I have been thinking. Thinking about my life. About the life I want with my love, Jake. About, everything. My home that is not really a home in my minds eye, my friends, my family. I want to leave this place. I am thinking this through very responsible this time. I never thought things through before but now, now I am going to make sure my path curves towards the right direction. Curves to a place where I can call home and belong once again.
Belong. What a word, ah, It is but one word, right? One word can cause life, death, despair, hatred, happiness, love even! It is amazing. This word. This word has been on my mind. And I am finally getting this on paper. My journal this time won't be very reasonable but, I try. I am trying to think things through clearly. If I want to belong somewhere,I guess i have to work at it. If I don't, it just proves everyone right and me, wrong once again.
Once and for all I will carve my own happiness! I will make my heart red and pumping and get out of this despair called depression for I am not depressed!!!!! I WILL BE VICTORIOUS!
*ahem* thank you. *exits stage left*
 moon_neko_23 · Mon May 14, 2007 @ 09:19pm · 1 Comments |
