Had enough. what now?

[hawkmaster91]

Things were finally looking up for me. I got to hang out with a friend i hadn't seen in about seven years. I've had strong feelings for her since i got to know her seven years ago. I was going ot tell her how i feel. While i was visiting, we got to talking about all sorts of things. her mom came home, and we were talking about past relationships. She told her mom that she was most likely getting back together with an ex of hers. She confided in me why they broke up. So i didn't mention my feelings. I'm 21, but I've been through enough to give up on love, romance, the whole nine yards. I reliazed today I'm destinied to be alone and miserable. I'm just trying to hang in. Right now, I'm about ready to just idk anymore.  

[hawkmaster91]

It's funny, I can take years of bullying, with no problem. brutual hit that kncks me out cold during a football game, I come to, and I'm begging to go back onto the field. One too many broken hearts, and i crumble

hawkmaster91

Things were finally looking up for me. I got to hang out with a friend i hadn't seen in about seven years. I've had strong feelings for her since i got to know her seven years ago. I was going ot tell her how i feel. While i was visiting, we got to talking about all sorts of things. her mom came home, and we were talking about past relationships. She told her mom that she was most likely getting back together with an ex of hers. She confided in me why they broke up. So i didn't mention my feelings. I'm 21, but I've been through enough to give up on love, romance, the whole nine yards. I reliazed today I'm destinied to be alone and miserable. I'm just trying to hang in. Right now, I'm about ready to just idk anymore.

 

[Xada Lourin]

The only thing I can really say is that there is someone out there for everyone... And if you want someone bad enough, you'll fight for them. But, love is also patient.

I'm definitely the best person to be giving this sort of advice, but I hope it helps a little.  

[hawkmaster91]

It's not that I don't want her, just from what she told me about her ex, he treated her very well. and he was great with her daughter. so I'm just bowing out  

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

It's not that I don't want her, just from what she told me about her ex, he treated her very well. and he was great with her daughter. so I'm just bowing out

I see. Do you doubt that you can treat her as well as he did?  

[hawkmaster91]

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me  

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me

You have an outlook like that and I don't think you should give up on love. Your capacity to love is ... astounding 3nodding  

[hawkmaster91]

I'm just done. DOne with being heartbroken, caring more about someone than they care for me. I've been in one stable relationship, which was roughly ten yrs ago. I haven't been happy since it ended

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me

You have an outlook like that and I don't think you should give up on love. Your capacity to love is ... astounding 3nodding

 

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

I'm just done. DOne with being heartbroken, caring more about someone than they care for me. I've been in one stable relationship, which was roughly ten yrs ago. I haven't been happy since it ended

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me

You have an outlook like that and I don't think you should give up on love. Your capacity to love is ... astounding 3nodding

I understand what you mean. And ultimately it's your choice. I just think that even your heart deserves a second chance.  

[hawkmaster91]

I've had a second, third, fourth, and fifth chance. I'm good.

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

I'm just done. DOne with being heartbroken, caring more about someone than they care for me. I've been in one stable relationship, which was roughly ten yrs ago. I haven't been happy since it ended

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me

You have an outlook like that and I don't think you should give up on love. Your capacity to love is ... astounding 3nodding

I understand what you mean. And ultimately it's your choice. I just think that even your heart deserves a second chance.

 

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

I've had a second, third, fourth, and fifth chance. I'm good.

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

I'm just done. DOne with being heartbroken, caring more about someone than they care for me. I've been in one stable relationship, which was roughly ten yrs ago. I haven't been happy since it ended

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

Not at all. From what she said, they were really happy together. And I love her. And I'd rather see her happy even if it's not with me

You have an outlook like that and I don't think you should give up on love. Your capacity to love is ... astounding 3nodding

I understand what you mean. And ultimately it's your choice. I just think that even your heart deserves a second chance.

lol You can't look for love, just let it come to you. even if you don't want it to come, if it's meant to be it will find you. ...wow, i just made love sound like a crazed stalker.  

[hawkmaster91]

THose other chances were me just in a relationship. I've been in love three times. My first gf, One of my best friends, who has given up on relationships after a really bad one this past year. And my friend i'm currently talking about. Out of those times, my first gf was the only time my love was recipocated  

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

THose other chances were me just in a relationship. I've been in love three times. My first gf, One of my best friends, who has given up on relationships after a really bad one this past year. And my friend i'm currently talking about. Out of those times, my first gf was the only time my love was recipocated

believe me, I do understand what you are saying and where you are coming from, more than i should. but you're 21!! there is still plenty of time to find love that will be reciprocated.  

[hawkmaster91]

I understand this, I've been in shitty relationships, doen some things I'm not proud of. All in all, at least for now, I'm done trying, i'm done dating. If something eventually happens, great.

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

THose other chances were me just in a relationship. I've been in love three times. My first gf, One of my best friends, who has given up on relationships after a really bad one this past year. And my friend i'm currently talking about. Out of those times, my first gf was the only time my love was recipocated

believe me, I do understand what you are saying and where you are coming from, more than i should. but you're 21!! there is still plenty of time to find love that will be reciprocated.

 

[Xada Lourin]

hawkmaster91

I understand this, I've been in shitty relationships, doen some things I'm not proud of. All in all, at least for now, I'm done trying, i'm done dating. If something eventually happens, great.

Xada Lourin

hawkmaster91

THose other chances were me just in a relationship. I've been in love three times. My first gf, One of my best friends, who has given up on relationships after a really bad one this past year. And my friend i'm currently talking about. Out of those times, my first gf was the only time my love was recipocated

believe me, I do understand what you are saying and where you are coming from, more than i should. but you're 21!! there is still plenty of time to find love that will be reciprocated.

i see. lol let whatever happens, happen.