2am-3am: major mental/emotional breakdown.
3am-current: major "******** everyone else, I'm awesome. I'm doing my god damned best, and I don't care if I made a mistake, I'm new at not being a turtle or a ghost and I'm doing my ******** best. It doesn't matter if I'm fireset or iceryu, I'm barely even ******** human to begin with, and I'm still ******** awesome. I will torrent, pillage and plunder; laugh at those weaker and beat down those who are stronger. I will design my buildings and create my machines and do as I damn well please, because thats what I ******** do, and that is what I will continue to do. So ******** expectations, they're nothing but chains holding me down, and come hell or high water, I will break those chains through strength or welding torch and use them to beat my critics to the ******** ground."
Needless to say, I feel much better now.