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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 10:06 pm
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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 11:03 pm
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Entry 1 Date: 6/15/2012 Time: 12:17 am
Subject: Thyroid.
Today is like any other day in my world. I have a condition that is called graves' disease, and it messes with me more than one way. It makes it hard for me to live, it hurts me, it makes me feel not normal.
I thrive on my emotions, they give me incite to things, move me to create and let me be who I am. And while my thyroid, being how it is, makes me unstable... It makes it hard to feel emotions sometimes or other times it makes me feel emotions that are out of control. It makes me out of control. I have night terrors because of it sometimes.. I'd wake up and scream at something, that normally isn't scary to me.
I have problems being in public because of it as well. I already have issues being in public because I have PDS (post dramatic syndrome) from me being sexually assaulted 2 years ago. But it makes it worse... as if sadness or being afraid isn't enough.
I was given a pill to subdue it a lil so that I could feel better. And for a time, it worked. That time.. is over, and now I have to deal with it again. I am a slave to my thyroid until I can have surgery on it or go through radiation so that I can finally feel better.
I will always have to take pills after they get rid of my thyroid, that's a given. And when I want to have children I will have to be monitored more than a regular woman would when going through pregnancy... It makes me upset that I can't be normal..
But I am going to do all I can to make myself think of good things, good feelings. I also try to preoccupy myself with playing zOMG and playing on IMVU, dressing my avi's seem to keep my mind off of stressful things. Drawing helps too.
I hope I can sleep tonight, its hard to breathe when I sleep because my thyroid enlarges and closes off my breathing tube... All I can do right now is pray.
A good positive thought for today is that I got to work on carving with my boyfriend and finally was able to help him with certain tasks. They are cute little bears with raccoon on branches and that inspired me a little. I may be able to post up pictures on what is being worked on. I may also take pictures of the land that I live on because it is beautiful.♥~
~Kassy♥
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Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2012 7:48 am
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Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2012 8:24 am
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Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2012 11:22 am
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Faebella Found it. smile I'm sorry you're going through this with your Thyroid. I feel your pain. I was told I will always need to be on medication, though I feel I can help treat it naturally. So, I don't take mine. So, if I may ask, have you thought the removal? Like, you have a choice between the two, surgery and radiation, don't you? Which you prefer to have?
Hey there ^^ Well, radiation screwed my mom up really bad and threw her into diabetes hard so I think I may do the opposite and try surgery. I have had surgery on my face before so I know how it will be like close to my neck so I feel most comfortable with surgery at the moment.
I still will try to ask around and see about how they felt after surgery so that I have more of a feel of what may go on when it does happen.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2012 12:29 am
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2012 11:38 am
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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2012 4:14 am
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Posted: Thu Jun 21, 2012 12:01 pm
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