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High-functioning Allegiant
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 Posted: Mon Mar 30, 2015 6:45 pm
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2015 12:45 am
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2015 12:29 pm
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Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2015 5:02 pm
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2015 2:22 am
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Sullen SnowAngel Our mother passed peacefully at home. We are holding her funeral this Wednsday. But her death has left this sense of confusion since I plan on staying in the house we lived in together, and raising my own family in it. At the moment, it feels as if I am mentally flailing. For what, I don't know but Jesus will support me as long as it honors him. It will not be easy but I can survive. It's just that the house is too quiet now. There are times when I feel peace, but there are slight throbings in my chest. I don't know how to describe it.
I am still in the house that my mom passed away in. Honestly, I closed off her room for couple months. It was too difficult.
If you need to cry, don't hold back. Don't try to be strong for anyone... Even if that means for yourself. I made the mistake of thinking strength was sweeping my emotions under the rug. Because of doing that, my grieving was extended tenfold. I didn't face it for a long time. Of course you are going to be hurting... No one can ever replace your mom's place in your heart nor in your life. She will always be with you in memory and in spirit.
You can "survive", but doesn't make the grieving process any less difficult. There are a lot of emotions, and sometimes it can just be so overwhelming. Take it one day at a time... There is no "right" way to grieve. Just in my experience, trying not to acknowledge it does more damage in the long run. Think and remember the good memories you shared with her. Maybe she had a favorite songs, her favorite foods, or movie maybe you two shared some odd quirks that was just apart of your bond. Sometimes, when someone gets sick... It's harder to remember the good memories.
Ultimately, she's no longer suffering... God relieved her of her pain and suffering. I found peace in knowing my own mom passed away peacefully at home, in her own bed. That her suffering was over. But it took awhile for me to really grasp that... Part of me wanted me angry she was gone. Angry at God for "taking her away". In reality, I look back now and realize that my mom had such a heavy burden. God gave her the rest that she needed... |
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 2:16 am
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High-functioning Allegiant
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Posted: Sun Apr 05, 2015 4:10 am
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Posted: Tue Apr 07, 2015 9:05 am
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High-functioning Allegiant
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Posted: Fri Apr 10, 2015 6:13 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 10, 2015 6:59 pm
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High-functioning Allegiant
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