of last year literally no words coem out of his mouth directed to me i have no self asteem becasue i totally beleive that im ugly but peeps tell meim pretty when they do it makes me smile xD ive been abused since i was 2 .. brokens ribs split lips ect. so my mom isnt on my good side my life is a long hard sob story and basicallyy i hate it iv enever tried to kill myself i cut myself for awile but i sstopped ... i know that im a mistake so i totally understand wut ur sayin and i do care about wut u wrote Wow
now we just need to find
A healthy way to deal
Agree??
i agree |
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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2007 4:53 am
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beauty is a curse Laylile Ugh I'm feeling so stressed right now.
My bf... he is going somewhere with another girl....
(now I wouldn't care if it was anyother day)
on my birthday... MY BIRTHDAY
What the ******** is wrong with him...
And my Dad hasn't spoken to me scince January late december...
It's getting me mad...
what did I do to him?
It's like he jkust wants to earse me from his life...
My step sister is getting in the way...
of my little bonding time I have with my half sisters...
she get's to see htem every weekend...
I get to see them 2 times a month...
that's if I'm lucky...
and she won't let me spend time with them...
cuz she wants ALL...
of my attention...
My step mom once removed...
lectured me the other night...
about how much she hates my low self confidence...
for like a hour...
Made me want to go hide in a corner and cry...
I can't really help it...
I try very VERY hard to be happy 24/7...
But knowing I'm a mistake just...
makes it hard to be happy...
emo
Yeah that's all. Just I want to talk to someone...
You peeps prob don't care bout' everything I just wrote my dad hasnt talked to since december of last year literally no words coem out of his mouth directed to me i have no self asteem becasue i totally beleive that im ugly but peeps tell meim pretty when they do it makes me smile xD ive been abused since i was 2 .. brokens ribs split lips ect. so my mom isnt on my good side my life is a long hard sob story and basicallyy i hate it iv enever tried to kill myself i cut myself for awile but i sstopped ... i know that im a mistake so i totally understand wut ur sayin and i do care about wut u wrote
I'm sorry you have to go through stuff like that
and i don't think your a mistake because it may seem like you have it bad now but later in life things can change and faith usually makes it i had a bad life and still would be if one person hadn't changed it |
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 4:29 pm
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Posted: Thu Oct 25, 2007 1:56 pm
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we all have pain, thoguh to compare, i have no way to compare with anyone, or else we wouild become one because there is no way to truly compare it without knowing exactly how everything is. it would be like seeing a dead guy at a crime scene with a bullet through his head. but seeing nothign else. you could see it as homocide or suicide depending whjat you think, and then it zooms out to show the gun in is hand, his fingerprints there too, and you can finally understand. but....it eventually goes away, i guess. my mother died wednesday 17th 2004 of a fungus. she had gotten cancer, origionating in the spleen, and then it spread, some years earlier, most of my life we traveled to buffalo to visit her. then she eventually came home, and we had chickens, and she got a fungus from one, so it worked itself into her head, and so she told the doctors to pull the plug, so they did, she was insane from the lack of those drugs when i finally got there, and she kept callign for my brother..or my father (they share the name) ..and then she was dead. Have you ever had to fake cry? thats what i had to do. surounded by the people who loved her, the people she loved, how can you bring yourself not to cry, i couldn't bring myself to cry..i just couldn't . and she was gone from my life like that. i didn't feel the pain. i can't feel the pain..i can't feel anythig n anymore, and that is what drives me to be liek i am. i want to find out whats out there, beyond this bunch of bull crap. i want myself to die, and to find out why exactly everything is the way it is, not to wonder anymore, to know everything about anything..like.....why? |
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Posted: Sat Jan 26, 2008 9:13 am
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Posted: Tue Apr 01, 2008 12:33 pm
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Posted: Sat Apr 05, 2008 1:19 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 25, 2008 2:28 pm
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Posted: Thu Oct 30, 2008 5:07 pm
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Posted: Thu Dec 11, 2008 3:00 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 14, 2008 7:26 pm
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