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 Posted: Tue Dec 14, 2010 8:59 am
This is my journal.
Delete my other one. I don't want it. Bad memories, and I would end up reading though all of them.
You can comment if you want, I don't care.
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I have no life. I have no job. I have no school. I have no social contact, except with my family. I have no life.
I am so unbelievably bored. I live too far away from the city to ride my bike, so I can't get a job. The closest thing to my house is a park and more houses. Oh, and a forest, with deer and spiders and possibly bears.
I am going insane.
This didn't bother me so much a while ago. Not really. I had my family, I had the internet, and I talked to my boyfriend daily. I even got visits from him every month or so.
But...
I stopped drinking so many sodas. I am addicted to caffeine. It is my drug, and I'm trying to stop being addicted to it. I don't care if you think it's a crack load of bullshit, go look it up. It's addictiveness has been proven. I've been drinking caffeine since I was young. Five or maybe a little younger. I don't remember. No, it doesn't effect me any more. But my body is used to it. So, so used to it.
And now I'm going insane. We are poor, we don't have anything to drink right now. The water tastes disgusting, and we are running low on sugar so I can't make tea. I don't want to play my dozens of games because I am depressed, TV is only interesting when certain things that aren't on often are on. This loneliness is driving me insane. I need a job, badly. Not only so I can make money and buy food, but so I can have human contact. All I want to do is sleep lately, but I'm trying to regulate my sleep schedule.
I just feel so alone, even though I'm talking to my boyfriend right now, watching my favorite TV show, and my Mom has the day off today. She doesn't have her car though. Dad's car is low on gas and he doesn't have money, so he's borrowing hers.
I don't know what to do.
I just feel kind of helpless.
But Marcel should be visiting me next Monday.
He should be.
I hope he does.
'Cause god I need him so bad right now.
I'm going insane.
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Posted: Tue Dec 14, 2010 9:42 am
Are you sure you want it deleted?
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Posted: Tue Dec 14, 2010 9:56 am
Yeah, the old one.
"Life sucks"
Thank you.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 5:24 pm
I've been reading a lot of fan-fiction lately. [ gasp! ]
I know.
It's a guilty pleasure of mine.
I hate them so ******** much though.
Sure, there are a few decent stories.
The characters are in character,
and the scenario is reasonably realistic,
even if the paring is not cannon, which is often isn't.
But ugh.
Look, I'm a woman. I'm a huge pervert.
I'm a nympho, even my boyfriend says I'm too much for him sometimes.
So yeah, I read a lot of those fanfics.
And yes, I'm a fan of both Yaoi and Yuri. I like Hetero too,
it's just often times the girl is either a whore, everybody likes her, both, she's a useless piece of crap that the author somehow made even more useless, or the plot is just terrible in general. :c
Anyways.
About the Yaoi.
I call bullshit and pretty much every Yaoi sex scene I've ever read.
Those girls don't know how penises, man-feelings, or anything of that sort works. :/
I mean... it's just frustrating.
I have a boyfriend.
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So I know that guys just don't act like that.
Sure, I'm sure some do. It certainly fits when the submissive character acts like that. But not all of them.
No. It's annoying as hell when every single guy character acts like the smallest touch is OMG SO ORGASMIC OOOOOOH.
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And yet I still read it.
I don't know who I should me more ashamed of.
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Posted: Wed Mar 09, 2011 9:15 pm
-----11.07 pm
Today has been totally god damn s**t. I hate it, I'm going to sleep soon, and I want to be done with it.
We were supposed to go to the museum today.
Oh no! Closing time is 2 hours away! We can't go today, Genean, sorry.
And then you go and make everything I do an issue. Why are you making ******** I do an issue.
Oh, you've been watching movies all day! Why don't you do something else!
Hey, what do you want to watch? "---" Fine! I can go play my game if you're going to be like that.
Ugh, my head's itchy. "---" Take a shower? Will you give me a blow job? Well then I just don't have any ******** you, Marcel.
I love you. But I didn't move in with you to be bitched at. Just ******** stop it.
Stop making every god damn thing I do into an issue.
Why are you doing this? ********, why?
Tell me?
And stop saying it's because it annoys you.
Please.
Every ******** thing anybody ever does annoys the s**t out of you.
It is not a valid excuse any more.
Good ******** night.
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Posted: Sat Mar 12, 2011 10:45 am
-----O3.12.11|12.43pmI am not praying for Japan. I'm praying for the people who live there. This is mostly aimed at deviantart, but it's really at anybody who is praying for japan because it's japan. Earthquakes happen all the time, and kill tons of people, everywhere? Do you pray for them? No! Do you know Haiti is still going through hell? Probably. Do you care? Probably not. It's not Japan. So ******** you weeboos and japanophiles and wannabes for making this art, and riding this rollercoaster, because it's Japan. I know, I'm a hypocrite, I don't pray for Haiti or Japan or anywhere else. Or at least, I don't pray for them. I know they'll be alright though. Eventually. Hopefully. I hope they'll be alright. I hope in my heart, in the future I'll be able to help those victims everywhere. I know right now I can't help them. That's why I won't do anything. For now. I'm not going to give money to some charity to spend in trying to help this country. ******** no. I'm going to go there and help them my self. It's the only way to make sure they get the help they need. Whenever I think of Haiti, I think of Omayra Sanchez. 
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Posted: Mon Mar 21, 2011 10:20 pm
I agree...it is very hard to see people only care because they're worried about their favorite voice actor or musical act. I mean, yes, these are people too...but would you care otherwise if your favorite bands weren't from there? Probably not.
It is so heartbreaking to see what the people are going through...still. The first thing I wanted to do was board an airplane and fly out there to provide crisis counseling...but unfortunately, I lack the credentials to do so. So, I'm fundraising. I wish I didn't have to resort to just giving money, but that's the way it is. For every disaster over the past couple of years, I have felt this pull, this need to help others and been crushed when I couldn't provide that help that others so desperately needed.
I agree with you...it is so difficult watching these people only care for non-humanitarian reasons...because I know that if it was another country, they wouldn't care as much. They are safe in their own little world, so what does the suffering of others really mean to them?
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Posted: Tue Mar 22, 2011 12:15 am
Exactly.
It's fine to care about bands or actors or animes, but don't let that be the only thing you care about. There are people there too, that need other people's help more then that voice actor.
It just pisses me off 'cause in a lot of threads across different websites I kept seeing "My anime was put on hiatus!" and stuff like that,
and the worst part was they weren't trolls. Either that, or they were supermegatrolls, but that's doubtful.
There are tons of other countries that need our help.
I have a friend who lives in Brazil and she was telling me that they have many problems over there, on top of a corrupt government, and the only thing people care about is the rainforest.
It's nice to want to preserve nature, but again, people do live in Brazil, not just rainforests and 'undeveloped natives' or whatever, you know?
It's just, ugh.
This whole matter sucks because I know it won't get better if I complain about it.
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 3:04 am
If anybody needs someone to talk to, because they're bored or lonely or depressed, I'm almost always on skype.
You'll find me as RoseyGen.
I like to talk to people too.
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Posted: Fri Apr 01, 2011 2:42 pm
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Posted: Sun Apr 03, 2011 5:58 pm
By far, this has been the most eventful weekend I can remember.
I've drank lots of water, and am probably considerably healthier. We went walking in the greenbelt on saturday and it was really nice. The dried up river was hard to walk down, but worth it. Also, airman's cave was amazingly cool compared to the outside temperature.
And my great-grandmother died at 11:19 the same day. Saturday, April 2, 2011. Her name was Alice Sargent and she was amazing.
Also, I'm kindofsortof friends with Marcel's friend now, so that's kind of cool, I guess. He'll be easier to tolerate I guess.
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Posted: Thu Apr 07, 2011 3:07 am
Oh god, I love sex with Marcel. ♥
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2011 1:57 pm
I love being drunk. But I'm afraid to ask.
I'm sorry to make you ask for me Marcel.
But it's weird for me to ask your dad to buy me vodka.
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Posted: Mon Apr 18, 2011 7:25 am
Genean, stop doing that.
You always want to do things. Roleplay, make a guild, take pictures, anything.
Anything.
And when you are able to, what do you do? You chicken out.
Why?
Why do you do this?
I don't know. Are you afraid of responsibility?
Are you really just the big kid you look like?
Stop being a chicken s**t, Genean.
Just stop it.
Roleplay.
Write.
Draw.
Talk to people.
Do stuff.
Stop ruining your life, Genean.
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Posted: Mon Apr 18, 2011 9:33 pm
Mmm~ Vodkaaa.
I've got a nice little drunk haze going on right now.
It feels nice.
Relaxing.
Except it's a b***h to type.
If i didn't fix my sentences
it's be something like this.
or whatever.
But it feels real nice.
But damn, vodka is hard to drink.
Burns my throat.
Burns it so nicely.
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