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 Posted: Sat Apr 03, 2010 7:36 pm
My name's Shannon. I've been suffering from depression for a few months now, and whenever I seem to have a break down I write down a lot of things that bother me. I wrote this in kind of a list as to what I'm sorry for.. I decided to post it because I don't want to keep it to myself because it's bothering me too much, but I don't want to show anyone else that I know. The only person I've shown is my boyfriend.
I'm sorry I keep breaking down.
I'm sorry I can't seem to be happy.
I'm sorry I'm always sad.
I'm sorry I can't seem to smile and laugh.
I'm sorry that I can't eat right.
I'm sorry I'm underweight.
I'm sorry that I can't get better right now.
I'm sorry things aren't the way they used to be.
I'm sorry I'm not being the best girlfriend I can be.
I'm sorry I can't look in the mirror without wanting to look away.
I'm sorry I can't look at myself without wanting to breakdown and cry.
I'm sorry I can't take compliments anymore.
I'm sorry I don't have a sense of humour anymore.
I'm sorry that everything pisses me off when i know it shouldn't.
I'm sorry I've stopped helping out around the house.
I'm sorry I can't enjoy myself.
I'm sorry my grades are slipping.
I'm sorry I don't want to get out of bed anymore.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.
I'm sorry for annoying you.
I'm sorry that this doesn't seem right to you.
I'm sorry if this seems so sudden.
I'm sorry that my head refuses to believe what you say.
I'm sorry I can't just shake this off.
I'm sorry that you can't seem to help me.
I'm sorry that I don't want to do anything anymore.
I'm sorry I can't do anything right anymore.
I'm sorry I don't understand what you're going through.
I'm sorry if I seem like a bad friend.
I'm sorry I'm scared.
I'm sorry that I worry too much.
I'm sorry that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I want to hurt myself.
I'm sorry that I tried hurting myself.
I'm sorry I'm depressed.
...I'm sorry I'm not myself anymore.
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Posted: Sat Apr 03, 2010 7:41 pm
That's beautiful. My depression relapses all the time. If you want some one on one advice, PM me. I'm always there for a friend. : )
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Posted: Sat Apr 03, 2010 7:54 pm
I am a recovering from deprtession and I thank you.
I thank you for writing down something every person going through depression feels. You have let other people know, they are not alone, you let others know that you understand and I understand you. I have been where you are. I remember being so alone and no one seeing or evening attemping to care what I was going trhough. intill someone finally told me "you feel alone" I had waited years for someoen to tell me that. and I know you feel alone too, you feel desperate and so so alone. like you're in a hole and there no point in trying to climb out cuz it is impossible. I was there where you are. Things get better remember this quote that helped me:
This too shal pass- Churhill
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Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 10:43 pm
The Broken L That's beautiful. My depression relapses all the time. If you want some one on one advice, PM me. I'm always there for a friend. : ) Thanks you, and I'll remember that. heart
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Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 10:44 pm
psychic_pandas I am a recovering from deprtession and I thank you. I thank you for writing down something every person going through depression feels. You have let other people know, they are not alone, you let others know that you understand and I understand you. I have been where you are. I remember being so alone and no one seeing or evening attemping to care what I was going trhough. intill someone finally told me "you feel alone" I had waited years for someoen to tell me that. and I know you feel alone too, you feel desperate and so so alone. like you're in a hole and there no point in trying to climb out cuz it is impossible. I was there where you are. Things get better remember this quote that helped me: This too shal pass- Churhill Thank you for that quote. I'll remember that whenever I'm feeling realy down and I feel like it's not going to get better. heart
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Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 10:59 pm
The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I wrote something like this a few months ago, it was almost a year ago, actually.
I never could finish it.
This pretty much sums it all up. It's everything you feel when you're facing depression.
I was given pills for it, but they make me feel nothing.
And in all honestly, I'd rather feel this then nothing at all.
It was beautifully written.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand.
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 8:00 pm
angel_nicholson The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I wrote something like this a few months ago, it was almost a year ago, actually.
I never could finish it.
This pretty much sums it all up. It's everything you feel when you're facing depression.
I was given pills for it, but they make me feel nothing.
And in all honestly, I'd rather feel this then nothing at all.
It was beautifully written.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand. Thank you heart I'm on anti-depressants for it right now. I really wish I didn't have to take them, I hate taking pills. D:
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 8:02 pm
Shannon vs Fear Before angel_nicholson The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I wrote something like this a few months ago, it was almost a year ago, actually.
I never could finish it.
This pretty much sums it all up. It's everything you feel when you're facing depression.
I was given pills for it, but they make me feel nothing.
And in all honestly, I'd rather feel this then nothing at all.
It was beautifully written.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand. Thank you heart I'm on anti-depressants for it right now. I really wish I didn't have to take them, I hate taking pills. D: The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I'm fine with taking pills, I just don't like the ones I have.
I'm going to have them switched because with these, I can't really feel anything at all.
I can't feel sadness, happiness, nothing.
I have to fake them all.
But I don't have to take them for long.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand.
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Posted: Wed Apr 14, 2010 10:02 am
angel_nicholson Shannon vs Fear Before angel_nicholson The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I wrote something like this a few months ago, it was almost a year ago, actually.
I never could finish it.
This pretty much sums it all up. It's everything you feel when you're facing depression.
I was given pills for it, but they make me feel nothing.
And in all honestly, I'd rather feel this then nothing at all.
It was beautifully written.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand. Thank you heart I'm on anti-depressants for it right now. I really wish I didn't have to take them, I hate taking pills. D: The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see...
I'm fine with taking pills, I just don't like the ones I have.
I'm going to have them switched because with these, I can't really feel anything at all.
I can't feel sadness, happiness, nothing.
I have to fake them all.
But I don't have to take them for long.
...and knows what the mind cannot understand. My doctor just recently changed my medication.. but now lately I always feel sad and I find myself crying for hours on end :/ I felt better on my better medication, though not by much.
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