I am broken.

[iTootsie]

I am ******** goods.

I am broken.

I was in shitty condition before.

Then everything happened.

And I am broken.

Yo. Soy. ...Broken.

Rock bottom.
It was weeks ago.
And weeks before that.

And now it's deeper.
I thought I was heading up.
But I just sat there,
and finding out the truth
made the hole that much deeper.

I don't even know how I feel anymore.
I really do feel broken.
I was having a ******** amazing day.
I spent $70 at the mall,
and hot some hella great deals on clothes.
Then I came home.
Happy.
And am at the screen.
Reading what was accidentally left out.
And all I feel is broken.
Every emotion I had before.
Sad.
Angry.
Betrayed.
Cursed.
Forgotten.
Unloved.
Easily-dropped.
It's all of that, only now they are all broken.
Like everything but in a million little pieces.

You guys. I don't want to reach out because it's not in my nature.
And I used to hate hugs.
All I want is a hundred arms around me right now.

I am ********>  

[Light up the Night]

Tootsie! D: I want to help but you'd have to give more to the story!
We'd hug you if we could!  

[wo_nyrmo]

Weither reaching out or not isn't in your nature it is sitll good to get things out there to those willing to listen so maybe next time you'll feel like you won't have to be so vague about things and give us more info to the story.  

[iTootsie]

Hhhhh.

Right.

Perhaps one day soon

the waves will have passed over me

and I can just talk about it.

After this I left for a walk to the park.
And an old friend met me 'cause he knew I was going.

We have just started talking again 'cause he treated me like dirt.
He actually helped me through it a lot.

I'm to take this one day at a time.