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I can't stand this. I want out of this life so much. I'm not talking about suicide. Don't worry about that... My personal Family life.. I hate it here.... I made a status on Facebook, but ******** people QQed and texted my mom, and she QQed and flipped out on me. I hate it here so much. I'm crying my eyes out because my mom just yelled at me, and pretty much told me to get the ******** out because of the stupid status I made on Facebook. This ALWAYS happens when i express myself. why can't anyone just stfu and let me express myself finally? Why does everyone - At least my family - Treat me like complete ******** s**t. They treat me so badly I just want to ******** strangle them all.

This is what I had said on facebook " So, I'm saying this honestly. I also don't HONESTLY care if she reads this. Or if my mom, or family. I'm tired of this bullshit. I'm tired of amber thinking she can just leach off of me and my mom. She thinks everything is hers. she think she can take everything and get away with it. No, Amber, You can't. For all I care, you can go suck a c**k and die. I'm tired of her bullshit and this life with her. I WILL find a job, and leave - Whether I have to live with my mom still - I can't take ******** living her anymore. I need to get out of here before I really SNAP at her. This little status - update - bullshit thing - Yea, This isn't even the last draw. I'm Tired and I need to leave - need to get away from her bullshit and the stupid crap about "Woe is me" act. Oh boo, you have Diabetes and you're not taking care of yourself correctly. WELL STOP ******** ACTING LIKE YOUR ALL THAT AND YOU NEED HELP WHEN ALL YOU NEED IS TO ******** CHANGE AND GROW THE ******** UP. Thank you I'm done."

Then, This is what my mom said - OVER facebook chat " don't make me report it...i will. i raised you better than that. how dareyou ever wish someone to die i have friends who have lost children. now deleter it...your language is a terrible way to talk for a young lady. i love you daughter but this is so not cool. Is what my mom jsut said to me"

Like seriously? Why the ******** can't you ******** let me express myself? I understand I curse, Yea, I can't express myself without getting my point covered when i DON'T curse. When i DO curse, People LISTEN, like wtf is that bs. I can't stand it. I'm crying right now, and I just want to leave.

I didn't know where else to go. This place has always been my family. And I understand I don't post much here anymore, or anything like that.. But.. I.. I just had to finally EXPRESS myself..

I'm 19. She was like "It's where so many people can see it. It reflects on how I raised you all."

No. it doesn't. It reflects on how you're children ******** decided on how to live there ******** lives.

See, this is how I feel exactly. But she just never lets me express myself freely. They always snap at me if I do.

I always have to wear a mask and pretend around everyone. I can't express or show the real me without being hated on or bashed upon. I can't handle it. I'm slowly destroying myself this way. But no one even tries to give me a day of light to even understand me or how i feel. They just think I'm complaining.

Wow, 27 and acting like a child? And your mum is saying that she raised you right? What about her? She seems like she is 7 and not understanding her place. Just because she is older, doesn't give her the right to claim your things or push you over. (Continuing from facebook,)

She should let you age and yell and curse and whatever you see fit for the moment. It would help release how you really feel so she could understand how you feel about it. Also, have you tried speaking to your sister or your mom about what you think about it? It's a family matter and they should fix it since you've done nothing wrong.

I also think it would be best for you and anyone else suffering to move away from the source, so to move out and live with a friend or any relatives that treat you nicely. It'll help you recuperate so you can feel better and happy.

You're getting older and acting immature as well. You should eventually learn how to express yourself without wishing death upon people, or at least find an outlet that isn't facebook or other social media.

I'm not saying she is in the right, but neither were you. Family matters need to be dealt with in the family, not out in the open on social media.

She's not against you expressing yourself from her comments, she's against you badmouthing and wishing people to die over facebook.

I'm probably missing a lot from the story, but neither of you are being the adult here from what I can tell.

Yeah, that's why I just cry out some tears out of me during night .

and again.. yeah. Firstly, I need to learn how to cook before I turn 18 and find a job after graduating from college. Also need to find an apartment or a house.. after graduating that is.

Oh okay. Sweet, teach me xD

Good Luck to you too c: hope u move out soon so you can live peacefully even if it's a lil bit of peacefulness sweatdrop