3 months ago, I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl. Her father and I couldn't be more happy, but the place where we were living? We absolutely HAD to leave so now we live in a small country town. I know NOTHING about this place whereas he knows just about everything. I have no friends here, no family here...Nothing.
He recently got a job that end soon and still hasn't started looking for a second one. I'm feeling like I'm doing all of the baby work and, soon enough, all of the work in general:
-House cleaning
-Baby duties
-Two jobs that I have to WALK back and forth from(Wal-Mart and a Factory job. Hoping to get both)
His family that we're living with basically wants us to have enough money to get moved into an apartment by next month or we HAVE to go back to living with my boyfriend's mother. Honestly, I could have had a job by now if everyone in the house other than me didn't work in the morning..We have no money for daycare, so we have to work our schedules around for someone to be with her..
I feel like I'm going to implode!! I feel that every second that she screams, I should scream for my own sake before I absolutely lose it. I know that she cries when her father holds her, but that's not going to change if he just hands her off to me when she gets the big screams. When she gets to crying WHO is she passed off to? Me. I tried BEGGING him to let me leave her with his mother or SOMETHING...move back to my home town where I know people and he just seems so against it..I feel so isolated and it's eating away at me..I can't go out and do anything fun without getting upset that my friends aren't with me...people that I KNOW.
What's wrong with me..?
It's A Girl Thing! ♥
A Family, A Home.
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