- I seriously never know what to wear.
I always like to prepare my outfits the night before I wear them to make sure they look okay and so I don't get rushed in the mornings, but often I don't even know what to lay out. I just look through my closet and dresser, almost never find what I want to wear that day, and end up going to school feeling uncomfortable or unorganized. I'll admit that there are some days that I find the perfect outfit and leave my house feeling like a supermodel, but those days are rare and mostly happen when the weather is warm. It is currently snowing heavily outside where I live. I asked my mom if I could go out shopping and buy some new clothes, but she said that I have way too much already (which is a total lie because I share clothes with my older sister since we're the same size and I know people that own more clothes than the two of us combined) and that we should be thankful for all the clothes we already have and that we should stop caring about how we look. I would like to stop being so self-conscious and stuff, but I can't help it. The people in my school are seriously judgemental (unfortunately, that includes myself) and I want to look presentable. I don't understand how the 'popular' people can arrive at school everyday wearing their brand-name clothes and crap, never wearing the same thing twice. Seriously, how much money could they possible have?? I asked one of my friends once, and they said that their parents buy them whatever they want. I died that day. I have to buy my own clothes with my own money and my parents only pay for the food I eat, the house I live in, and other basic needs. So what am I supposed to wear everyday? I mean, I get compliments on new shirts or whatever, but once I've worn them, that's it. I wear them again, but people have already seen it so they are unimpressed whatsoever. Anyways, what do I do? Btw, I'm not a girly girl or anything like that. I just like to be casual, neat, and occasionally cute.
