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I think this new journal is a better start to a change.
My last one seemed like insanity about crap.
This time, I should try to be positive.

So anyway, my journal topics should be:
- Events of my life
- Stress Relief
- My thoughts and feelings
- My Dreams (Whether that is my goals, or weird stuff in my sleep)

- So today, I am just taking it easy before another *awful* monday. I hate this time of year, Christmas break is dangling a month away and its the middle of the semester: the point where you just don't care anymore.

- I try to remember many many people live worse lives than mine (I have it preeetty good), especially since I'm simply stressing getting good enough grades to go to university. I'm a senior (I don't call them colleges because I'm Canadian), I actually put effort into my work and my grades are maybe 5% better, its bloody depressing! I actually try and I do no better. (its like what...3.1 gpa??)

- To me it seems every time I think I'm fat, an episode of whatever tv show will have something to do with it. Last time I watched American Dad, Stan goes anorexic. Last night, I was watching the Simpsons and Lisa was dealing with body image issues.

This is all for today, I'll try and remember to add stuff.

Yesterday was definately a good friday... (wasn't it black friday!? I'm Canadian I wouldn't know).
Chemistry made a tad more sense, I was actually getting somewhere in English, and in Math I was insanely hyper from: highlighters, sin and cos waves, double rainbow, winning a piece of candy, and diet coke.
Things are certainly looking up! I just gotta smile and go with it.
Even pulling a truck in the Christmas parade was fun.

So I'm reading more to keep my english vocabulary broad. Currently I am reading Torment by Lauren Kate. Its the sequel to Fallen, which has to do with angels, demons, and cheesy love stories.

When I finish that I will raid my sister's Sarah Dessen collection when the books are returned from her classmate. Maybe I'll re-read the Inheritance series since the fourth installment is getting closer.

Perhaps at my next stop to Chapters I'll buy some books. I've just been having a hard time trying to break away from the average mythical creature books with love stories in them. Its that or true crime. But I can't read true crime at school or I'll get looked at weird. My friend thinks I idolize Charles Manson simply because I've read Helter Skelter and was re-reading some of it.
Does fascination count as idolizing? I doubt it.
Theres also the mysterious case of Jeckyll and Hyde... its just something I'd like to read.

Gotta do my essay.......
soon.
Whatever, I'd get an energy drink if I reeeeally had to.
And today chem was awkward...
friggin student-teacher coming over to help me....
my face = red the whole time
damn his attractiveness..

Happy things:
- a youtuber answered my question in a video smile like... a whole video.
(raeart, I asked what his art influences were, he made a 4 minute video just on that biggrin )
- System of a Down is reuniting in the new year biggrin omg omg omg
if they come to Canada, I will beg to see them biggrin

Shiiiieeeeeeet,
I gotta do my project on eye makeup
I've got: today, tomorrow,and saturday
Sunday is shot for christmas shopping...
My mom is really easy to shop for
Everyone else [dad, brother, sister] ....not so much

No more attractive student-teacher sad
We both like our diet coke >.<
Just like this guy I met at camp... <3
hahaha, I love guys <33333

But anyway, gotta start thinking about prom...
My class of 2011 is cool, its masquerade/mardi gras themed!
I'm thinking of bringing this guy I'm friends with... and have a crush on.
But what makes it hard to ask: hes in college, and his sister is graduating too (we don't live in the same town, thank God!).
I will get the balls to ask, or at least dance around the subject first...
While comforting his friend that broke up with my brother's ex....
COMPLICATED! gonk

scream I NEED MY FREAKING BREAK
I'm soooo tired of school!!!

But yeah, eye makeup.
I plan to cut up my board to make it space-conserving.... (kinda fold-y)
Throw some Egyptian script on one side
Silly pictures (got a hilarious one of Shaycarl) on the other.
I'll write 'Vanity' and other stuff like that...
Jeffree Star? Maybe
But I have to remember the report is the bulk of my mark.

Okay, APA format
1. title page,
2. tiny "abstract" exerpt on what I did
3. intro
4. cite info every time

I can do this!!!!
(if I really can't, worse comes to worse I cram with a 4-pack of energy drinks)

Woooohoooo I'm NOCTURNAL!!!
Yeeeeah....
I'm bored, but I thoroughly enjoy the freedom of sleeping as long as I want whenever.
Even 1 week would have held me over.
I enjoy my freedom.

Christmas was kind of boring....
I am such a nerd
I was raving about the fact I understood the chemistry of the gift rather than it's purpose.
sweatdrop xd
So now New Years is coming up~!
When I'm 19 I'll be able to party elsewhere (but for now, yaaa family time)

2011......
My resolution doesn't matter.
I'll probably give up on it anyway.
I now rest my hope in getting a break after exams...
And start fantasizing about a trip...

Wheew....
busy 3 days.
Mind you, its not terrible.
Semi-easy chem test monday.

I had a screwy dream where a rat morphed and turned into a tongue and it was just wriggling on the ground.
Then I was with my ex trying to collect bananas and stay away from it.

Scored me a prom date....and then he chops his hair off. I loved his hair But then again, who knows?

Ugh.... so very tired...
I am already tired of school.

Data Management
Calculus
Spare
Physics

Holy freaking numbers, I'm gonna dream in code!!
So its a brand new semester, the first day wasn't too bad.
I got 58% in physics last year, it may sound insane for me to advance in it, but I've improved in math ridiculously since then and I'm taking the course to prove my teacher wrong (he basically said I'm bad at math).
Another extremist thing today is when I was at the gym, all I did was cycling for the entire hour. Tomorrow I plan to lift weights and do core exercises on the weekend.

February is going to be super busy, on sundays I'm going to be making decorations for the prom, socially I've got to keep up with things since I'm graduating (girl world, real friends, smokers, etc.). Theres some stupid dance (I live in a RETIREMENT town) my mom is dragging the family too (I might plan an escape.....). Now there is also the tournament our whole family is going to for my brother, While I'm there I get to see the guy I've had a crush on for quite a while (on and off, I don't let distance get to me).
I also recently have an obsession with the scent of coconut. I buy one leave-in conditioner and now I want the whole set I bought from, as well as a body butter and a scrub.
I also have to get graduation photos done this month, like I'm not busy enough.

One of my friends is overweight and she acts and feels less confident, I really want to help her somehow but I don't know how to approach it. She mentioned makeup, which I know my fair share about. But I find it weird and kinda gross that she only owns one bra. I've even thought of setting her up with a nice guy.
But how to approach is my problem.
I could even think of other guys I could hook some other girl friends with.

Valentines Day, is such a hallmark fake sickening holiday.
I think this holiday was made by leaders of society in history to ensure that the population stays elevated by promoting as much "love" or really, sex.