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I rarely have time to sit and read through PMs....being on GAIA Online for me is not all fun in games like most of you. It consist of...reading PMs...after PMs after PMs (for most moderators). Then moving onto hacking and scamming cases...~_~ I then go on the Donation FAQ thread...reply to questions and clean out Barton Town Forums and Ragnarok Online forums. I rarely visit Guilds forum due to my main goal to ...help better organize the Barton Town forum. *sigh* Sure...I have several thoughts of quitting GAIA Online....I just might do that some time this month.

I haven't had a decent "fun" on GAIA Online...people view the Moderator status as being a police enforcer. But they don't know that GAIA Online won't be "organized", "cleaned", "community oriented", and "safe" for everyone of all ages. If I could tell those that are always hateful towards the Staff of GAIA Online ... try keeping this place intact. Oh sure...its easy...WRONG...it sure as hell NOT easy to moderate. I've always kept my Customer Service attitude when responding to a PM...but occassionaly you will recieve someone who is not satisfied with GAIA. We give the user as much reason as to why GAIA is like this.

I remember this one incident where a user was so furious with me about the spam in Barton Town forum...that I was close to snapping at her. It was not my fault that users are creating threads minute after minute, seconds after seconds...I can't catch every single spam thread. I'm just a HUMAN being who needs rest away from the computer. HELL! I have a life outside GAIA Online! Just respect what we do...and let us do our job. This is a voluntary gig.....

But anyways, I should put my PMs to friends' only for the time being. Maybe it'll give me time to answer my already piling inbox. And before being a Moderator ....that was what...1 or 2 years ago O_O? I STILL get PMs ....due to me being The GAIA Times Journalist back then.

Hopefully, after a good night sleep...I'll have more thought on my future of Moderatorship....cause its no longer a walk in the park. Back when I began as a moderator (June of 2003) it was so peaceful to moderate a community of 500 users...but now...GAIA has reached...what...thousands or million users per day???

GAIA to me, is no longer a community...but its full of people with different agendas....every of which has good and the bad. I miss good ole GAIA...but now...its not what it is anymore. crying

Hrmmm....after Anime Expo 2005...I might decide to step down from Moderator-hood or GAIA Online indefinitely. I haven't enjoyed a decent GAIA experience...since the sudden BOOOOOM of GAIA's user registration. The last event I've enjoyed being at was.....The FIRST Annual GAIA Online Anniversary Ball..back in 2003....but anyways...I'll be finishing up my Moderator duties and go back to becoming a regular user...in which I have not been since who knows when.

I've become tired.... many of my friends ask me not to step down. The reason I join the GAIA community is to enjoy it...I'm not enjoying it anymore...I'm fearing the community.... crying hopefully....I'll change my mind because I like to help people and keep a positive attitude about it...but right now I really want to quit being a moderator.

Just to let you know...I've always been the crazy, happy-go-lucky moderator that will talk to you in a friend to friend tone. Not a moderator to a user....that is not what I do.... crying

*Edit* Lately, I've been very uncertain of my Moderating abilities...I think maybe its time to step down. Cause everything I do...seems to be inaccurate...