|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:15 pm
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/posts/say/say_b1_p.gif) |
Earlier...in a different topic, i gave the poll, would you choose a lasting or a joy...Now that my Girlfriend doesnt Stalk my gaia account anymore, i can say why...
I Am engaged as some of you know, and usually happily so. But about 5 weeks about me and her got into a huge argument. Im talking weeks worth of hate between us. I didnt want to so much as look at her. But things are pretty fixed. But now my problem is...
As we were fighting, another person showed themselves to be one of the nicest, coolest, awesomest people i know. She was fun, sweet, and almost opposite of my Girl. Well, i feel like i have feelings for this new girl. I feel like such a horrible person, and i cant hurt a girl, no matter what. I tried to break it off when things were so bad, but i couldnt bring myself too. I hate these feelings...all of them now.
The lasting was my fiance, that even though im happy with her, i dont always feel like its right, and The joy is this new girl, that even if it only lasted one day, i know i would be so very happy, So happy.
Tell me, do you still choose what you did, or do you change your mind, what would you do with this problem, please help me........
|
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
|
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/template/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/template/s.gif) |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 7:05 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 7:58 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 12:11 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 9:18 pm
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/posts/say/say_b1_p.gif) |
Thanks toric...
Thanks Angel
I am old enough to know love. Believe me, it was, but even love can fade with the right reasons. I never looked at the other girl like this until i started fighting with mine. And i would never cheat. I refuse to do that. I told her about the other girl. That was the best thing i could do at the moment. Why hold something like that in, and then have it build up so much i do something i would regret. But i think ive decided when i grow enough of a "pair"...im going to leave my fiance, and just stay alone for a while. I might just say i need some time to think about my life. Almost all my goals changed for this girl. And i want to think about life, not love. I dont want to be with anyone, not my girl, or the new girl right now. I just want some time to, like you said, enjoy my life. Live it for friends, and for me. I wanted college before her. I didnt want kids, and i just wanted some fun. Now, its serious, i wanted kids...WANTED...and no college, just a manual labor job that will support me and her. I never wanted to be close to that in any way before.
Of course some good things changed...no more self mutilation...well...not like that, i still like ot fight...i dont hate myself...and ive bettered my mentality and ability to make friends since being with her...but she just happens to not like all my "new" Friends...
Oh well...
And muerto...i cant really say which i like more....because they both offer something i want...something i need...and something i dont want from either...
Well...alone might be the choice for the moment...even if it means she happens to find someone that treats her better...or realizes that she has more fun at the moment alone...i wouldnt mind..as long as she is happy in life...id be...regardless of how mine goes...i just want to hurt either of them...
|
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/s.gif) |
|
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/template/s.gif) |
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/template/s.gif) |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 9:49 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 3:19 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 5:10 am
|
|
|
|
|
|
![](//graphics.gaiaonline.com/images/template/s.gif) |
|
|
|
|
|