When I realized I was Gay

[DreamersRemorse]

I was about 6 years old when I started to realize that there was something different about me. I was not like all the other little boys, I liked to wear girls cloths and put on my moms high heals and wear her make up. I loved when she painted my nails pink and tell me how pretty I was. I never made friends with boys, all the girls I was around I considered myself one of the girls. The older I got the more I wanted to act like a girl, I was about 10 when I started to have a crush on one of my guy friends. But I kept it to myself, never did I tell anyone this. I have never been with another man sexually but i have kissed. I have no desire to do anything with a girl and never have. But having know I am gay for 16 years now I still have yet to tell anyone in my family and only three people actually know that are my friends. So that is how I realized I was gay.....  

[Farzine]

I'm kinda the same, except the opposite.

I was very much a tomboy growing up. >.<
My mom told me that when I was younger I would pray to God to not let me grow boobs, and when she told me it doesn't work that way I threw huge fits. I also wanted to shave my head bald, but my mother wouldn't allow that; instead she let me cut it short like a guys. Girls clothes were never an option for me - if my mom or dad tried to get me to wear girly clothes I'd throw a tantrum until they let me wear what I wanted. >.< I even went as far as peeing standing up - which thankfully passed as a phase.
When I entered elementary/middle school I noticed I was having crushes on many more girls than I was boys. I was told, however, that being gay was gross by many of my 'friends', so I thought it was wrong and immoral, never told anyone.
After questioning myself throughout high school I came to the conclusion that I do like girls, however, I'm still not sure whether or not I like guys. ><  

[DreamersRemorse]

Wow, thank you so much for telling me about your story. I know I have no feelings at all for girls except friendship but I just cannot tell my family. They are they hard christians and do not want anything to do with gays

Farzine

 

[Farzine]

JakeStormLite

Wow, thank you so much for telling me about your story. I know I have no feelings at all for girls except friendship but I just cannot tell my family. They are they hard christians and do not want anything to do with gays

Farzine

No problem. ^
Yeah, I'm still closeted to most of my family. I've told my mom before and she went ahead and told my dad even after I told her I was not ready for him to know. He's a pastor and has told me before that he does not agree with the LBGT community - his whole side of the family is rather closed minded and conservative. I get to live with his parents, my grandparents, for the next 2-4 years while going to college unless I can get a job to support myself. =/

It sucks being in a rut like this. If we found someone we liked we wouldn't have the freedom to bring them home to meet family without getting judged. .-.  

[DreamersRemorse]

Farzine

JakeStormLite

Wow, thank you so much for telling me about your story. I know I have no feelings at all for girls except friendship but I just cannot tell my family. They are they hard christians and do not want anything to do with gays

Farzine

No problem. ^
Yeah, I'm still closeted to most of my family. I've told my mom before and she went ahead and told my dad even after I told her I was not ready for him to know. He's a pastor and has told me before that he does not agree with the LBGT community - his whole side of the family is rather closed minded and conservative. I get to live with his parents, my grandparents, for the next 2-4 years while going to college unless I can get a job to support myself. =/

It sucks being in a rut like this. If we found someone we liked we wouldn't have the freedom to bring them home to meet family without getting judged. .-.

Yeah i think that is part of the reason why I have not really dated either, I don't want to be in position where I cannot bring my other half home to meet my family. I do not want to have to choose between them. I just hope they will eventually accept who I am  

[Farzine]

JakeStormLite

Farzine

JakeStormLite

Wow, thank you so much for telling me about your story. I know I have no feelings at all for girls except friendship but I just cannot tell my family. They are they hard christians and do not want anything to do with gays

Farzine

No problem. ^
Yeah, I'm still closeted to most of my family. I've told my mom before and she went ahead and told my dad even after I told her I was not ready for him to know. He's a pastor and has told me before that he does not agree with the LBGT community - his whole side of the family is rather closed minded and conservative. I get to live with his parents, my grandparents, for the next 2-4 years while going to college unless I can get a job to support myself. =/

It sucks being in a rut like this. If we found someone we liked we wouldn't have the freedom to bring them home to meet family without getting judged. .-.

Yeah i think that is part of the reason why I have not really dated either, I don't want to be in position where I cannot bring my other half home to meet my family. I do not want to have to choose between them. I just hope they will eventually accept who I am

Mhm, same.
Once I get out on my own I'm going to just go with who I want to - being open about it with my family - and if they can't handle it then it's their loss. Chances are they'll love you enough to accept who you are.

I really like how this guy advises coming out to a strict family setting:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09RMqWo6br0  

[XrosHeartless]

I just kinda started experimenting with porn and fooling around with guys over the internet. Never done anything irl.  

[wingardium leviosah]

I hated to wear girl clothing, and I would get so pissed when my parents would make me wear them. I always wore boy Halloween costumes, and boy clothing, and I liked myself that way. I mean, I always knew I was different, but, I always kept it to myself. So technically, I just registered myself basically as liking no one. But, I knew officially I was gay when in the eight grade (in 11th now) my best friend of the time(a girl) out of the blue kissed me, and I just...liked it, and after that, I can't imagine myself with a guy...but, I can't tell my parents, because they are total homophobes and bigots.
stare

 

[The Girl Prince]

Ahh, I didn't realize it for a long time coming, truthfully.
But looking back on it, it's like "all the signs were there".
Growing up, i was very much a tomboy, refusing to wear "girls" clothes, and even openly wishing to be a boy for maybe 2 weeks straight -- my parents just laughed at me.
I had crushes on teachers and other girls, but I always thought it was some sort of admiration thing.
But then in high school, I became very close with a girl, and started wondering what was wrong with me -- I thought I was asexual because I had no interest (like that at least) up until then.

I was in such denial because I grew up in a very catholic household and went to a Catholic school my whole life...
I first really dated a girl in college, and since then, I've known for sure, that this is how I've been my whole life.

It's too bad I'm not out to my parents, yet. I dunno what to do when it comes to that.... D:  

[Chris ex Machina]

I never really saw any signs in me till Middle School. I never even had the thought of liking a guy, much less both guys and girls. But, actually, I might of had a sign. The feeling in my chest that I get around girls I like now when I was with my best friend. I was nervous as heck when I realized this. I thought it was weird, me liking my best friend who I've had since kindergarten. I had no idea he was bisexual either. He decided to come out to me... and I couldn't hold it in any more. And so began the events that led up to my first boy friend, him.  

[Black Blood Orchid]

i was in high school when i realized i liked girls, i have always been something of a hopeless romantic but i really never had that sort of feeling with guys and it didnt help to be pegged as "undateable" by every guy i knew. i mean it was to the point that people i didnt even like that way were telling me how they saw me as just a friend,
really that happened twice, to this day i still dont know how to respond to that
but as time passed and i began letting myself get comfortable with these feelings i became more comfortable with it. thats about the time i told my mother

now, you must know my mother is my one of my best friends, even now shes been more than a mom to me and its gotten me through some rough times.

but when i told her i was interested in girls, she began to cry, she told me how she felt like she failed me and that it was her fault i was bisexual. so i put those feelings aside and just kind of ignored that part of myself.

years later i get married and to an amazing guy.
but at the time i was also working with some amazing people and i started to get those feelings again and by this time enough was enough.

so i put on a pretty dress, got dolled up and took my husband to a picnic in the park.

so were sitting there talking about blowjobs of all things when i finally blurted it out, and much to my suprise, he didnt want a divorce, actually he was quite alright with the whole thing and after talking about it we came to the conclution that the only thing it really effected was our taste in internet porn.

and after that i approached my mom with it again, we didnt talk much about it, and she did seem upset, but after it sank in and she was able to process the whole thing she didnt seem bothered by it in the slightest.

i was blessed with a family filled with unconditional love and even though they are not perfect, but in the end it all worked out for the best... took some time, but im happy it happened this way.

(please excuse the spelling errors, apperently spellcheck dose not work in guilds...)  

[debbiecutiepie]

When i was 10 years old i was foundly attracted to guys so i became gay when i was highschool and my bf was cute and funny to date and since we've been together i have always luv him so and he luv me too smile  

[Lifty_Raccoon]

I was about 12-13, the age a lot of guys have their first crush. All the guys talked about how hot girls in my school where. I could never see it. I could admit that they were pretty, but I wasn't attracted to them at all. I tried dating girls, but I could only see them as friends. Then I had a day dream of me kissing one of my friends... well... that kinda did it for me. I'm not sure if it's common, but my twin came to the conclusion that he was gay as well by himself... so I had at least some support.  

[Raeiko]

Well I can thank SailorMoon for helping me realize I liked girls I liked girls since I was 5 and I was in denial untill about 12 or 13 because I was always told No it's bad it's wrong it's evil but then I realized it doesn't matter all that matters is your with someone that makes you happy and you love them as well as they love you in return. I sat and thought to myself Ive had a crush on 2 of my really good friends growing up and I always loved the female body and that I thought the Sailor scouts were hot that's when I realized.  

[Taka-tan]

I never really talked to many people to know if I really gave any signs. All I know, I surprised everyone when I told them, so maybe I really didn't. I think I was about 11, maybe. I denied it, being taught by my strict Christian parents that it was wrong. But eventually I had to reveal that part of myself or I felt like I would have exploded because of hiding it. I had a crush on my best friend (
^Noire Samhain, up above) so that made coming out even more awkward.