I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[awalking paradox]

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!!! No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I worry, I'm always coming in last and never stand compairing to my friends. I work as hard as I can and do as much as I can yet my grade suck and the people who were always asking me for help always get better grades!!!!!!
I have sooo many big dreams, so many things I want to do, but I'm the youngest child in a family of eight and I'll always get things last.
I know about the things around me, I know that we need money, yet why do they always think I won't understand? That I couldn't help even if they let me?
Why are they so content to stay here on this island, when with just a little bit of work they could achive what I cannot? How can they relax when when I'm pulling my hair out, stressing about school, money, and colleges abound.
I hate myself, for being so selfish. For aways wanting more and hating to setling for less. I hate my ever thinking mind and my weak body.
I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!  

[XxUsagiMaruhiXx]

I feel the same way-But when I finnaly yelled that kindof stuff in my sleep my dad woke me up and made me say it-I think there not telling us beacuse were still young-they want us to have fun and live-and not worry about all that s**t.Its hard not to huh?I feel the same way as you.  

[awalking paradox]

XxUsagiMaruhiXx

I feel the same way-But when I finnaly yelled that kindof stuff in my sleep my dad woke me up and made me say it-I think there not telling us beacuse were still young-they want us to have fun and live-and not worry about all that s**t.Its hard not to huh?I feel the same way as you.

I know!!!! I'm glad that they care about me so much but now that I'm a senior they're suddenly throwing all these responsibilites at me and I have no clue how to handle it.........